Sunday, December 2, 2007

Gomen ne ^^;
Sorry everyone for making you visit my site again by posting up another post even though some of you JUST replied for yesterdays ^^;
but I just wanted to let you guys know that my piccy will probably end up being delayed because my scanner practically blew up when I scanned my piccys >______<

Special thankies to Sakurie-chan and everyone else that has made a giftie for me before, I can't thank you guys enough for your beautiful art! ^^

*sways back and forth* Headaches hurt really bad... >________<
I'm supposed to be finishing up on this lab report and I'm really..just feeling ugh right now, but I'll have to get it done! ^^ *gets to work*

I'm listening to one of my favorite songs by Papaya(don't ask about the name 0____o) which is this song called ³»¾ê±æ µé¾îºÁ(which means Listen to what I have to say). ^^ It really boosts up my spirits!~ And so do you guys of course ^^

Here's the song...the quality's bad so turn up your volumes! ^^



I have 2 piccys, 1 done, and one almost done that should be posted this week! ^^ So be on the lookout(I always say that =P)!~

I've been posting pretty short posts lately to give you guys a break from the huge long one about me being slightly depressed from all the suicide talk.
Well!~ I'll see you guys in a bit! Take care! *huggles you all*
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Saturday, December 1, 2007

^^
Happy First Day of December everyone! ^^ *cheers* I'll hopefully have up a new piccy today or tomorrow to start off the new month! ^^ YAY!

Well I've been off for most of the day because I was out helping my mom rake the leaves and mow the lawn ^^; So yeah...

I have yet to pm back some of you guys, so gomen ne for that! >___<
After these 2 piccys comes the art trades and such so I'll be getting to those soon ^^

Whoa...this is going to be a short post~
Anyways, Merry Early Christmas everyone, I'm really excited for this year's Christmas! ^^
Take care!
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Thursday, November 29, 2007

*looks around*
Wow...not many people have been updating lately 0___o I've only seen like 5+ people that have updated today...interesting.
Anyways! That's not up to me now is it? =P
Well it's 10:30pm and I'm getting pretty tired...I have quite a bit to do but I really haven't been feeling too well...
And my last post was a bit misunderstood...the point of the post was just to say that suicide issues that I've seen everywhere have made me depressed and that I was going to get through it and stand up for those people that needed my help...that's all. Some of the people that I've been helping feel better now, and they're trying to have a better look on life ^^ So I'm really happy for them!~
In terms of piccys, I'll hopefully try and have one of up soon...the KH Promised Three(they're only called that because I promised to draw them..=P). Then next one I'll have up after that will either be a birthday gift or piccys of Kokoii-chan's characters from her latest manga-to-be! ^^
*reads over post again* Gomen ne...I don't want to make it sound like I'm some miracle worker or something because really I'm not...and I know it. I'm just saying that I want to help if you'll let me and you need it.. >__<
Well! I'm off to finish up the rest of my work!~ I'll catch you guys in a bit! ^^
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Tuesday, November 27, 2007

I saw....
Probably one of the most horrifying posts anyone could ever see in a lifetime.
And you know what, I'm actually crying.

I'm SICK of all this suicide talk! That's ALL I've EVER been hearing about! People at my school, and now my friends on theotaku?!!
Those people at my school that told me they wanted to kill themselves asked me, "You know, not everyone sees things the way you do."
And I know that. But that doesn't mean they should go about how they see things the wrong way. I'm not some kind of famous celebrity or something, but I'm strong, at least in my mindset, or so people say.
I've had LOTS of terrible things happen to me. I haven't told any of you a SINGLE one of them. In fact, there's actually A LOT of things you guys don't know about me, but because of personal reasons I have to keep hidden.
But just so everyone knows...
My sister is practically neglecting me...she hardly ever talks to me and is always absorbed in her own world...and the worst part is that we live in the same house. Sometimes she acts like she's perfectly fine, but I know that really she is just using that as an excuse...
My mom gets mad at me EVERYDAY. And I work my HEAD OFF to meet up to her expectations. And I STILL try and find time to make it on here without getting into too much trouble. I get yelled at almost everyday, but so what? I DEAL.
My dad is probably one of the only people I've ever been able to confide in for my whole life. Especially back in Korea...even then I wasn't able to see him that much, and it wasn't even that long ago that I came here. He usually comes home REALLY late so I'm usually asleep and he leaves REALLY early in the morning...so I only see him every once in awhile. He only has time to visit about once or twice a year.

THAT is what my family is like. And more of course.
Sayoko-chan and Sakurie-chan, in almost every post you guys tell me how hard of a worker I am. You have NO IDEA how happy that makes me feel when you guys tell me things like "You're improving so much!" or even just a hello every now and then. Because you guys are really the only people that see me like others don't...even though none of you have met me in real life.
So I thank you guys sooo much for that. I can't thank you all enough for everything you've said and done for me ^^

I'm just...tired of having to fight for someone else's life. But I won't stop because NONE of you guys on here are going to die. Some of you guys on here that always talk about how horrible and depressing life is and what happened today that screwed you up...you just don't realize how much some people envy you for the things you have. You have a family and friends that care about you. And even if you think they don't, keep in mind that I care about you! ^^
Miko-chan, you have NO IDEA how many people envy your artist talent. But then you decided you wanted to throw it all away? THAT made me feel bad, and kind of angry too. Because SO many people all over the world on theotaku see your art and they think it's beautiful. They WANT your talent! And don't forget the friends that have always stuck by you like Kitten-san and Kare-chan!~
Now Kare-chan...I have absolutely NO IDEA what to say. Why? Because I've already said it all to you. And your friends have told you too, how much they care. A death diary?! THAT is not the thing for you. And whether you think it is or not, you belong among the living with people you care about! Or have you forgotten about us?
There are quite a few more on here that have told me how many problems they are having and that they feel like ending their lives is the right answer. Really it isn't... I just want to let you guys know that I'll always be there for you. Whether you want me to be or not, I always will be, and that's how it's going to stay.

The point of this whole thing? I just wanted to let you guys know that I don't intend on letting you throw your lives out for nothing. There's a WHOLE WORLD out there you need to be there for! ^^ That's what life is all about, discovering new things! Where would we be without the love and peace to let us see the light?

I'm probably sounding like my philosophical old self again, but I just really wanted to let you guys know I love you, and that you should never give up!
Take care of yourselves everyone(and sorry for the REALLY long post)!~
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Monday, November 26, 2007

*Is determined*
I have soooo many people that I need to help right now! But you know what, I'm going to do what I need to do to help you guys! ^^ It doesn't matter to me if I get hurt or not, just as long as you guys feel better! ^^
Well I scanned the lineart for my newest piccy so I can save it for CGing later!~ I shall have the colored pencil version posted sometime this week or next week!

A lot has happened for me but then again I don't think I'm alone in that area ^^; I'm sure you guys are probably LOADS busier than I am and worried about really urgent things...
LOTS of things I need to do but I'm going to get through it all no matter what! *Stands up tall* YEAH! ^^

I just wanted to type up something really quick for you guys to hear up on what happened today...just typical school day, but LOTS I need to help with at home!
And I'm out of my slight depression~it does stay in the back of your mind until the occasional time when it will come back as your main point of focus, but I can't let depression take control of me! ^^ So I'm staying strong just because of you guys!~
Take care everyone!
~~EDIT~~ I'm officially cleaning up my buddy list for people I've added that never visit or talk to me,even though I do them. So be prepared for a much shorter, well somewhat anyway, list!
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Sunday, November 25, 2007

*sighs*
Hiya everyone...*yawns* I'm tired, confused and slightly depressed and I don't know why 0___o I think it might just be because of all of the things happening right now...school, family problems, friend problems and such ^^;
Well I'm going to post up the colored pencil version of my newest piccy when it's finished but then I will post up a CGed version of it when I get my tablet! ^^ So be prepared for that! *nods*
Otaku suddenly died on me all of a sudden today...I sent pms to at least 10+ people and only about 5 replied 0____o But you guys are busy, I'm sure! ^^ I'm patient though~
The break is over...and there won't be another one for 2 AND A HALF WEEKS T_________T! But I'll live! ^^
I think I'll go to sleep since I'm way overly tired right now...new piccys will be on the way! And omg I've got so many piccys I need to draw...
If you have anything I missed, PLEASE let me know! See you guys!~

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Saturday, November 24, 2007

*points below*
I have a new piccy up if you haven't seen it yet I'd appreciate it if you would! ^^ Votes and comments aren't necessary, just stop by and take a look ^^

Okies, well I was looking back at some old piccys on the "OC/FC war" and I don't know what to make of it all of a sudden 0____o It's just...I don't know it seemed a little bit unnecessary I guess...
but that's just me ^^;

I just have a quick question for you guys about that though...do you think that this site is all about having your art noticed and made popular with the votes? I'm just wondering...that's all ^^;

I'm almost finished with a new piccy!~ So I should hopefully have it posted soon ^^
Maybe tomorrow or sometime this week...

I had my Thanksgiving dinner yesterday and it was pretty good ^^ *yawns* But we had guests come of course and they stayed until 2:30am! 0______o And I had to wake up at 9:00am the next day(being today)...so yeah, I'm a tad bit tired.

Another thing...do you think it's fair for one person to have multiple art pieces featured? I think only one picture per person featured would be best....I'm looking at the featured list right now and there's like 5/8 pictures all by one person...and it's kind of unfair to other artists that could be up there featured...
Even when I have more than one piccy featured I don't really like it because sometimes I don't think it deserves to be featured, while other piccys that are super fantastical are stuck behind because of my second featured piccy...

Not to mention I don't really care about being featured, I care more about seeing people that want to be featured but go unnoticed getting featured~

I have to be careful when I say something like this because I don't want to cause an unnecessary argument ^^;

Well this post is pretty long so I'll let you guys go now =P I won't keep you here forever! If you have anything I missed, let me know! Take care ^^
Quick question for you all! ^^
1)What do you think of the whole "one picture per person featured" thing? Let me know honestly what you think. ^^

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

Many Wishes...

*~for Nii-san~*
Hosted By theOtaku.com.

To you for a Happy Thanksgiving!! ^^ I'm sure you all should be about in the middle of eating your wonderful Thanksgiving dinners right about...*watches clock* now! ^^

I'll have a piccy posted today!~ It probably won't get much in terms of votes, but I really don't care because it's a giftie for Nii-san!
So I'll have a link to the piccy posted up top when it gets up here! ^^

Well Kokoii-chan and Sakurie-chan I'm working on the piccy I was talking about to you guys in the chat box and it's soo cute right now!~~~ I can't wait to show you guys!~ ^^
~~EDIT~~ I just checked my portfolio and found I had 1000 votes!! 0____o Thankies sooo much everyone!! ^^ I never thought I'd get that many! (Mostly because votes aren't that huge of a thing for me) But thankies soo much to all of you that bother to see my art! ^^
Other than that, not much is happening! I've got LOTS of piccys I need to work on but I'll get it all done! ^^ Take care everyone and have a wonderful Thanksgiving day!
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

*sigh*
Well it's Thanksgiving break for me~ ^^ It started today so I'm off until Monday! YAY!

Alright...well here's the more serious part of the post.
I'm under a certain element of stress right now because I'm unsure what to think about so many things. About the hobbies I do, what I think about my family, and especially what I think of my friends. It's like my brain stopped working for a second...

But anyways!! Enough about that, I'm sure it'll get better as time passes!~
If you guys have any fanart and such that I've missed let me know!
This is a very short post because really there isn't too much to say ^^; I had 3 tests today and I think I did well on all three~ squee!
I'll have up a new piccy soon! Take care everyone~
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Sunday, November 18, 2007

Well....

~contest Entry For Keyblademewkasa~
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Alright everyone, it's up!! But here's my post below:

I submitted my contest entry AGAIN for Kasa-chan but I found out it was because 1)The KB size was too big 2)It just didn't work the second time and 3)I'm waiting....
I really wanted to show you guys the full extent of the piccy but I had to shrink it down because of the terrible KB size!! T___T
There's only a couple of minutes until my friend arrives...we're working on Duo Interp for speech/debate team and hopefully it goes well! ^^
Other than that, I'm going golfing again today even though my mom is off in a business meeting... ^^ So it's going to be fun~~
Look out for my piccy! I'll post a link of it above when it shows~~
Take care everyone!
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