Sunday, May 25, 2008

I love life!!!
Hey every one. Yesterday was the bestday of my life. I meet Shane and whe hung out all day. He is amazing. If hey didn't get fucked over badly by his last ex we would be going out right now. But were freinds........ with benifits, nothing sexual. We cuddled for 3 hours yesterday and made out a little. He tood my first kiss and he was the first person I made out with. I'm luving life. How are you all doing?
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Monday, May 19, 2008

When will i get a break
hey everyone i'm having a really crappy life right know. as the people who check know i met a guy online and have been talking to him for about two months. well the 9th but had to switch it to the 16 now i have to wait till this weekend because his bank fucked up his account. i'm close to acctually meeting him in person and i get screwed over. i would have know the day before but since my phone is taken away i found out the day of. now i got a prepaid phone that my parents don't know about so that i can text him and make plans. hopefully this will work out. wish me luck.

oh an know i have a cane sword.
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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Poem Time
Hey everyone. I get to see him friday and where seeing s Now Shutter. Poem time.


Puppet MAster

Play me a son Puppet Master
Use my heart as you strings
Have my blood
Do a Boiling dance
String my veins
On your Merianate
Let me dace
Let me Play
My Body is you toy
Move my arm
Or move my leg
Let me be your
Instrament of Pleasure
Twist and turn me
Sit or Stant
Play With me
Puppet Master

play me a song
Puppet master
Send me to a far off place
Show me the world of night
take me to you bed
Tell me what needs to be done
Blaze a match and let it burn
Warm thr Night and
Let the fun Begin
Let us see how long it'll last
Play with me
Puppet Master

Play me a song
Puppet Master
Wash my Body with your
Midnight Dew
Role over every Detail
That is on my body
Rub my surfice
And Shine me up
Thake of the clothes and
Polish what is Beneath
Make sure everything
Is to your satisfaction
Dress me Slaow and tuck me away
Play with me soon
My Puppet Master
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Monday, May 12, 2008

   Hey everyone. Bad news I didn’t get to see him Saturday because of Mother’s Day thing that he had to go to at his grandma’s. But we rescheduled for Friday night. So all is good, unless I remove myself from the house. Yesterday was supposed to be happy and what not, but the opposite. My friend Aya spent the weekend over and since I didn’t ask about Friday night and she spent the night that night she forgot that I asked about Saturday night, and had a fit. Saturday morning she had a fit about how I treat her, and Sunday after dinner to both me and my sister. I have a sinus infection and it draining me and I worked a busy shift a work because we got hit for Mother’s Day. Me and my sister feel like they don’t love us any more and if my mom went into my room today and through my stuff out I’m going in her room getting my cell phone grabbing my money and backpack and leaving that house and not going back unless I need to get my stuff. I’ve had it. She makes me feel like shit because I don’t get the grades she wants and do what she thinks we should do automatically. No more. I’ll leave. And last night at dinner they said no friends over and don’t make plans for this week. Today they going to find out about my “date” and letting them know that if I can’t go I’m moving with a friend and be back every so often to get my stuff. That how my weekend was what about you guys and gals?
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Friday, May 9, 2008

   Good but drained
hey this post is going to be short till sunday. I'm meeting Shane tomarrow and i feel like shit right now because of the weather and signesses.
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Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Hey Long time no chat.
Hey every one. It has been a long time since i posted since the chane. I hate it. Though this is the only place that i can post with out worring about being track. A lot has happened sonce christmas. For one i am single but then not at the same time. How you ask? well i got a my space only for dating reasons and well i found someone close by and he is amazing. We're a lot a like same hight weight and other things. ^_^v. I've become a giddy school girl basically. BUt back to how i'm single and not. Well we both agread not to date anyone else until we meet. Which if i'm correct will be soon. He getting his car and he's turning 21 this month. I'm happy. I mean really happy. he's the reason that i doing my school work know. i don't want to get grounded and not see him. and i'll be fighting my mom so that i can keep my phone. failed two classes and report cards are going out soon. but... i feel like i'm in a dream. we've been talking alot since saterday and... i can;t belive it. but it's real. IT'S REAL! REAL! But only time will tell us what is in store for us.
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

   MERRY CHRISTMAS!! ^_^v
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Thursday, December 20, 2007

   I'm back who actually noticed
Hey everyone nice to know that people actually know or worry when I’m gone. Ok not much happened with the time I was gone except that one of my friends moved. The one the I fell in love with. Thank God that he’s gone, but here the problem, yesterday I “meet”(for lack of a better word) a guy on this other site. He is awesome, kind, hot, smart, but and all around interesting guy. Yeah he is gay, but he’s not one of those overly gay people that you normally see. Also single. (Plus one ^_^v)The only people that know that he is gay are the ones on this site. I, and all my foolishness told him that I was crushing on him that I really do like him. But before I told him that I am a blunt person. The only bad thin is that he live in Canada. The British Colombia Provence none the less. I’ am getting to know him so it not like I’m jumping into something blind folded. I was up until 11 last night talking to him. So any help in this area on what I should do?
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Monday, December 3, 2007

HEy everyone. i can't stand my parents right now, well my mom. She still doesn't belive that i am sure thatr i'm bi. she say's that it is a phase. i know that it is not. Now my Sensei is made at me because i may still be "fragile"(for lack of a better discription). yes people can ruin people's live on the internet and tear thatm down. i have gone through a lot worse that what any one can do on the internet. those are just words. it a bersons choice if they are to belive tham or not. as long as i have one person that belives what i say that what's the proplem. i have fanially been able to except myself for who i am and now there is no innner war between who i am and who i should be. finally able to exept yourself no matter who you are or who you like, so on and so forth, is a possitive essence of pride.that is why my avi is the whay it is. am able to exept my sexual oreantation, my abilities that are now blooming, (run in the family), and the intrest that give me injoyment. i have finally found my self. i want people to know who i am and i want to find those people that will execpt me flaws and all.

So how was everyones weekend?

ps. i'll try to get to your sites can't promise any thing.
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Friday, November 30, 2007

   *MEH*
Hey every one how are you all doing. My friend Aya is having boy trouble. I miss my sensei. I realized that one of the reasons that I can’t get a date is I give off this aura of a big brother figure. You know the over caring, protective, helpful brother figure. It really sucks. Still single with a book of hope wrapped in my arms. My friend Aya and her ex will are helping hook me up with someone. ^_^v Yeah!! Yesterday was my class’s Senior picture. I sprayed the heck out of my hair, with the washable spray, purple for it. I had to do the chibi smile and victory sign for the wild pic. My friend Fluffy-fox wouldn’t let me lift her up. *pout*

(Yes Nehszriah-sensei I’m still the wild hyper active boy that you took under your wing.)

School is starting to be a blast. The only bad part is that there are going to be a lot of people that are going to cry when I’m gone. Speaking about graduating, my Aunt wanted to trough party for me and my cousin together. I hate him. He is a slut, he has a new girl each week, he drinks, smokes, lives with his friend (they live alone in the house that his friends mom left him when she went to Germany)(no telling what happens with those two), and he is a coxy spoiled bastard. You expect me to be at a party that has his friends and none of mine? No. my family is throwing me one, and I’m having my friends over.

Parent rant: I hate my parents. They don’t get the concept that if I know the stuff I will not do the work. Yes I know several of you will be telling me that I need to do the work so that I can get good grades. Grades just show that you can do the work and not on what you retain and that is where it counts. My dad had said to through out my laptop that my parent bought, but I paid them back every cent except for $100 and that was my birthday gift there, so the next time they say something like that I’m going off on them. Then there is the issue of me dying my hair. I would rebel, but I’ll get fired from my job and my parent would force me to shave my head bald. Yesterday when my hair was purple I got complements from my friends to keep it that way and also from people that I don’t know. Trust me they where sincere. (Psychic ability growing each day)(Sincerity is the color of purity and that is the color of white).

Now that that is over, how is every one doing.

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