Monday, November 15, 2004

   Coffee
with Irish and the Bowie-ite and Irish's sister was great. I have to remember to get Irish's hat of coolness back to her today. hope I pass my Latin Vocab test...lol...not so confident. anywho, have a great day all.

WOLFIE
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Saturday, November 13, 2004

   *cough cough*
yeah, Today was GREAT!!!!!! *grin and chuckle* ah....hee hee hee. I'ma go reflect on what happened, lol, ta ta

WOLFIE
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   Fall Forum
...Was AWESOME! Had loads of fun, even though I got egged...lol. I got first place so hah, it was worth it! Had fun, went to an archeaology workshope which was cool, had two meals, lol, the catapult competition was fun, both of us (teams) kinda got disqualified but thats cool, we both tied for first place, lol. I really plan on going to Spring Forum. In case some of you don't know, The forums are for JCL and yeah...Much fun was had, lol. Thats all for now, will write more after I get back from my date. farewell for now.

WOLFIE
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Friday, November 12, 2004

   Top o' the Mornin all
This weekend looks to be a good one for the most part. Saturday I get to go see my girl friend at the bowling alley, Sunday (hopefully) I get to have coffee with Irish. The only thing worrying me at the moment is whether or not my best friend will be able to graduate, my ol' school threatened to kick him out if he didn't get his grades up by the end of this semester, and they can do that because he is 19, so yeah. But I will have to take a page from all my friends' books and have a lil faith for once, lol. Anywho, hope you all have a great one! Farewell.

WOLFIE
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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

   YaY
Patrick has a Girl Friend!!!!! (oh and for those who don't know, that Patrick is me, lol) My day was the Shiznit! How was y'alls? Hope it was great too! anywho, hope you all have a great one tomorrow, farewell!

WOLFIE
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   Wheeeeee
Today was GREAT!!!!!! Hee hee hee. yeah...bye bye

WOLFIE
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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

   something I am working on, comments are welcome

BATTLES





Battles I face, day in and day out. I am never free from the unrelenting assaults that my mind doth make. I am plagued with battle manifested in dream and reality. Many would see my predicament as mere folly, but to me it is torture. I am filled with hatred and love all at the same time. Whilst I despise humanity for what it is and what it is not I too love it for the same reasons. I see people destroy everything that they come in contact with without a mere wince or regret on their faces. I see too the people that cherish what they have and try to preserve that which will inevitably be corrupted and I admire that amount of unending devotion! I wish I could go back to the simple days from whence I came where I didn’t care either way but alas such is not to be, I have damned myself to this abysmal and hellish state of mind. Afore I came here I hadn’t a care in the world, my only goal was to destroy it but now there is a want, nay a need to help preserve humanity for the sakes of those who “fight the good fight” so to say. I try to remember how my change of mind came about but to no avail. I still relish in the chaos that goes on around me but at the same time I fear for those I care for. Dreams used to be my sanctuary but they are no panacea for my troubles anymore. I dream of war and chaos and death, but in that war I see liberation, in that chaos I see rebirth and a new beginning, and in that death I see peace. Alas no one knows what goes on in death, it could be much worse than life. Many believe in a Heaven or Hell in some way or other and Heaven is seen as good whilst Hell seen as evil and full of pain and suffering. The Norse believed that upon death in the way of battle the fallen would be carried to the halls of Valhalla where they would dine with the gods and do battle everyday, that was their Heaven, and to be quite honest, one I would like to go to, I know what you must be thinking, for one who is so tired of battles to want more is hypocritical. However the battles I speak of seeing and going through are mainly psychological ones, ways of testing ones mental endurance and strength. I would love a place full of physical battles for they are easier by far. For your opponents can be seen and dealt with, they can be hurt; unlike mental enemies that can be rarely injured and even rarer, killed. The world will never know true peace until all like me are driven from existence! As long as people like me and of like mind are alive or even our ideas are alive then there will always be battles to fight. Tempers will flare, blood will be spilt, and friendships will be severed. That is why I have come to the conclusion that to gain true peace the human race should be killed off, but at the same time as my mind says this, my heart, o’ accursed of things, I thought it black as night but to much dismay it has some red to it. It will not allow me to willingly let my friends and loved ones perish, and I cannot willingly take my own life for it is against my beliefs, twisted as they may be, they are still present, and I enjoy and am grateful for most of them. Even though at times they make my battles more tortuous, they also bring a sense of hope and happiness to me and give mere seconds of peace, but they don’t last more than a few seconds. So I shall continue to fight my battles and long for things that I can never have or know and one day I shall come to the end of my journey and be judged, and I shall not deny any accusations against me for the judge will know the truth and I shall accept my sentencing whether it be Heaven, Hell, Purgatory, or the honorable halls of Valhalla. I will fight for my friends and do my best to protect them at all costs, whether those costs be my sanity or my life, they are mine to pay and I do so willingly. For that is who I am and if I had not those principles that I adhere to then who would I be? I hope to live long and help many along my way, I wish to ease the suffering of all I meet, whether the suffering be small or gigantic in nature. This is how I shall deal with my enemies, my battles. There is a quote from a movie called “The Scorpion King,” it was said by a group of Acadians, “Live long, die well.” That is one of my favorite quotes because it isn’t fancy and it doesn’t have any hidden meanings, it is simple and straight forward. So to you all I say, “Live long, Die well!”

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Monday, November 8, 2004

   Oh no...
My day wasn't the greatest, thought I was gonna pass out, my vision blurred and things were moving that weren't supposed to be moving. Was trying to read the book that I took the poem from and my keyboard kept going from side to side and I couldn't keep my eyes focused. I felt light headed and it was worse at Wrestling practice. Almost fell over, couldn't breathe, my chest hurt, almost threw up (t'woulda been the second time cause I sorta threw up right before wrestling practice). Hope I'm not sick! Got a letter from the Merchant Marine Academy saying they were missing some things and that my score was too low. They require a 500 - Verbal and a 550 - Math overall = 1050, I made a 1000, wasn't too happy with it in the first place, need to study and retake it, and if I don't get nominated this year I shall try again next year! Didn't quite qualify for The Citadel either, 1150 or something, but they kinda use GPA also so I may still have a chance, *crosses fingers* Hope you all had a better day than I did! Farewell!

WOLFIE
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   For Irish
I hope everyone has a nice day. Irish, I found this in a book that I am reading and thought you might like to read it so here goes...

"Going Wodwo" by Neil Gaiman

SHEDDING MY SHIRT, my book, my coat, my life,
Leaving them, empty husks and fallen leaves,
Going in search of food and for a spring
Of sweet water.

I'll find a tree as wide as ten fat man,
Clear water rilling over its grey roots.
Berries I'll find, and crab apples and nuts,
And call it home.

I'll tell the wind my name, and no one else.
True madness takes or leaves us in the wood
halfway through all our lives. My skin will be my face now.

I must be nuts. Sense left with shoes and house, my guts are cramped. I'll stumble through the green back to my roots, and leaves, and thorns, and buds, and shiver.

I'll leave the way of words to walk the wood.
I'll be the forest's man, and greet the sun,
And feel the silence blossom on my tongue like language.

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That was from "The Green Man Tales from the Mythic Forest" edited by Ellen Datlow & Terri Windling. Decorations by Charles Vess.
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It is a very good book! Hope I brightened your day, Irish. Ta ta

WOLFIE
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Sunday, November 7, 2004

   shocking...
I didn't get to go have coffee with Irish today but I got to spend the day with Aaron and that was fun, we actually went the whole time, at least 4 hours, without butting heads for once. That was cool! Sorry I haven't written in a few days...been kinda lazy, still have to do homework, lol. So with all that, may you all have a great and safe week!

WOLFIE
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