Tuesday, March 23, 2004

Mega Cool Super Funky™

Current Mood: A little tired. Listening To: The muffled sounds of my neighbor talking loudly into her phone. o_O;; Time: 7:08 PM I have been really poorly organized lately and it's really starting to bite me in the ass. I have two tests this week - the first I knew about, but I haven't prepared for it yet and it's tomorrow. That's the math one, which I really need to study for. The second one, which I only found out about today, was History. And it's Thursday. Imagine me going to class, all proud of myself because I've already thought up a topic for my essay, and she starts answering questions about the second exam. Some major WTF?!-ness going on, to say the least. So I've been pretty disappointed in myself all day. I lost my planner some time ago, and I'm really starting to kick myself for it. But I think that I'm going to check out the iSync programs I have on my computer and fix that problem. I have the means to get myself back together here, so I just need to do it. So that, along with a whole bunch of studying, is what I'll be doing tonight, and probably most of tomorrow. I also need to work on my astronomy lab and turn it in before my lab on Thursday, which I don't really want to go to. I hate myself. T.T;; The blackberries I'm eating are huge. They grew them on steroids or something. o.O;; I've continued to watch Alias with Natalie, and I'm pretty much hooked. While Ms. Sydney Bristow does kick a lot of ass, she also's pretty quick to judge and jumps to a lot of wrong conclusions that way. While it's inherently annoying, it's also kind of nice because she's obviously not perfect. Not everybody can learn from their mistakes the first time and be exactly right about them, you know? I don't know if this sort of character flaw is intentional or not, or if they're just trying to keep the suspense in the show by making her come to all these conclusions and assume that the audience will think the same... whatever the case, it's been interesting to watch. Plus some of the gadgets they have are pretty damn cool. Also, cutting your finger off for a job is pretty hardcore, I must say. The Tai Kwon Doe thing I did last night was pretty cool, but since I took a sort of karate for two years, it wasn't really anything I hadn't already learned. Although they really drilled in the whole "95% of self-defense is being smart, so don't get yourself into these sort of situations... blah blah, don't walk home by yourself, blah blah..." As a college student, and a woman, I understand the logistics behind this completely, even though I hate people telling me not to walk home by myself after 6:30 PM. On average, one in four women on a college campus will be raped. Period. That's pretty scary, but at the same time, it pisses me off. How many of those girls who contributed to the statistic went to a party and got drunk off their ass, first? If you want to talk about playing it smart, then go beat it in those girls before you start criticizing my "stubborn, independent tendencies". Here's another quick rape lesson for those who are interested. If you are in anyway under the influence of anything and somebody touches you or tries to have sex with you, it's rape (or at least, sexual harrassment/molestation). If you have any sort of toxins in your body at all (and by toxins I mean drugs, alcohol, sleeping pills, etc), you're immediately found to be unable to make a clear, concise decision. Even if you say yes, it doesn't count, because you're not in your proper mindset. Fascinating, isn't it? Another quick note before I dash off to study my poor little brain to pieces: I don't know if I'll be able to follow through with the current RPG idea I have right now. Which is really, really awful of me, and I'm sorry for it, but I have too much too worry about right now, and I'm definitely not inspired about this one. And if that's not there, then it makes it really damn hard to come up with good, original ideas. I feel horrible about it, but there's no use pretending. Ouch, papercut. I'm going to bleed to death. X_X;; Now don't try to kid me, man-cub I made a deal with you What I desire is man's red fire To make my dream come true

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