Sunday, April 3, 2005

Orange and yellow socks are the coolest. On iTunes: "Drops of Jupiter" Train It's been busy. I had a couple tests this week, and I think I did pretty well on at least one of them. Studied a lot. I also had a couple of appointments... to the doctor and to the counselor lady, and both were eventful. I had an ear infection from those damn second ear piercings. Can you believe it? It's stupid. Anyway, that's all taken care of, and I still have both my ears. Oooh, I just saw a trailer for Star Wars. I'm so excited. I'd also like to see Sin City sometime in the next week... although a lot of people have tests and stuff so I don't know if that'll happen. My field hours for education are driving me fucking crazy. I hate them. I hate that class. It's such a pain in the ass. I've got a lot of hours to make up this week. I know I'll definitely be going on Thursday with this kid, so there's at least a few hours I can count on. I'm hoping to skip class Tuesday and get some more. Damn damn damn, as my favorite professor would say. Salsa dancing is the absolute best. We went to Atlantis again Saturday night and had an absolute blast. I could stay and dance there forever. I'm gonna learn up and get some mad salsa skills and it's going to be awesome. I can't believe it's almost 9 pm already. Daylight Savings, what the fuck have you done? Any sense of time that I might have had is now royally screwed.

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Monday, March 28, 2005

God hates me passionately. On iTunes: nothing I cannot believe how shitty my luck is sometimes. Yeah, the concert last night that was supposed to be totally awesome? Say Anything was not there. They got a flat tire on the drive over from New Orleans and there was no where they could go to fix it on Easter Sunday so I guess they were doing 30 mph on the interstate somewhere in the middle of Alabama when it was showtime. We didn't really stick around. I wasn't interested in the other bands and they were incredibly late already - we were there for an hour after the time the show was originally supposed to start and there was still no music. So me and my friends said a collective "Fuck this," and went to Starbucks for some much needed caffeinated love. This is the biggest disappointment of my life, and I don't think I will ever recover. Now, excuse me while I lay down and cry my life away. Thank you.

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Sunday, March 27, 2005

Battle is my middle name! On iTunes: "Mackdaddy" Say Anything CONCERT DAY, CONCERT DAY, WHOOO!! It's been a weird weekend and it's not over yet. The week went by so freaking slow and then it got to Friday and suddenly it was like 5:00 before I even blinked. But we did a little shopping, and I bought a couple cute tops. Went to see Ocean's 12 at the SLB, and then.. I don't remember. I don't thing we did much else, besides play Taboo. They mistakingly allowed me and Jen to be on the same team. We kick ass at that game. Example: Me: (reads card, the word is 'Beaver') Aww, nuts! Jen: Dagget... BEAVER!! Matt and Dad: O_O Saturday. We went to the mall to play with puppies. There's a Petland in the Tallahassee Mall so we got some food and then looked at all the pretty animals. I tried to communicate with the birds again, but they weren't feeling it, apparently. The dogs were so freaking adorable, especially the labs. They had a gorgeous Golden Retriever, and then they had a couple lab/poodle mixes that were so curly and cute and playful. I want to take them all home so I can love them forever and ever. T.T (Lab/poodle mixes are bred so that the gorgeous lab coat doesn't shed as much, in case any of you were like, "What? They mixed what?") One of our friend's had a recent birthday so a party was kind of thrown in honor of him. Jack Daniels is ... eww. Even mixed with coke, it's nasty. I was also kind of hungry and hadn't eaten a whole lot throughout the day, so I was feeling a little light headed as we all climbed into the safe bus to head over. We got there, and since a lot of us had already had some shots we were pretty loose and chatty. I doubt the extra hunch-punch helped at all, but hey. Anyway, crazy fun, lots of dancing and mingling and such. And then the cops came! First party I've ever been to that was broken up by cops. But of course, I'm not exactly and avid party goer. Anyway, it was so crazy and weird and I was starting to sober up a little but Shannon and Jen definitely were not and it was way too funny. So us, Angel, and Seth piled in and Jerry was our designated driver for the evening, so he dropped us off. Then they went to get Chubby's for all of us and I somehow managed to get the girls upstairs without running into the nightstaff. I consider that a miracle, especially since they wanted to escape and go visit people. It is both funny and tiring when you're the only straight one around. Anyway, so that was that. Today is the concert day, whooo!! And also Easter, so Happy Easter to Jesus and all you funky people out there. Hopefully I'll be going out to eat around 4, and then we'll get back and go to the concert, and it will all be smashing. So. How was everybody else's weekend? Do anything crazy or exciting? Eh?

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Can We Get Down To It? On iTunes: "By Tonight" Say Anything It was good to keep me guessing Cause you know I hate attention *shudders* Oooh. God. I need some chocolate. I got a little information today about possible minors and a double major, so I feel like a little progress has been made there. You have to be a junior to apply for a second major, so there's not much I can really do about it right now except research. I need to call the art history people and check things out, though, see how long the major is, if there are any requirements, blah blah blah. I still don't know if I absolutely want to double major in art history, but it would definitely be so much fun. And I don't know what I'll minor in... I'd hate for those history credits to go to waste, but there are other things I like, too... ah, whatever. I'll figure it out. I absolutely love my fiction technique class. Have I mentioned that before? Because it's so fun and funny and workshopping other people's stories helps me so much with my own. It's all just awesome. Okay. I can think of a few bands off the top of my head that have incredible lyrics that would be the absolute best pick up lines ever. I swear to god, my gentlemen friends, just learn the words, pick up some kind of musical instrument, and go. You'll be in her pants in no time.

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Work Your Wily Charms On iTunes: "Ants In My Pants" Say Anything I bought my tickets yesterday, $8. I'm very pleased with that. I'm very much looking forward to getting a t-shirt and some possible autographs... I figure that's probably a good time to actually buy one of their CDs, heh. I forgot to do this reflection paper and I hate myself. Today has been a very moody day for me. I slept through racquetball, got a smoothie for breakfast, forgot about the paper, studied for an Italian presentation thing he gave us yesterday (which I actually did good on - our group was the best, nyah), went to Thagard to make an appointment because there's something wrong with my ear, got pissed off because Thagard just kind of does that to people, got food to go at the diner, ate the food in my sister's room and chatted a little with her and her roomie, and then I headed back here. It's been gray and overcast all day, drizzling off and on, complete with a tornado watch, and it's driving me insane. I hate this horrible weather and I want it to go away. I'm sure sulking about it will make a huge difference. The Paranoia chapters are coming along nicely, I'm very pleased. So there's that, at least, and I have a totally cool idea for a new RPG that I've been toying with lately. I don't know when that will come out, but I can assure you that it eventually will. And it'll be sci-fi, whoo!! Okay. That's all I've got for --- oh! I just heard thunder! As weird as that sounds, thunder always makes me feel better.. I love lightening storms. ^_^;

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Sunday, March 20, 2005

I am so gone. On iTunes: "By Tonight" Say Anything *melts into a puddle all over the floor* ....Did I mention that I can't wait for this concert? You're looking quite sharp, sugar. You've got some teeth on that stare. You've got them tattered blue jeans on. You've done that thing with your hair. This bed could use a secret and these pounding hearts could keep it. If you could, I could, I swear. You turned me on and I'd like to know if you were trying. Angel we are so gone. By tonight, the earth bursts open, we shed this clothing And you'll see me from the angle that you missed. You're looking high strung sugar. Why don't you sink a little bit? Into the sea of sweat our skin can spit. It was good to keep me guessing because you know I hate attention, But can we get down to it? Can we get down to it? Nothing exists but this.

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Friday, March 18, 2005

Beneath the wormwood, oooh, love me so good. On iTunes: "Into The Night" Say Anything I can't get over that song, heh. I'm still at that point where I can't listen to it enough. I'm so excited for the concert now.. it's going to be awesome. No. It's going to rock. Ha ha. Ahem. I had my second appointment with the counselor lady yesterday. Her name is Corine, and she has a slight foreign accent but I'm not quite sure where it's from yet. It is not the usual spanish you hear in Florida, so I feel kind of special in that regard. Otherwise, I'm really, really into this whole counselling thing. It's shedding light on a lot of different aspects of me that I hadn't previously thought about or linked together, and it's really kind of amazing. I think it's an experience that everybody should at least try because there's nothing bad or unhealthy about it at all - totally the opposite. The key is just finding somebody who you are comfortable talking with. I've only had two meetings so far but already I feel like so many little details that didn't seem to be important before are now becoming the foundation for everything I do. Obviously it is the little things that turn out to be the biggest things, but even knowing that, the things we've been talking about and the things being revieled are still kind of incredible. Not surprising, exactly, but still enough to make you think, "Well, damn." And next time we meet we're going to talk about something that I know is going to be really, really hard. I'll be honest, I'm terrified to talk about it because I know it's going to break a lot of notions that I have down. I've held onto them for so long and I've allowed this thing to fester and grow without me ever actually realizing how much it hurts me. The significance of this is huge and I'm scared and anxious and excited all at once because despite all the pain and sadness this particular issue gives me I desperately want it resolved. That's the entire purpose of going to these in the first place. It's funny, but until I started going, I had no idea how much I really needed this. I mean, I know that I had certain issues, heh, but the sheer volume of what's buried under the surface... Shit. I can't even explain. I'm a fucking iceberg, baby. Maybe one day I'll be able to talk about this here, but right now you'll just have to forgive me for the cryptic sentences because I'm just not ready yet. Onwards, then, to something a little more lighthearted. Had some classes cancelled today, and I was out until 2 so I ended up skipping biology. Thus I only had one class - art history. I love that class so much. We'll be talking about Nike of Samothrace on Monday and I'm so freaking excited. It is my favorite sculpture, hands down. And to actually have seen it... every time I see a picture of it it's like I'm reliving the moment over and over again. It's completely awe-inspiring. Oh, I was out until 2 because I saw The Ring 2 at midnight. Because it was St. Patti's Day yesterday (go green!) there weren't a lot of people at the movies, heh. The movie was all right. It ties a lot of loose ends together, but it also creates a lot more. I feel like they were just trying too hard to put it all together and it made it kind of weak. There are definitely a few great moments that are scary as hell.. well, I was scared, lol. That girl is the freakiest damn thing ever created. Stay in your well, bitch! Other than that, I'm just glad it's Friday. I need sleep. And I need to play Catch Phrase with my friends. We played last Sunday and it was awesome. What an unbelievably fun game. Do yourself a favor, get some friends together and go play it. Good times.

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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

You could have believed in me, baby. On iTunes: "Into The Night" Say Anything I've been listening to love songs all night long. Okay, some of them make pretty fishy love songs, I'll admit it, but still. If a boy ever said some of those lyrics to me, I just don't know what I would do. Well, yes, I do. I would jump him, in a heart beat. But I guess it's not reallly about a boy - it's about the boy and so far he just hasn't come along. I'm not looking for true love. I don't think it really exists, at least not in the context that people think of it. That true love is instantaneous and idealistic and is a really crappy standard for the rest of us who live in the real world. To me, true love is the kind of love that's been tested and strengthened and worked on for years and years. I would like to get married one day. It took me a while to get to this state, and even still I have a lot of plans before anything like that can come into play. But I would like it to happen. It's nerve-racking to think that it might not happen because I don't think I can spend my entire life alone. And I'm going to be twenty in May and probably will have not dated anybody for more than a week still, heh. I don't have a problem with this, really. Right now I feel like I'm too much of a novelty to the guys around me, if that makes any sense. I'm too strange and different and focused. I could be wrong, it's happened before. But I feel like I kind of scare them away. And I guess that's all right because at least then I know that the guys who do step up to bat are there to play some serious ball. I think part of it is also just the atmosphere here at FSU. I honestly don't feel very at home here. Yes, it's my school and I live here and I have lots of friends, but I still feel like it's not for me. This is one of the many reasons I can't wait for London. I need things to be put into focus, and I guess I'm partially afraid that if I get into anything before that happens it'll be obsolete or it'll just complicate things too much. Did I mention I have committment problems? Because I do. I don't want to lose myself. And yet if a guy can come along and take the challenge, then I might give myself away. Secretly I just really want somebody else to take the wheel and drive for a while. Is that too much to ask?

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

AH HA HA HA HA. On iTunes: "Into The Night" Say Anything Today I started my Nerd Quest and went to the library to research something fascinating. Two hours later, I left with the first volume in a series about the Three Kingdom era in China. I don't know how familiar anyone is with that, but I love it, and we can blame Dynasty Warriors 3 for that (PS2). When I went home for spring break, I found out that there will be a Dynasty Warriors 5. That makes me both very happy and very wary because I don't want it to suck, and yet I still love the story so much. So many good times with that game, lol. Tony, I'm hoping to get your scarf completely finished and out within the week. Just so you know. Also, Baseball is awesome awesome awesome and I can't stop listening to Say Anything. They're playing here the 27, but I think I already mentioned that. Whee for me!! I love Ritz crackers. So good. Yum yum. And that's all I've got. lol

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Sunday, March 13, 2005

I Have Animal Magnetism When I go Outside, Squirrels Stick To My Clothes On iTunes: "Eclipse" Pink Floyd I'm slightly amused that Tony is the only one who ever gets all of my Disney references. Amused, and slightly scared. So, my spring break is sadly over, but it was a blast while it lasted. I'm back in Tallahassee (actually I've been back here since about one - we left stupidly early), and I'm still not quite finished unpacking but it's just clothes that are left and I'm not feeling up to it right now. My head hurts a little bit. I took a shower, and that helped, but it's still there. I think it might be a hunger thing, actually. Eating is always a good idea. Sorry about my slight absence because of the break. I'll be swooping in soon to close threads without ratings (and I know there are a couple) so this is your chance to edit them now. Let it not be said that I am unmerciful. I have Pink Floyd on my computer now and that makes me a very happy girl. Pink Floyd and the Beatles. That should help to keep me sane for the rest of the semester. OH. Another lucky coincidence. My friend Meg (one of my best friends) got accepted into the British American Dramatic Academy (BADA) so she'll be in London the same time I will in the fall. I go up the first of September, she goes up the third. How crazy is that? It's unbelievable. I'm so fucking excited now, there are no words. This is going to be one of the greatest experiences of my life. .... SCORE!! Ahem. Yeah, let's get back to that food idea. That sounded good.

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