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Thursday, August 4, 2005


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"Family Reunion"
"I'm sitting here, Dead and Alone; waiting for Brother to arrive, to share with me his hope, to pull me from thought of meloncholy."

(I am not far...
I will not be long...
You will hear me coming...
For I sing death's song...)

"He has forgotten me, his own sister, devoit of blood's bonds. Left me when I needed a hand- someone that cared."

(I have long walked this road...
Forever untold...
Drudging through sin and disbelief...)

"The beast attacked, I saw it's face. It made my heartbeat run and race... where are you, brother. I want to see your wings.

(I can feel inner demons awake...
Hate reborn...
Visions rise...
Rage burns bright...)

"I don't think you realise; I'm afraid to be alone. I need to see a smile so i can reinact it. Where am I suppose to go, what do I do? I want your guidance, that angelic light."

(Meetings...
Release..
Get backstabbed...
Everyones got a stake...
See red...
What is it...
Me...
You...?)

"I hear a knock, Sissy gets it. Says it's for me. Get out of bed and head for the door. There's no doubt about it! It's his trench! I jump and attack with puppy dog eyes and big bunny hugs. Brother came, I'm so happy. I feel a spike pierce me, but don't care, Brother's okay, that's all that matters."

(I'm here, sis...
Your eyes...
Tears dripping...
You have been through quite an ordeal...
It's okay...
Cry away...
I am here...)

"I'm so confused. What did I do to deserve this? What happened?
What did you do? Are you hurt?"

(The sea...
It is rather beautiful...
Do you see how it gleams with the sun...
An omen...)

"What do you mean, Brother? It's only a picture. I don't understand. Is there something wrong with your head?"

(It will be clear...
Give it time...
Pain is but a game of the mind...
Proper thought prevails...)

"What does that mean? If you think right you will feel better? Am I right, Brother?

(If that is what you make of it...)

"....Okay.... you must be hungry, let me go ask daddy if you can stay for dinner."

(I have already overstayed my welcome...)

"Noooooo; I insist, you look skinny. I'm worried about your health, Brother."

(Do not fill your head with such thoughts...
I am but a foolish mortal...)

"Silly goose!! Quit thinking with your butt!!"

(I must now take my leave...
Shadows await my return...
Fires await their fuel...)

"So soon!? Okay. Keep in touch, I want to know that your okay."

(You must promise me...
Dance will become limited...
Recovery is priority...)

"I promise"

(......goodbye......)


8/3/05
-Kaylee Miller
aodtr666...
....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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Saturday, July 30, 2005


...

"Life at the End of the Barrel"

All is lost and I'm alone...
No more hope because I'm done..
I guess it's time...
This is life at the end of the barrel...

One pull of the trigger...
My brains on the floor...
I can't think because I'm dead...
You can't cry because you are too...
Nobody to stop me...
You left before me...

This is life at the end of the barrel..
Nothing left... nothing more...
The time is now for death galore..
Pick up the nine..
Go bust a few...
Take revenge...
You know it's you...

My life is complete...
It's all done...
Fulfilled the reason I stay...
It was fun...
Maybe next time...
It can turn out different...
I can stitch up my scars...
Live a life fulfilled...
One thats whole...
Being at peace with my soul...
Goodbye...
....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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Friday, July 29, 2005


...

"Sakura Petals"
Sakura petals falling down...
Causing nothing more than frowns...
Deep demise..
Some thoughts untrue...
Even that which I told you...
The time is now for me to die...
For now I know it was a lie...
I could care less if it's in the past...
All these memories will always last...
....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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Tuesday, July 26, 2005


"Tears of Me"
Tears of red begin to race-
Down my torn and beaten face;
Tears for you...
Tears for me...
Tears of red for all to see...
From broken hearts and shattered dreams...
The time is now (or so it seems)...
To let tears fall...
And make a sea...
All these tears, these tears of me...
....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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Wednesday, July 20, 2005


...

Hang my worthless soul out to dry...
Beat me with a bat until I die...
Why not release your hate...
While laughing at my fate...
Slit my wrist...
Stab a knife in my gut and twist...
Watch my life drain...
Release all my pain...
So I can return to the lands of my spawning...
The lands where the past is always dawning...
The fires burn high...
All because im back... and I will again die...
My soul is only here to feed...
Only for those who need...
This is my purpose in life...
To die by the knife...
....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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Tuesday, July 19, 2005


...

"Raining"
It's raining...
It's poaring...
This poor man is snoring...
He shot his head...
And now he's dead...
He will not wake next morning...
....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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Monday, July 18, 2005


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"Regression"
Two steps forward...
Ten steps back...
Many marks made...
Few marks healed...
I walk the path of regression...

I climb up the ladder...
And fall two ladders length...
All the time I spent toward correction...
It's nothing but a wasted breath...
I walk the path of regression...

I know it can be done...
But not without loss...
I can turn myself around...
But at a cost...
To see the path of corr...

....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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Thursday, July 14, 2005


untitled work...

I gaze upon that which is in front of me... shimmering glass... I see my wrist... and over my shoulder I see it... a knife... I find a force drawing me to it... closer... closer... I begin to draw it to my flesh... I feel the cold steel upon my skin... I slowly draw it upon my wrist... watching my life fall before my eyes... much like red rain... looking back toward the glass I notice it... what most call a smile... glaring back at me... ignoring it, I continue to strike... slashing... tearing the flesh from my bones... allowing the rain to poar... faster and faster... my vision begins to blur... my thoughts cave... my exsistence gone... yet a smile kept... as my lifeless corpse falls to the ground... and I return to my grounds of birth...
....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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Wednesday, July 13, 2005


...

"Fall"
I fall into the void...
That was once known as my heart...
The endless pit...
Death...
Decay...
Disease...
Pestilence...
The spawn of my being...
Born from that which must I bare...
That which I have recieved...
That which I deserve...
Until the fall of the rains...
The release of exsistence...
The dawn of new beginning...
Rebirth from my very remains...
So I may relive this torture...
When will this cease...
When will it end...
Only whenst I choose...
When I have returned to that from which I have risen...
The time is now...
I can already taste the crisp new air...
Smouldering fire...
Encasing in winds...
Feeding the ever strengthening blaze...
The all-consuming light of Nirvana...
The time is now...

....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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Tuesday, July 12, 2005


poem...

"Untitled"
Running...
Until I trip...
My face beaten...
The flesh torn from my feeble bones...
And I decide to stand...
Fight...
No more avoiding this...
It must be done...
Weather I succeed of fail...
Live of die...
No more running...
No more falling...
No more hurting...
No more lieing...
It's been all too long...
I've fallen all too far...
All too fast...
It's finally time...
To release the pain...
Let it flow from me...
Allow the tsunamis to recede...
To set the knife to its final place of rest...
Is this hello...
Or is it goodbye..
We may not know...
Until it's too late...
....I just... need somewhere... that I can feel alive....


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