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Thursday, August 5, 2004
Mom...
*sighs* If everyone could pray for my mom, I'd really appreciate it. If you didn't already know, my mom has gestational diabetes. She found out yesterday that she's been eating all wrong. If her blood sugar continues to be too high, the baby will get too big. That means either a C-section or inducement. I didn't know until last night, but my mom has never had a C-section. wow...10 live-births! ^_^ The main problem right now isn't the physical one...she's falling into a bit of depression combined from lots of stress from day-to-day life and the diabetes. Last night, the rest of us were eating pancakes. My dad offered her a bit with blueberry syrup. She was at the breaking point. She got up, grabbed her bag of insulin and other equipment and went to the bathroom. I could tell she was about to cry. Dad sort of gave me a look like "What did I do?" I could have slapped him... Mom's going through a lot right now...it's not easy... Usually, he's really understanding and sympathetic. I don't know what's gotten into him. He tried to make small talk with me about work. I could barely eat. I finished quickly (eating less than usual), cleared my spot, and went to the bathroom. I looked at Mom and just gave her a hug. I wanted so badly to just cry for her. I hate seeing her go through all of this. It's so terrible. I just wish I could take on all of her suffering so she'd be okay... I'm really worried that she may get worse after I leave for college. I mean, if Dad isn't being supportive, then no one will... *sighs* Amy, you have to take care of my mom while I'm gone! *cries* You know much more about diabetes than I do. You can help her! Please, do that for me!! *sighs* Combining this with my b**** of a sister, I feel so guilty about leaving for college... I know, I worry too much...
Man...I'm really depressing myself...*sighs* I'm gonna go see everyone's sites now...I'll probably post again later, and hopefully, it'll be happier!
~art~
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