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• 1993-10-14
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• 2006-10-24
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• Being myself =P
Real Name
• Sayura (yes, that really is my real name)
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• Studied for 5 hours straight 0_o, Won 2nd place in a talent show for singing and a lot of other things ^^
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• hm... good question...
Favorite Anime
• It's a long list, you don't want to know...
Goals
• To be the best anime artist I can be, and maybe try out for American Idol^^
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• Drawing(anime especially!), writing stories,playing computer games(anything, except violent stuff),and reading comic books!
Talents
• Drawing anime and singing! I LOVE to sing!(can't say I can dance well...)
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Tuesday, November 27, 2007
I saw....
Probably one of the most horrifying posts anyone could ever see in a lifetime.
And you know what, I'm actually crying.
I'm SICK of all this suicide talk! That's ALL I've EVER been hearing about! People at my school, and now my friends on theotaku?!!
Those people at my school that told me they wanted to kill themselves asked me, "You know, not everyone sees things the way you do."
And I know that. But that doesn't mean they should go about how they see things the wrong way. I'm not some kind of famous celebrity or something, but I'm strong, at least in my mindset, or so people say.
I've had LOTS of terrible things happen to me. I haven't told any of you a SINGLE one of them. In fact, there's actually A LOT of things you guys don't know about me, but because of personal reasons I have to keep hidden.
But just so everyone knows...
My sister is practically neglecting me...she hardly ever talks to me and is always absorbed in her own world...and the worst part is that we live in the same house. Sometimes she acts like she's perfectly fine, but I know that really she is just using that as an excuse...
My mom gets mad at me EVERYDAY. And I work my HEAD OFF to meet up to her expectations. And I STILL try and find time to make it on here without getting into too much trouble. I get yelled at almost everyday, but so what? I DEAL.
My dad is probably one of the only people I've ever been able to confide in for my whole life. Especially back in Korea...even then I wasn't able to see him that much, and it wasn't even that long ago that I came here. He usually comes home REALLY late so I'm usually asleep and he leaves REALLY early in the morning...so I only see him every once in awhile. He only has time to visit about once or twice a year.
THAT is what my family is like. And more of course.
Sayoko-chan and Sakurie-chan, in almost every post you guys tell me how hard of a worker I am. You have NO IDEA how happy that makes me feel when you guys tell me things like "You're improving so much!" or even just a hello every now and then. Because you guys are really the only people that see me like others don't...even though none of you have met me in real life.
So I thank you guys sooo much for that. I can't thank you all enough for everything you've said and done for me ^^
I'm just...tired of having to fight for someone else's life. But I won't stop because NONE of you guys on here are going to die. Some of you guys on here that always talk about how horrible and depressing life is and what happened today that screwed you up...you just don't realize how much some people envy you for the things you have. You have a family and friends that care about you. And even if you think they don't, keep in mind that I care about you! ^^
Miko-chan, you have NO IDEA how many people envy your artist talent. But then you decided you wanted to throw it all away? THAT made me feel bad, and kind of angry too. Because SO many people all over the world on theotaku see your art and they think it's beautiful. They WANT your talent! And don't forget the friends that have always stuck by you like Kitten-san and Kare-chan!~
Now Kare-chan...I have absolutely NO IDEA what to say. Why? Because I've already said it all to you. And your friends have told you too, how much they care. A death diary?! THAT is not the thing for you. And whether you think it is or not, you belong among the living with people you care about! Or have you forgotten about us?
There are quite a few more on here that have told me how many problems they are having and that they feel like ending their lives is the right answer. Really it isn't... I just want to let you guys know that I'll always be there for you. Whether you want me to be or not, I always will be, and that's how it's going to stay.
The point of this whole thing? I just wanted to let you guys know that I don't intend on letting you throw your lives out for nothing. There's a WHOLE WORLD out there you need to be there for! ^^ That's what life is all about, discovering new things! Where would we be without the love and peace to let us see the light?
I'm probably sounding like my philosophical old self again, but I just really wanted to let you guys know I love you, and that you should never give up!
Take care of yourselves everyone(and sorry for the REALLY long post)!~
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