Tuesday, October 10, 2006

omg.....i think im going to go cry...because i might be able to actually sleep tonight!!
kk....let me tell you the whole story about what was going on...i'm talking about the post before....like message...not the post i ran into this morning...^^'''.....
but anywho...meest and i have always eaten lunch with our little group...which includes Kurumi, people you don't know like cassie, tae, Gabe(<--who i love with all of my heart because he is my hero....and he's gay...which we have been trying to get him to admitt..and he finally did)....ummmmmmmmmmm and that's about it. But anywho,it was like this....either me or meest would try and tell something to..say...Kurumi and she would completely ignore us and talk to anyone else at the table.....no matter how hard we tried...Kurumi would barely even find something to tell me about..so pretty much she didn't talk to me. so i emailed her asking if she would still even be there for me and if we were still best friends...and i really wanted to know why she ignored me all the time. I mean we've been best friends for 10 years so why would she just up and forget about ne?...she pretty much emailed me back saying...yeah we're friends...but i don't want to be best friends anymore because i have other people to talk to. and then the day after the email...she didn't even say one word to me, she barely even looked at me. So yeah after balling my eyes out on meest shoulder, meest emailed kurumi saying that her friendship with her was over but kurumi still had a chance with me.
So the next day in school kurumi came up to me balling her eyes out saying that she was sorry...so pretty much it was me and kurumi hugging and bawling our eyes out in the middle of the school hallway at six in the morning...with people passing by like OH MY GAWD WHO DIED!!!! and of course tae was still standing there like 'do dodo doododo' for we had just been having a conversation about cheese and how tired we were....seriously...cheese....(i never knew cheese could be so emotional!!!) but yeah now we're all back to our normal selves....but yeah...now meest and kurumi aren't even talking because it took meest leaving our group of friends for kurumi to even realize that she was losing her best friends. So at the homecoming danse last saterday...i just wanted to cry the entire time because just over the summer at blue lake Kurumi and Meest had been singing and dancing to "save a horse ride a cow boy" and that song came on...so it was beautiful...but after words kurumi and I actually had fun so you know. that's good i guess.....so yeah everything is going fine...im just trying to make it so kurumi and meest don't keep calling eachother bitches and telling me to send a message from one to the other saying "F*** you" cuz' i luff them both and it tears me apart to be in the middle of it all...and i know we will never all be best friends together but i can at least see that they don't hate eachother as much....gaw..so well i have other actually happy news....but i will tell you in the post to follow....hmmmm cuz i'm awsome that way..
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