Tuesday, June 7, 2005

   lost!!!
hi everybody how are you... me not
well i just found out that my g/f
wants to talk to me about something
and i have no idea what its about
but it doesnt matter that much...
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*you*
standing alone,
waiting for you...
alone in the dark,
waiting for the fire...
burning my soul,
waiting for pain...
darkness surrounding me,
waiting for help...
trying to forget,
waiting in need...
waiting in time,
standing alone...
waiting in silence,
burning my soul...
waiting in solitude,
for you to release me...
waiting for death,
for it is my way out...
waiting for you,
because you are my life...
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and no this poem isnt about my g/f...
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Monday, June 6, 2005

   yay!!
hi everyone... hope your weekend
was fun...mine sure was xcept for
friday... oh and i found out im in
Brandies will... yay!! also my
site just hit 20 visitors...welp
i didnt write any poems yet...
but i will tomorrow...
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Thursday, June 2, 2005

   not happy
hi everyone... hows your week been?
welp mine suxd major ass...cuz my
parents wouldnt let me leave to
go to drum circle... or see my
g/f all week... which totally
sucks major ass... oh and i
havent wrote any new
poems...sorry to all...
welp laterz cuz this bitch ass
teacher is about to shut off my
computer...
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Friday, May 27, 2005

   not happy...
hay everyone... guess what... i
just found out that my g/f might
of been put in madison center...
which would suck so much cuz then
i'd have no one left to live for...
im just really scared that her dad might do that...i just hope nothing
happens to her...welp i wrote a new poem...
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Wait...
i wait in the darkness...
waiting silently i stand
i wait in the fog...
clouded from the truth
i wait for you...
to come & save me
i wait bounded to the dark...
waiting for you to release me
i wait now patiently...
for our souls to join
ill wait...here forever...
waiting for years
years of pain and sorrow...
i now will wait alone
you have left me to die...
to die waiting
waiting alone...
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i hope you all will wait with me...
please dont leave me alone...
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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

   new image...
hi everyone i finally fixed my
avatar...welp heres a new poem i
wrote two days ago...
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TRACE
A mark, a line, a picture...
what are these?
A blood scared arm...
how can this be?
A clean piece of flesh...
why do i do this?
A 3inch slit...
where is this mark?
A knife in my heart...
who has done this to me?
all of these questions stuck in my head
the answer to my problems lost with the dead...
tracing my scars until they're deep
just slicing my veins until the blood seeps...
my skin is the paper&this knife the pen
will she ever love me again...
these cuts begin to form a sign
across my arm is the starting line...
cut after cut i seal my doom
harm has come to me in this room...
tracing each cut over again,
cut...cut...cut...
bleeding here slowly,trying to die,
drip...drip...drip...
then i wait alone,
......darkness......
now i am gone
and my picture is done...
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Monday, May 23, 2005

   a new poem
hi everybody... how was your
weekend?... mine suxd alot...but
at least i live...heres a new
poem i wrote for you guys...
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BLISS
arrows of fire & blood red hatred,
piercing the sky with a deadly sound...
buring and pain brought to all
darkness is the cure & relief...
letting go of memories & vague dreams
wishing you'd just die & leave me...
but in an instant, me wanting you back
not knowing what to do or say...
just hoping it wont be today
wanting all but having nothing...
having less when needing more
confusion surrounds me & clouds my mind...
these slitten wrists are my happiness
now i have found eternal bliss...


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Friday, May 20, 2005

   yay!!
yay!!! i just figured out the
flippin hex format which is so
stupid... oh well... im tired but
i wrote a new poem so here it is..
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An Angels Death
A knife in her heart,
a sword through her wings...
slitten wrists bleeding
while she lays on the floor,
dying slowly...
her life was tragic
and soon it was lost...
she died here,
lying crippled on the floor...
she was an angel in life
but now she is just a memory...
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Thursday, May 19, 2005

   oops!!!
hi everyone im so stupid...i think
im in deep s*** with my g/f...
but maybe not... hopefully it
wont matter about that poem...well heresmy new poem...
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*untitled*
you were my life and my soul
you were the thing that made me whole...
you were my love and still are
you were with me forever or at least i thought so...
youre my friend and ill never hurt you
but i might hurt myself so that you wont...
you promised me not and i promised you too...
we were lovers and i hope we still are
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

   yay!!
hi everyone my site just hit 10(sarcasam) visitors...yay!!! welp heres a new poem i wrote for you..
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the ways of death
sitting in my room
i begin to plan my doom...
i keep cutting my skin
this has become my sin...
i cant live with what ive done
planing my death has become fun...
oh so many ways to die
but only one way i cry...
i slit my neck to forget this pain
but instead i missed and hit a vein...
i still living within her heart
even my death wont tear us apart...
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

   i wish i would die...
hi everyone this is a poem i wrote in school today...
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*ANA*
I saw her yesterday
and i wished it'd end...
seeing her smiling face
making me want to cry...
i had forgotten her
but she still remembered me...
even after all this pain i put her through
she was my one, my real true love...
yet i gave her up
so she could be with him...
besides it was forbidden to love her
but i just couldnt let go...
i saw her today and now i weep
sitting here wishing it would end...
maybe someday my heart will mend
yet it likely wont, and my pain will stay...
my love is with someone else now
and he loves me back...
but this love may only be temparary
because i am starting to want her back...
if only they could both know then i could be happy
but it wont happen...
and ill die trying to make it
so ill just give up now...
before i hurt them both
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this was about my ex...who i still have feelings for...oops..
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