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Sunday, May 15, 2005
hello...
Hello everybody... how are you all... i am truly sorry if i have scared anyone with the posts from the past week or so... too much has been happening... my mom threatening to shoot me... my dad threating to throw me out of the house... as well as many other events that i wish not to talk about... it seems as though it cant get any worse... I have a poem that i wrote... and feel that it accents my current emotion...
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"Untitled"
Why do I hold on?
Why do I keep going...
In this world...
This world in which I stand alone...
As my thick black blood drips...
Slowly toward the ground...
A feast to that which lies below...
That which is brought to happiness...
My brothers...
My sisters...
I await your presence...
I await to be reunited...
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I wish you all a nice day... and hope to see you tomorrow...
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Friday, May 13, 2005
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my life has no meaning anymore... there is little point to it... i have a new poem...
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"A Man"
I am but a man...
That deserves not to live...
A worthless man...
That couldn't even save that which he loves...
The knife...
The blood...
Pills...
It's all my fault...
I didn't stop her...
Her life was successful...
Mine is worthless...
I deserve to die...
To get my throat slit...
A nail driven into my wrist...
Hung with a slipknot...
Doused and lit...
Beaten until I'm bloody...
Dead and reunited with you...
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have a nice day...
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
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how has everyone been doing... i have been much... much better... my day was "interesting"... especially lunch... plots to take over the world... and the division of the states(and canada once we control it...)... I got stuck with texas because "It is a big state and should be ruled by a big man"... it is odd... this insane plot got me in a much better mood... but it is usually the case when i start hanging out with my friends...
i know some of you dont want to hear this... but... the question has cropped up many a time in the personal messages i have recieved... yes... i do cut myself... i am trying to stop though... this may seem odd... but i am curious... how many of you cut yourselves as well... if you do not want to leave it in the comments just pm it to me... but you are not forced to answer... even though i would like you to...
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005
poem...
yes... another new poem... i have been writing alot lately with all that has been happening... the things i found out last weekend... which you may be able to tell from the poem... other than that... i got in a fight with my mom... which happened to be the only person that i got along with in my house... i hate it... im about to just move out... my house would probably be alot better off without me... nobody probably cares about whats happening to me... so i might as well not waste my energy and just post the poem...
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"Pieces"
Pieces...
Pieces of me...
Pieces of you...
The pieces which you have taken along with you...
To the grave...
The piece of my heart that you owned...
That which you had carried...
That little piece of me...
It was but a month old...
It showed our love...
Our everlasting friendship...
The amount of time which we spent...
Before you left...
Before I was forced to stand alone...
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i hope you all had a good day...
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Monday, May 9, 2005
poem...
i am sorry if i offended anyone with the suicide quiz i posted yesterday... that was not my intent... i thought it was pretty interesting... and so i posted it... i have a new poem though...
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"See"
I see burning
I see hate
The fears come true after this long day past...
I see...
Eternal darkness...
Everlasting sorrow...
Eternal suffering...
Then I look within myself...
Through the scars...
The blood...
The hate...
Pain...
Sorrow...
And death...
I see a light... A light angelic...
With great divine wings... wings that consume hate...
These wings that have been long broken...
I see lost hope...
A life anew...
Ressurected in this time of need...
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I will see all of you later... goodbye...
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Sunday, May 8, 2005
...quiz...
| You scored as slit wrists. hey, your form of suicide is a classic. It may take a while but, hey -- at least you'll have enough time to write a good suicide note, eh?
slit wrists | | 100% | slice neck | | 86% | stab yourself | | 50% | hang yourself | | 43% | overdose | | 43% |
what is your form of suicide?
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suicide... blood... drip... drip... drip...
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hey...
hey everyone... i hope you are all doing well... my day has been very uneventful and boring... i hate the light outside... i am quietly awaiting the arrival of darkness... so i may hunt... rend the flesh of the mortals... feast on their souls... the thought of the savory taste of blood... how i cannot wait... i have prepared another new poem as well... i hope you enjoy it...
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"Blood"
Your blood!
It is but the opposite of mine!
Red and full of life-
Void of darkness...
How is it so-
Me... a minion of darkness...
Not to have blood full of hate...
Full of rage!
... KILL...
... REND...
... SLAUGHTER...
... DEVOUR!
Be happy...
As I impale you with a sword...
Take it out and slap it on your face...
Then walk away as i lick the blood off of it...
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Saturday, May 7, 2005
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not much today... i have to go speak at Lindsey's funeral... sorry if i scared anyone yesterday... so much shit has been happening lately... no poem today... just the lyrics to "Invasion From Within" by Tsumani Bomb...
"The Invasion From Within"
Enemy inside of me!
I'm caught! I cannot kick them out
Their claws are wrapped around my throat and they are squeezing tighter
Insanity is coming over me
Their every wish is my command
No way out!
I feed them, you will too!
They're gonna take control of you!
You'll know when they have got you trapped
Everything looks cloudy and you feel like you're on fire
Inhabited, I wish that I were dead
My blood has turned from red to black
No way out!
When they come for you
They see right through your flesh and bones for soon you'll be their home
They know you deep inside, the things you can't try to hide
No hope after the first bite
Look out 'cause they are onto you
They'll cut you open, crawl inside and you'll be lost forever
Don't try to run 'cause you're the chosen one
Your world is gone, no turning back
No way out!
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Friday, May 6, 2005
poem...
not much happened today... school is but a hell of boredom... i wrote a new poem today...
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"Untitled"
Death, blood, fire, and gore...
May you parade on furthermore...
To the pits
Where Satan sits
And the diabolic hordes
Are led by the priests of discord
As I fill with hate...
As they berate...
As the banshees scream...
As I have this dream...
As I cut and slice...
As I gouge and dice...
As I contemplate life...
As I stare at the knife...
I wonder why I hold on...
I wonder why I havent gone...
I wonder why I don't point a gun to my head...
I wonder why I don't shoot myself dead...
I love the sight of bloodspill...
I love the adrenaline of the kill...
I love the thought of the hunt...
I love the taste of its life...
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goodbye...
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Thursday, May 5, 2005
poem...
happy cinco de mayo to all... I am not feeling so good today... I just found out that one of my friends started cutting herself again... i hope everyone else is doing better than I... I feel like posting a poem that I wrote yesterday...
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"Cuts"
Cuts and slices...
They pay most prices...
For the ticket to hell...
So one may say they fell...
To the place where they belong...
Where they can hear the banshee's song...
Where they can wait and bleed...
As they repent for their greed...
While they end their life...
With a single knife...
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on a good note... i just stood up on my knee and it popped back in place...
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