Wednesday, February 8, 2006

   Hey
Wow i really shouldnt bother posting poems up here. thanx all! well thx 4 the comments and all im really happy now. im goin 2 australia with my brother woohoo!! how kool is that! was bored last night every one practicaly ignored me but meh whateva. so nothing much 2 say then...
*steps back into the shadows*
Aria
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Monday, February 6, 2006

Creative Depression
Have you ever felt like you don’t belong?
Ever thought that life was wrong?
I don’t believe I should exist,
Why did my life turn out like this?
What did I do to make them hate me?
What can I do to make them see?
I’m so unhappy, don’t want to live,
I’ve got nothing left to give.
I could shout it from the rooftops,
My life’s come to a stop.
And nobody would know,
That my depression still grows.
Everyday I smile less and less,
In my head there’s so much stress.
My constant headache lingers on,
I know they’ll miss me when I’m gone.
They think the sadness has become me,
My life has become my misery.
I’m scared to put an end to it all,
There’s no going back after that fall.
I’m lost; I don’t know what to do,
How do I stop feeling so blue?
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Wednesday, February 1, 2006

   *yawn*
wasnt hyper last night they were being mean 2 me. Gerrald kept calling me carrot top cuz of my hair and then wanted 2 steal my fries so said i had nice hair grrr! then him and the geeky kid who i dont kno his name were sayin i was fat!! so mean im not fat damnit! still havent got my pomegranate *sniff* had a really really freaky dream last night was in the back of this van with aloada friends and we were being chased - god knows y - but then we crashed. we all got out ok exept for the driver who's legs came off so we jus picked up these legs from a manikin -which just happened to be in the van - and we put those legs on him and we started running. we hid in a field and the ppl chasing us didnt find us. then there were less of us and we were in another van and i was in the back with this guy i know and then he suddenly said he really loved me and i was jus like omg i love u too!! and we started kissing. then i was suddenly at home and my parents were like y r u home so early and i looked at my watch and it wasnt even 9 oclock but i went up 2 bed anyway O.o and then it switched to a beach and i was lying on the sand kissing that guy again. then my bloody alarm clock woke me up damnit! btw i do kno who the guy was but id rather not say.
anyways i think ive rambled enough for about a week let alone a day so i will say adios!
*steps back into the shadows*
Aria
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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

   Randomness
Woohoo I have polos!!! i can live again. really craving pomegranate tho and cant find one damnit!! apparently im having an identity crisis but i don get how cuz ive never known who i was or am. lol the radio is playing the super mario theme!!!
*steps back into the shadows of insanity*
Aria
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Monday, January 30, 2006

   Brrr it's cold!
Hello how r u all? hope u are well. im freezing my ass off here i jus cant get warm at all. weekend wasnt bad - i now have funky coloured hair!! it was suposed 2 go red but my hair was black so i used pre-lightener but it only bleached my roots so when i dyed my hair red only the roots went red and the ends are black!! lyn thought it was supposed 2 b like that so i think ill keep it rather than spend more money on black hair dye! i went shoppin for some new trainers but i forgot to buy some and spent loadsa money on witch hunters instead!! and i bought a new jacket which is green (eek!) and i had to buy a new bag 2 go with it!!! shop-o-holic!! anyways games workshop 2moro will b funny to see what they think of my hair! o well toodle-oo
*steps back into the shadows*
Aria
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Friday, January 27, 2006

   Hey hey!
Well whadaya kno Im bored again! im stuck in my old rut and i hate it. have tried to awaken my friends with the hope of shopping in London. hopefully it works else again im stuck. wish i could jus b happy with what i got but the excitement has gone from my life and i need to stir things up a bit. i doubt the whole shopping thing will work but it would b a laugh and something to look forward to. i really need a holiday or something i really feel like jus goin to the beach or something but its too damn cold here and no one else will go with me if i went abroad! Damn it im out of polo mints again ive become obsessed with them for some unknown reason! ah well! had a random dream about my ex last night. i heard from him the other day and hes not doin so gd so i guess its not that random i dreamt of him jus the way the dream was was random. and now im rambling so ill shut up and go!
*steps back into the shadows*
Aria

btw i made this quiz DNAngel is sooo kool!!

Phantom Dark


DNAngel - Which character are you? (with pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

   Hiya!
Woohoooo hyperness!! my throat was hurting so much from laughing last night! was in hysterics in the car on the way home cuz there were too many of us again so we made Dave go in the boot! u could jus hear this little voice saying ow every time we turned a corner!! lol! i did actually buy sum stuff last night shock horror!! spent a small fortune but i get paid friday so nvm!! thats kind of a bad thing tho cuz im goin shoppin with Luke saturday and hes gunna make me spend more money! o well its fun!! Luke tried my gingerbread men i made and he didnt like them *sniff* he wouldnt say why tho so they cant b that bad! and Mike was mean 2 he said there wasnt enough ginger when i put in twice the amount the recipe says cuz i like lotsa ginger! grrr!! why is everyone so mean 2 me?
*steps back into the shadows*
Brenda (just dont ask!)
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

   Hey
Heyaz all!! sorry ive not updated for a while been kinda busy doing what i dont really kno jus been out a lot! went out friday night with Mike and all his mates think im an outcast!! woohooo so kool! went shoppin friday with D shes a bad influence on me i bought 2 dvds of DNAngel!! and i bought some other stuff. went ova her's and Rob's for tea (she's practically living with him) then we went out with aloada his mates and there was this guy John whos like 24 but i kno i recognise him from somewhere and he said the same about me! totally random! was quite gd fun! sunday i stayed in and read Falling Stars by Virginia Andrews (bought the book saturday) finished it and made some gingerbread men. dont laugh i like baking! (no sexist house-wife comments please! Luke i'm refering to you!!) ummm yesterday went 2 work woohooo so boring. same 2day but im goin out 2night, games workshop again. i really should buy something 2day!! o did some singing yesterday actually recorded myself lol! i dont think it sounds like me at all but what would i kno? anyways my lunch breaks nearly ova sorry if i bored u all but if u got this far at least ur not dead!!
*steps back into the shadows*
Aria
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Friday, January 20, 2006

   Going crazy
Feel like i'm stuck in a glass box like a mime, only i can see these walls around me everyone jus thinks i'm pushing them away but its the walls in the way i jus cant break them down damn it jus wanna scream but no one would hear me or if they did they'd just think i was crazy. am i?
*steps back into the shadows of insanity*
Aria
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

   hyperness
wooohoooo went so hyper last night was quite funny. no idea y cuz everyone was pickin on me cuz i was the only girl in our lil group. we got a lift home from Mike's mum and there were 5 of us 2 go in the car so there was 4 of us squidged in the back and to make things worse Luke kept stretching so i really couldnt breathe and then put his hand ova my mouth so i couldnt talk - was so mean! and yea so woohooo that was fun! was chattin 2 dave - random cuz he hates me but quite kool cuz dave has gd taste in music except he doesnt like nightwish - gah! had another random dream last night bout my mum havin another kid - really random cuz she was bout 30 yrs younger in the dream and she had a baby boy but i dont kno what she called him i was jus sorta watching them 2gether and it was really sweet. so yea randomonium! moving on work is boring cuz i got nothin 2 do but id betta go b4 someone comes back from lunch and catches me online! bye!
*steps back into the shadows*
Aria
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