Tuesday, October 30, 2007

[MY WRITINGS] Continuation-10
I promised myself i would never love you again...

But you don't know how difficult it is for me

to stop caring for the one person who opened my heart to love...

who opened my eyes to see the world..

YOU were the world that i saw.

Those days when i was with you..

those days when we were together were the best days of my life. You were the first person who showed me what love was...

And it felt really good.

You were always there for me when i needed you..

You were the only person who understood me.

If we didn't see each other for just ONE day...

for every breath i would take,

took a little more strength out of me.

I miss those days.

You're probably thinking, "what the hell??..

She misses feeling like dying??"..

the answer is yes in a way..

It wasn't the fact that I liked the feeling of dying! (LOL)..

it was when we saw each other the next day,

it felt like we've been apart for a year..

The feeling that we missed each other so much..

that's what made me happy..

To love someone..

and to feel loved by someone that much...

It was love..

and it was REAL.

But there were complications to our relationship..

And different paths we were headed for...

I didn't want to see you struggle with the pain of the "end"

if we stayed together longer..

Just leading to nothing in the end...

I loved you that much..

I loved you enough to let you go free

and live your life so you could reach your goals..

So i ended it..

and that was the last you heard of me for 3 months...

I thought it would be easier

to get over you if i COMPLETELY erased you from my sight

and from my memory...

I was wrong..

Not only can i NOT get over you..

My heart,

once opened to love, closed up to feel only heartache..

And my eyes,

once opened to see the world, shut only to see the darkness

and only to feel tears of pain..

I promised myself i would never love you again..

But while composing this written composition

i realized i already broke that promise from the beginning...

Don't you understand??..

I never DID stop loving you..

I just wanted you to have a better life...

Oh, I've always loved you and i always will!!

But now i have to live with this broken promise..

And what do i have to say about it??

TO HELL WITH IT...

if truely we were meant to be,

you'd come back to me

and realize that our love is strong...



Even with our complications,

our love will find its way to conquer all!.. ^___^

Comments (0)