Friday, September 15, 2006

Hmm...
You know what......I feel pretty damn content right now. Im not even sure why. I mean, technically, everything in my life is going down, but I cant seem to want it any other way. I once again threatened to quit anime and gaming club, because Robert was being an ass saying I was mean to him, and that he'd have a bad year if I did quit. However, Im not leaving club because there are others that need me there, such as my friend Courtney, Andy, and even Liquidsilver! I wont forgive him that easily this time, because just like that old saying "a friend will bail you out of jail, but a good friend will sit by you and say we screwed up." Im letting him know he's said the wrong things, he's screwed up, BAD! Other than that, I still have no Wolfman for my movie. Devil May Cry 3 is a bitch to beat, and Im pretty sure I subconsciously tried to kill myself today. Oh, not to mention, a few people are bitching that I went back on my word by never making another anime club branch. First of all, I NEVER GAVE MY WORD IN THE FIRST PLACE! IT WAS JUST A COSMIC IDEA, IT WAS NEVER PUT IN STONE! Secondly, people have to stop relying on me. Some people are all angry that Ive been elsewhere at lunch and not with them. IM NOT THEIR FREAKING PERSONAL FRIEND! I have other friends I need to hang out with, so they shouldn't, not even for a second, think Im obligated to hang out with them just because it happened to be that way up until now. Also, Im being left out of things, a friend of mine is attempting to make ninja armor, as cool as it sounded, Im just a poor pathetic girl that can't be of any help. People say I complain too much about Robert, thats because he's over doing it! Sad story of my life, Ive always called out for help, no one's cared. So now, Ive become so used to it, that I'd prefer not to be helped. Oh, and for some damn reason Im failing my Modern America class. And I know Ive done everything so far. Ive racked my brain to complete it all. The problem is I learn by hearing, not by reading, and he just happens to give us reading a good percentage of the time. So I need my mom to understand that its not a failure to turn in work and its not a failure to give enough effort. For once its simply the case, I cant learn it. And in acting techniques, the teacher said I failed an assignment that I know I turned in. Even my friend saw it on my desk. It pisses me off! I cant seem to relax at all. You try resting with a gash on your collarbone(that is what I meant by subconsciously trying to kill myself) I'd imagine I'll be cranky tomorrow. Well, gotta go clean the knives. Later...
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