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Thursday, September 23, 2004

Clapton or Hendrix?

Tonight I saw The Dreamers at the SLB. I don't know if anybody else is familiar with this film, as it's not exactly mainstream material. It was, however, very profound. At least, that's the word that keeps coming to me. It's kind of a hard film to understand, although at the same time it seems incredibly easy. I'm not quite sure which one it is yet. I liked it, though. I'm pretty sure of that.

I revised that paper today. A couple times, actually. It's much more focused than it was before. I think I'm just about done with it, in fact. I'll probably re-read it again later today and make any last minute changes before submitting it online. That's how this Lit class operates - we turn things in online. I can't say that I hate it because it the entire system is kind of handy. I'd like to hate it, but I think what I really dislike about the class is that it's not at all what I thought it would be. I had originally signed up for this class because I thought we would be writing short stories, not reading them. Granted, I enjoy reading them - the stories we've read so far have been quite lovely - it's just that it wasn't what I wanted. Things didn't go according to plan, which I guess, considering the entire month, was par for the course.

But there's more than that. I almost feel like I'm above this class. It's very easy, at least, but then again, english and lit has always been easy for me. Part of me is being snobby and elitist and wants to think that I'm above this class, but then another part of me recognizes that even I have things that I can learn here. I really don't like the way that feels. Not the learning part, but the elitist part. I don't like that side of me at all, and it bothers me that it's been drawn out this semester.

It's hard not to feel overwhelmed by everything that's going on here. It kind of makes me want to crawl into a corner and disappear. Preferrably with a book, or a journal, or music, or something. I'll just be glad when these couple weeks end and the tests and papers will be over and done with for the moment and I can relax and not fret about every little detail while pretending not to fret about every little detail.

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