Monday, January 28, 2008

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I feel extremely happy for a lot of reasons but also I feel TERRIBLE about a few things...
I'll start off with why I'm feeling happy and then I'll just go a little bit into why I'm feeling sad...
Alright, well first off I went to drama rehearsal today for the Musical and it was really fun! ^^ We got started on the opening of Hair and we practiced the closing~ it really was fun and I enjoyed it!~
Also I'm working on a new tablet piccy and it's something completely new I've never tried before so I'm going to give it a try ^^
AND the biggest highlight of my day was probably when I got a call from Sam-kun ^^ (he's Suerte so you guys know in case) It was really fun to talk to him but I could only for a short while because my dad was right there >___<
But! I'm going to hopefully have a better conversation another day~ ^^
NOW to get on with why I'm kind of sad...
well the bad thing about drama rehearsals are that there's always an approximate time but it's usually almost never exact as to when rehearsal finishes...so my dad came to pick me up and it was about 30 minutes later than the approximate time and I was feeling really bad because he got so worried about it...I feel really bad when I make my parents worry it's like I'm just adding more stress >___< So that made me feel AWFUL that I had to make him wait and everything....I actually even cried about it.
But we talked it out and he said it wasn't really my fault and everything felt better, but I still feel kind of sick inside like I should still be blaming myself...I couldn't even call him to tell him I'd be late because the drama teacher doesn't let us use phones. T____T
And the other thing that makes me sad is that I'm being such a terrible friend to you guys and drama stuff and other things are keeping me from keeping more in touch with you guys T___T I'm really really sorry for not being able to do so many things for you guys like other people would (example not being able to talk properly on the phone with Sam-kun, Kokoii-chan or Cherri-san), visiting your sites more and commenting more...*sigh* I hope you guys at least somewhat forgive me for my terrible way of trying to keep up with my new year's resolution..I'm trying >____<
Well sorry for all of that ranting again...I hope you guys take care! ^^ And don't worry I'm not dead =P
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Friday, January 25, 2008

^^ And...
I'm back on Gaia again! =P
That was random everyone, sorry...but I'm just saying I am in case you guys want to stop by and add me if you haven't already~ ^^ I also FINALLY made a banner for our art shop(Me, Kittycat-chan, and Sakurie-chan) so, it'll be easier to get there if you guys decide you want to check it out!

And I miss talking to some of you guys so pm sometime to let me know if you still want to talk to me >___<
Oh...and I'm probably going to clean out my buddy list again *nods*
There will also be more art on the way! And manga pages too ^^ I've officially inked 2 pages(AND screentoned! YEAH!) and I'm still trying to do more..it takes a LOT of time but I'll get them up soon(hopefully)!~ ^^
Also...I'm going to rant for a bit....so if you don't want to read this part, you don't have to... but no one is willing to listen and it's just been something I've been thinking for a long time.

Okay well...I've been thinking a lot about my friends. Like there's always this feeling that's missing except for when I'm with you guys...but even when I'm with you guys I don't know the feeling is just still there.
It's like I don't really know what it's like to have a best friend to know and share troubles with...I do, yes, but it's not like I've ever seen him in real life, though I wish I could.
There's always this feeilng that whenever I make a friend I feel kind of empty because I'll talk to them, sure, but then another closer friend comes along and then they totally ignore me and run off with their friend. It's like no one understands me when I think this...but it's a really big deal because this has been on my mind for awhile.
I'm not saying this to get attention because really you guys give me more than enough of that! =P But I'm just saying that when I make a friend, there's always someone that they are closer friends with and it makes me sad...and sometimes mad that I can't find someone that I can actually hug when I'm down and I can depend on to keep all of my secrets. I even think that you guys are better than any friends I have in real life..my bestest friend ever is actually online here and he's pretty much taught me to be the person I am now ^^
I'm just... REALLY glad I have you guys because probably without you guys I would feel worse than empty...on top of the fact that my dad doesn't get along well with my mom and my sister is really busy and kind of doesn't want to talk with me it's pretty difficult... I probably wouldn't be able to survive without you guys ^^ You support me all of the time and not just with art, with everything! Just being there for me, even that much makes me feel like the happiest person on earth ^^ And sometimes I feel bad for not keeping up my side in being a friend to you guys. I wonder if any person in real life could offer the same care as you guys have given me ^^ *hugs you guys* Thank you all!~
So I'll continue to cope with these thoughts I guess ^^; until I find that one person in real life that might actually meet up to you guys =P But until then, thankies so much yet again ^^
Sorry for that whole thing...I hope you all don't mind ^^; Take care everyone!
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

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Art Trade With Kokkoii-matoku!
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I have a new piccy up~ so if you guys haven't seen it already go and check it out if you please!~ ^^
Well the title says this: ^^ But really I have a few things I feel like ranting about...I won't though I might just talk about to a few of you guys or maybe none at all...I don't really know who depend on right now..*sigh*
I might rant in my next post..I'm not really sure ^^; but otherwise everything is going well~~
I've been really tired out because of the musical rehearsals~whew~ but I'll get through it! ^^
I'll be sure to come by and visit sites tomorrow, and today I'm just going to relax while I can and celebrate my mom's birthday~ so I'll see you guys later! Take care! ^^
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Monday, January 21, 2008

^^ The moment you've all been waiting for...

Art Trade With Kokkoii-matoku!
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^^ New piccy!~~ ^^ My first ever tablet piccy and I was quite pleased with how it came out!~ I hope you guys like it!
Whew the past two days have been long for me...I'm under quite a bit of stress from work with this group of kids at my school...they are making such a huge deal over something that isn't really that big of a deal...so yeah ^^;;
Rehearsals for the musical start tomorrow...they are going to be long too @___________@ *faints*
Well I have to make this post short since I have to go to school tomorrow T____T Luckily it's just a short week! Take care everyone and good luck on getting back to school!
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Sunday, January 20, 2008

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Long time no post! I'm starting to post less and less frequently BUT I DO NOT plan on dying~ so don't think about it! =P

^^ Just a quick word out to a few friends, don't get put down if someone flames you because really it shouldn't matter what they say about your art! You guys are all improving and you know it, so be proud of what you've done in progress! ^^

And, I have a sore throat >___< But I'm coping with it pretty well! I take a couple of cough drops a day and have some medicine and hopefully it should be gone in a few days ^^
I'm ALMOST done with my tablet piccy, it's JUST THE BACKGROUND! T__________T That's giving me trouble...I might just redo the skin layer all over again because it's causing LOTS of problems >____<

But otherwise, everything's been going great! Thankies everyone for all of the congratulations they really made me happy ^^ *huggles you all* Expect new art coming your way and I'm almost done with editing my manga pages so I can put them up on the computer and get ready to screen tone and ink! ^^ YAY!

And about the layout, it's pretty much done! ^^ I've almost figured out how to fix the layout on to the page, so I've pretty much got that down! Expect quite a few changes coming your way you guys! Take care!
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Thursday, January 17, 2008

And....
*drum roll*
I MADE IT!~ ^^ YAY!~~
I got the main chorus!~ I didn't expect to get a lead, but I got the highest position in the chorus so I feel happy about that!~ ^^

I've been playing Kingdom Hearts a lot lately and I just beat Hollow Bastion and Maleficent today! ^^

I'm back at the computer working on my tablet piccy and my manga pages(which STILL unfortunately need editing) and I'll post this weekend!(manga is a maybe...I'm trying to decide if I should just redo them or just go with what I've got...) In other art news, I have LOTS of art trades but they'll be fun so I think!~ ^^

So I have quite a bit of homework this weekend but I finished some of it during free time after a pep rally in class today~ so I'll be able to come on more often this weekend! YAY!
I need to go around and visit sites, as well as comment on some piccys I missed! ^^

While I was looking at sites I saw lots of people talking about the "Notification" mail stuff and yeah...I've gotten about 15 of those mails but I couldn't have known to change it because I put them there BEFORE the fan characters section came out 0___o oh well...I'm just going to let it go ^^;

I'm just chewing on some lettuce right now so I guess I'll see you guys in a bit! Take care and enjoy the long weekend!~
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Wednesday, January 16, 2008

*peeks out*
Hiya everyone~~~~ ^^ *waves*
Well it turns out results don't come until TOMORROW! *sigh*
And yeah...
anyways!~ ^^ Well again not much has been happening lately! The 2nd nine weeks ended today so I'm sure homework will (unfortunately) be up and running again!~ *sighs again*
Hm...in art news there isn't too much...as I've been telling you guys over and over again how excited I am to show you guys my first tablet drawing ^^; and my manga of course(which I'm still editing 0___o)~
Otherwise there really isn't much! I had a very very long talk with my dad about a lot of things but really it gave me a bit more insight on how to see things in a different light! ^^
UGH there was this HUGE issue I've been having with the art teacher and it's been bugging me A LOT...but! I'll probably tell you guys about it tomorrow, I'm pretty tired today ^^;;;
Take care everyone!~ Good luck to those with exams coming soon! ^^
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Monday, January 14, 2008

Results~~
Well, sort of results anyway ^^; We don't have callbacks until tomorrow!~ =P
But yeah, auditions were fun if you guys were wondering! ^^ An interesting experience, considering my lack of dancing skills but it was fun to dance in public for the first time!
I'm not going to get in too much detail because really there isn't much I need to get you guys involved in =P

Okies well the first portion was for the singing group, and I was number 21~ after that there was a section where you worked with a student coreographer for the dance portion and dance with 4 other people in front of everyone.
That was really nerve-wracking but that's okies ^^; I got through it and it was actually kind of fun!~
So that's pretty much it on that part! Results come tomorrow~ ^^

In art news, my first tablet piccy is going GREAT! I really love how it's coming out so far ^^ I finished adding the basic colors and now I'm on to adding highlights! ^^ So hopefully this weekend you guys will get to see...
1)Some pages from my manga(I had to redo some of it due to the story change *sigh*)
2)My first tablet art ever!~ ^^

Oh and Kasa-chan~ the HTML layout is ALMOST done I just need to get the dimensions to fit the page ^^
Looks like I'm back to theotaku again!~ ^^ I'll be sure to get around sites today! Take care everyone!~ ^^
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Sunday, January 13, 2008

Whew!~
Gosh I've been so busy preparing for my auditions and everything tomorrow I haven't been on here too much! >___< Sorry everyone!

My first tablet piccy is almost done!~ well, sort of anyways...I just need to finish up on coloring ^^

Auditions are tomorrow! I'm kind of worried but in a way kind of excited as well! *squeals* I sure hope I do alright ^^

Anyways, since I'm back from practicing and other things I'll be sure to go around and visit sites!~ I've been working more on my layout and it's pretty much ready just for one thing ^^; so until then, I guess I'll see you guys in a bit!~
take care!
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Friday, January 11, 2008

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It's finally friday! For some reason I keep neglecting this site but I'm starting to think it's because I've been waaaaayyyy busy all this week! T_______T

Anyways I'm back(again =P)~ and testing my tablet!~ ^^ I'm getting a bit more accustomed to it and I'm sure I'll be able to work on some pages of my manga! ^^ *jumps up and down*

The Last Samurai is on TV right now!~ I love it so far!~ ^^

Hm...well there isn't too much to talk about...it's been a really busy week and I made some stupid mistakes on some tests -___-X but anyways, it's all in the past now so time to start a new beginning! ^^
I'll leave a chat box up top for you guys until I finish this custom HTML stuff~ take care everyone!
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