Monday, July 31, 2006

	My body hates me T-T yesterday I was eating and I threw up, I thought it was just an upset stomach, but after I finished and waited a few hours later, I tried eating again, and I threw up. I didn't eat at all yesterday, and I don't think I'm sick, cause I don't have a fever of anything, my stomach hurts so bad (I usually have to eat something every 30min. or it hurts really bad) but I'm afraid if I eat I might throw up again. I didn't do anything wrong to my body, I even at some bananas and some yogurt for a snack, but I couldn't eat my dinner, T-T I have so many problems... Ack, stupid last minute descions. Man, I just reread my FMA story and I realized something. It's a sucky story (I was spell checking it, too)T-T but haha, I always (somewhat) have a back up plan ^-^ I got an idea from a Naruto story I just wrote, lol, 'cept it's completely different ^-^ It'll only be one chapter cause I had a dream about it and I know what's gonna happen (weird, I know) but the thing is, after taking all those weeks writing the other one, and just a day to write this one really makes me feel like I wasted my time writing the first one that took me a while T-T but I hope that this one is a better one...I really hope so... Anyways, haha, this part is about what happened yesterday when I got off the computer, my mom came in and told me my room had better be cleaned by today and I, again, asked her why. She said this time that I was the only little girl and that I should be more girly like. I hate being girly like. I grew up with my brothers and mostly my guy cousins, so how can you possibly expect me to be all girly-girl? I wrestle with my cousins when they come over, although they're older and always flip me, and we always play video games, and well..you get the picture. Anyways, my mom did the usual : "I used to be the same way too" I hate it when she says that. I asked my grandma about it once and she said that my mom was one of those girls who played jump rope all day long and had lots of dolls and whatnot. The only thing my mom and I had in common at my age was probably the apologizing thing, where I always feel the need to apologize if I did something (no matter how small) wrong, and I usually almost always have a feeling to apologize. Other than this, my grandma says that I'm not really like my mom, more so like my dad who didn't like hugs (I could really do without them) and he wasn't really that social with people, I'm only social if I have to be, like at school with friends, although sometimes, I could do without talking to people all the time, I like being left to think on my own when I have problems, but my mom insists that one day out of the blue, I'm gonna up and decide to be a giirly girl, 'just like she did' and she and her friend are going as far as to ask me a bunch of questions that I think are so stupid, like what color nail polish do I like. I stopped wearing nail polish when I was eight cause my grandma stopped putting it on my nails for church, even then I wore pink because people tell me that I look good in pink, also because my cousin Derek used to call me Pinky cause I was a pink baby, lol. Anywyas, being girly-girl, isn't my thing. I may own some things that are girly, and I may even act girly at some times, but there's no way I'll grow up one day and decide to go outside and play jump rope, over staying inside and playing video games. That ain't gonna happen, trust me, and there's no way I'd willingly put on make up and flirt with guys, lmao, I'd never, wear make-up, probably lip gloss, but nothing like eye-liner or blush or whatever else there is, and besides, at my old school, I always made guy friends easier than I did when I was trying to be friends with girls. They were mean and judgemental, and they didn't like me to much in the beginning, but then they tried to be my friend cause I was friends with the guy they liked, they were just bad people, some of them, and at this school, well, at my current school, I guess I kind of changed, cause it's kind of different the way things run, and besides, that was elementary school, this is middle school. Welp, I gotta get to typing or else I'll be disqualified, I'd like it if I could finish in about three hours, but my naruto fanfiction is fairing better than most of my others, lol, so maybe it was a good idea, but my writing abilities suck, lmao, If I had to write down the many things I suck at doing then It'd be a pretty long list, lol, also, I hope I made it to eveyone's site yesterday, I was on late trying to visit you guys, my eyes hurt and I was sleepy, I went to sleep feeling crazy, (that's probably why I had that kind of dream) Although, I was talking to a friend of mine, she IMed me and I'm like "what is she doing on so late at night?" It was freaking 11:30 something, who IM's ppl at 11:30? Oh well, I might make it to you guys site today, I might not, I promised Soul Alchemist that I'd turn in a story, and that's what I'm gonna do, I can't go back on my word, I have pride you know. Also, do you guys think I over do it with the AMV's? Tell me cause I can stick to only putting on one AMV or none at all, okies? Well, ttyl, byeness ^-^ Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

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Sunday, July 30, 2006

	Well, my back is killing me, I slept in my brothers room on the floor last night. We couldn't even watch TV last night cause he wanted to turn it off as soon as I got in there. I convinced him to let me turn the TV off and the last thing we watched was FMA. Not even the whole episode. I can't believe my mom made me sleep in there, my poor back T-T Anyways, I don't have much else to say, I wrote a new fanfiction, actually I wrote it a while back, but I uploaded it today, so ha, and now I can upload my FMA story ^-^ yayness ^-^. Also, I'm sry I didn't make it to you guys sites yesterday, (I seem to be missing a lot of days huh? sry 'bout that)I don't think I was on the computer much yesterday...I'll try and make it today, okies? And again, I'm sry about that. Well, ttyl, and take care ^-^ Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

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Saturday, July 29, 2006

3 major flaws, a not so clean room, and bad children

	Okies, just cause there's nothing else to say, I felt like typing this...Alright, in 7th grade alone I have been called annoying many times b4, for the same reasons my friends call me Dee, lol. I have an odd tendency to squeel whenever I'm poked anywhere I'm ticklish, or whenenever I'm excited, which is most of the time. My squeels are high pitched and it is rather annoying. It's one of my major bad habits that's I hope to be rid of, but I doubt it, I can't control those even if I tried. Next is my giggling. My grandma hates my giggle. She says that I should just laugh like a normal person and that I sound like an idiot when I giggle and always tells me to stop, but I can't help the way I giggle, I just do...well, the two major reasons for why people think I'm annoying, and two reasons why people call me, me, lol ^-^. There are a few other reasons, but those are how they know I'm my usual self, if I'm not my usual self they'd know because I won't be able to giggle if I'm not happy, lol. Getting off the subject of me being annoying, yesterday I was supposed to clean my room, and I wanted to cause I was bored, then my mother saw me cleaning and told me that when she came back into the room she wanted it to be "Spic and span clean" then, she left. The feeling of wanting to clean my room died and I got back on the computer. My mom comes in and see's that my room isn't clean and gives me until the end of the day. I know my room isn't the cleanest room in the house, but I'm one of the only ones that has to clean a room themselves. My grandma cleans her room and my little brother and my older brother share a room but they have their own sides, and my mom, well, she pays her husbands relatives to clean her room cause they need the extra cash, and sometimes she makes us clean her room. Anyways, at around 10 last night she came in and asked why wasn't my room clean, I told her that I didn't feel like cleaning it and it should be clean by sometime next week, and she got mad. She asked me "what makes you think you can go around and tell me when your rooms gonna be clean? If I said clean it today, then it better be clean today." I told her still, that I'll clean it sometime next week. I'd never really thought of my self as a smart mouth til today, but thinking back in the past, I guess I am, I've done worse things, but I've never spoken to my grandma like that, just goes to show my level of respect. Anyway, my mom thought I was joking when I said that and she told me that I had til 12 a.m. to finish, I laughed and said "Do you honestly think I'm gonna clean my room?" I had nothing against cleaning my room, but if I'm gonna be forced to clean it, It's gonna get dirty the next day so why bother if I'm not gonna keep it clean? When I stopped laughing my mom was offended I guess and asked me why not. I told her that I should be getting a month to clean my room like she gives my brothers, there are two of them and they get a month, and only one of me and I get a few hours, I mean, how is that fair? The honest truth was that I really didn't feel like cleaning my room and that was the perfect excuse, lol, but it's true, but an excuse none the less. I had wanted to clean my room, and then I was told to so I didn't want to anymore, the moment was ruined, I was even gonna shampoo the carpet, lol, but I guess not, huh? You wanna know what's bad? My mom not only gives my brothers a month to clean their room, but she expects me to help them all the time just cause my little brother never wants to do anything, he always get's off easy, he's 11 years old and doesn't even know how to mop, sweep, or clean his own room, and his grades suck, he doesn't TRY to do anything cause they don't make him try. My older brother and I used to do laundry together when he was 11 and I was only 7! We cleaned the living room, we vacuumed, and we cleaned our room, that at the time, all three of us shared. Now that my little brother's 11 he goes outside and plays and he watches tv, but he never lifts a finger to help us cause my mom's always saying, "Go help your brother he doesn't know any better" and she's not helping him learn any better either! My tiny excuse had turned into an argument, about my little brother. If I had known she was drunk I wouldn't have said anything to her, but I was being and idiot and continued to talk. I knew she was drunk cause she kept pointing at me and trying to interupt me. She kept saying "how it feels to be the youngest" and "because he's the youngest" I know she was was the youngest out of 9 kids but she had time to let her siblings do the work cause they had to grow up and stuff, there were 9 of them for pete's sake! there are only 3 of us and she expects us to babay him for the rest of his life! Also, I have a four year old nephew who I hate, him and his mom and her dad, and I have to take care of him all the time, and then my lil bro is always teaching the kid bad habits! Why are children so evil? I know I'm still a child, but Why are the younger ones so bad? Babies are adorable when they're innocent and can barely speak, this four year old rubbed my thigh! That little perv, I wanted to hit him so bad, but then I let it go cause he's a kid, but he always rubs my thigh, and I told my mom dozens of times and she's always says "cause he loves you, he doesn't know any better" so she's no help at all, and if I hit him, he tells his grandad (my mom's husband)and then my mom scolds me. That people, is not innocence, that's EVIL, and then, some people have the nerve to call it cute. WTF?! Since when is a perverted 4 year old cute?Man, I hate kids, but they always seem to like me no matter how mean I am to them. Once my little cousins were over and so were the ones from my mom's husbands side and they all came in my room and gave me a hug and they all sat in there and annoyed me to no means. they were sitting there, but not quetly, and I'm a very bad person when I just get up from bed (lol, my brother woke my up a few min. ago) so I told them to be quiet or go play with my brother, they just sat there and were quiet for 2 seconds until I told them to get out because of them knocked over my lamp. I have put most of them on time out and forgotten them there at least 3 times already, but these kids just like following me around. Most of the boys from my mom's husband's side are perverted children, it's creepy to be around them, it's disgusting. They always try something, and once my nephew tried to kiss his own cousin, I gave him a time out and told him not to do that cause it's wrong. She was even crying which makes me wonder what he did to her...oh well, I just hate kids and I'm a sucky baby sitter, is the point I'm trying to make. Also, that I still haven't cleaned my room (and I won't for a month just to prove my point about my little brother) I think those are my points, I guess, lol, I think I wrote to much, I think I stray from one subject to the next to much, I'll try not to do that so much in the future, well, I'll try and make it to you guys site, and have a great day, okies? Take care ^-^ Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

Lmao, OMG, I'm no SasuNaru fan, but I found this and it's HILARIOUS!! LMAO
Here, this one's sasusaku, I need to redeem my self.



lol, I was in a mood for some disney songs, lmao, two of my favs, lol.



here's a cool song, I think I heard it yesterday, I like the way this was done, lol
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Friday, July 28, 2006

   cool AMV's, lol, and a post

	Well, I didn't go to Milwaukee yesterday cause my bro was sick, so now It's him me and my mom at home together, doing nothing, I'm so happy I didn't go, thank God he was sick, my grandma told me to stay home and look after him. It was just a headache and a fever and he's over that now, but I'm glad I didn't have to go. I guess your wondering why she told me to take care of him and not my mom, lol. Well, my mom has MS and is on medication, so I have to take care of her too, just in case something bad happens. Her husband doesn't care that she has MS, so my grandma always looked after her, but we were gonna call and check up on her if we did go to Milwaukee, but since I'm at home I can take care of them both, but just cause my mom has MS it doesn't mean she's not capable of taking care of herself, she just doesn't like taking her medication, lol. She's okies and a normal person otherwise, and she's still mean, lol. My older brother though, is already better (that's what he says) cause I gave him some medicine and told him to sleep, my mom on the other hand still won't take hers cause she says it makes her even sicker so I'm gonna try and make her take it but if she doesn't I'll just call my aunt, lol. Well, other than that not much else to say. I'm playing the role of nurse for 5 days, and I have to make our food and stuff, although they have to wake me up and they could easily neglect their condition by not taking their medicine and leave me asleep, lol. Well, I'm just gonna put like, 5 AMV's at the bottom, hope you like 'em, I hope I got to everyone today, if I didn't let me know, okieS? Byeness, and take care ^-^ Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

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Thursday, July 27, 2006

   I didn't go

	crap, I wrote this already but my mom pushed me off aol, so I'll make this simple and brief cause the feelings dead now... Okies I didn't go to Milwaukee cause when my grandma woke us up and my older brother was sick, she asked me to stay home and take care of him and she left with my little brother and cousin. I was so happy but I pretended not to act like it cause I didn't wanna hurt her feelings, so when they left I stayed here and helped my brother cause he secretly helped me get away from that trip! He doesn't know that though. He has a headache and a fever, so i guess it really wasn't all that bad, but still, five days without my grandma nagging me and five days of knowing she's having fun not nagging me, but nagging my cousins instead, lol, but yeah, I know she'll have fun cause she's with her other family members, and they always seem to be laid back every time we visit, although the only thing I wouldn't mind going for is my cousin Bud, he's like, what? 40 something, but he always picks on me and last time when they came over he won and I have to get him back, lol, my family is so big now that I think about it, we have so many members I don't even know half the family. My grandma's mom had 13 kids (imagine how many her sister had) and my grandma had 9 which means I have 8 aunts and 12 great aunts who have they're children (to many to say how many they each had) and so my cousins were born way b4 me, cause my mom was the youngest of my grandma's 9, so yeah, and then there was the older cousins who had their kids and then so on and so on, etc, etc, anyways, I wanted to talk about a tornado that is supposedly coming this way, I'm still on the computer (I've been on the computer through the whole storm and now it's letting up, the rain sorta stopped and I don't see the trees blowing like they were earlier, I guess it's not really coming, but I heard the sirens ring earlier, this is the first tornado experience I've ever had, and I'm to bored right now (tired, my eyes hurt) to be scared and start panicking like my mom, she keeps calling and saying to stay away from the windows, etc, etc, and says she'll be here in a few min. but I know it's gonna be a while b4 they get here, her husband's probably gonna stop and stare. He's such an idiot, he'd really do something like that. He'd probably watch the trees blow and watch the rain, and stuff. I don't know how far from home they are, but it looks as though the sky is clearing, but I could be wrong... oh well, see you guys later, and I might actually be able to make it to your sites, now cause I'm at home with nothing better to do but to be here, and reading fanfiction, lol, well, see you guys later, okies? ttyl, and take care ^-^ Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

I couldn't think of what to put here, so I just used these instead of one, lol, ^-^
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   Why I hate Milwaukee

	Well, I'm leaving for Millwaukee later on today, I finished packing a few hours ago, I'm mad at my grandma now. She ironed my brothers (older and younger) and my little cousins clothes and then she tells me to iron my own? I felt so wronged. I know she uaually irons and washes our clothes, and I do on occaision, but she didn't have to bring in all their clothes and then say "you can go and iron your clothes now, Maisha" I was like, 'What did she say?' at fist I thought she meant that I could come get my clothes, but then she said that we'd better hurry or she'll wake up and leave us here. That made me kind of sad, I didn't want to go, and she was threatening to leave me here. I just said nothing and ironed my own clothes. Then she did something that made me feel worse. She packed their clothes and told me to pack mine. I was in shock. I got out my blue bag and packed my own clothes. Then she says to pack for 5 days, 4 nights. Once again, utter shock. I thought it was a two day trip like it usually was, but I'm gonna be in milwaukee for a school week after today. I hate milwaukee so much, and I though I was doing something nice by deciding to go to make her happy, and she makes me do everything on my own while doing my brothers things for them? That was just plain unfair. I know I'm capable of doing things on my own, but so are they. My little brother is so spoiled, and my older brother is so, well, he never does anything wrong. I'm the middle child and I'm the only girl, although I'm kind of a tomboy, lol, but still, she could've at least told me that I'd have to pack on my own, or made my brothers pack their own. Oh well, I can't change what happened, and now I'm gonna be in Milwaukee for 5 days, did I mention I that I HATE Milwaukee? It's gonna be seriously boring, at least we get to bring the game cube, and at least I can enjoy the car drive, I like riding in the cars, It makes me fall asleep, although, I'd rather be going to Oklahoma (I was looking forward to that drive) anyways, I have all the needs packed, but I need entertainment, I'm gonna get bored. Those slut (excuse my language) cousins of mine are gonna be very annoying. They're gonna do what they always do, steal, lie, and make noises and ruin the rap songs I like by dancing to them. I remember last year I went and we went to the corner store and I was paying for my pop and the guy next to me gave me a bunch of change and he said somethig so very disturbing to me, but in his own way I guess he was being kind, when he handed me the change he said "You're gonna be so hot when you get older.." and left. I was dumbfounded. The guy was at least in his mid 30's and I was 12 or 11 at the time. It freaked me out, I was horrified beyond words. I quickly payed for my stuff and ran out of the store with my cousins constantly begging me to buy her something cause (sry for up coming profanity, but I can't help this, it's the only way I know how to explain it) her poor ass, just spent all her God damn money on some God damn gym shoes and had attempted to fucking steal from me in my own damn house, and then blamed my uncle for it, that God damned mother fucking- Sasuke: I think you've said enough, I never thought you'd get this upset. Me:Ask me for money, I'll lend it to you and expect you to pay me the amount back later, (If I'm in a good mood, without interest) Steal my money from me, I'll let you go grudgingly, steal my money, lie about it, AND blame my uncle and pretend that I'm a stupid child with no common sence? You'd best pray for a miracle to happen cause I'm gonna beat you for sure and I'll even through in a bonus: make you suffer in ways you never believed to be possible. After she took my money, I litterally snapped cause she kept lying! I knew she was lying, I can read ppl like a book when they lie, usually I don't say anything cause I'm usually easy to get a long with unless you prove to me a reason that I should hate you, and I hate her cause she was lying to me and talking to me like I was a naive little child. I knew that I was much smarter than her considering her speach and the way she responded when I said things to my brother. (we're sorta like geeks cause we laugh at somethings we learn and turn it into brain twisters and make it funny, but I don't think we're geeks) Anyways, she was in 8th grade I was in 6th and I was visibly 10 times smarter than her! I hate her and I always will, I don't give a care what she says, I'll never ever giver her money or buy anything for her again! This is exacltly WHY I hate going! (also, no computer or form of entertainment whatsoever, also, the constant ppl running in and out the house! All my cousins down there walk around like whores! They expect me to wear revealing clothes as well, but there's no way I'm wearing something like that after last time (but I was only wearing some shorts and a short sleaved shirt, not revealing at all, but he still said it so it's best to be safe) I didn't even pack a pair of shorts this time! I packed mostly jeans and one pair of capri's, so ha! Also, a jean dress cause I knew it was gonna get hot there, but I hate that dress, so I packed something else just in case it wasn't gonna be that hot there. I packed for my complete safety, I'd hate to experience that again, it was so disturbing. I hate going to Milwaukee...It always makes me angry and tense, not happy or excited, but ready to choke someone, and trust me, I'm usually not one for violence or causing trouble but every time I go there I'm always pissed off, but I'm still going and I'm gonna pretend to have fun for my grandma, she just had her 70th b-day and I want to make sure that every time she does something for us I'll try my best to appreciate it, I'm trying not to spoil this trip by getting into something with my cousin cause I know she's gonna be there. I'm tryin to calm myself down, but I just wish my aunt was going, she'd probably find a way to lessen the tension between me and my cousin, my grandma did say I acted just like my aunt though, so I might be able to sove it myself, I'll just ignore her, but since I hate being ignored, that's kind of hard to do to other people, maybe I won't ignore her, maybe I'll just tell her to leave me the hell alone, but not so harshly. Oh forget it, no matter what I say she's gonna act like a bitch and try and act all supperior. I hate ppl who think they're supperior, I'm one of those people with an inferiority complex, I guess that's why I'm acting like this. Someone who I (and I hate to say this) believe to be stupid, thinks that they can just tell me what to do just cause she thinks she's older and more mature, but let me tell you something, when you're mature it doesn't just mean physically, it means mentally as well. I don't thinks it's fair to judge me as immature just because I'm not as 'developed' as her, it doesn't work like that. If she could just shut up and TRY to act like she had common sense then maybe I could try and reason with her but she's to stuck up on herself to listen to me, and besides, I don't need to look/act like a whore to know that I'm way prettier than her anyways, man, my family is so judgemental, I hate it! They think just cause I like video games and reading books and watching TV that I'm hopeless and I'll never be able to get a boyfriend (I'm 13 and most girls in my family had a boyfriend by my age) but I don't want one now cause I know it wouldn't last, I'm not a whore like everyone wants me to be, I'm not into celebraties at all, like they want me to be, and I'm not gonna act like that cause I have to much pride to lower myself to that level, I don't wanna be like the rest of my family I hate it! It's not fair that I have to be the only one who's left out of conversations cause all they want to talk about is boys and other things, I don't want that, cause I'm not like that at all! I hadn't expeted this post to turn into one of my emotional rantings, but I didn't write in my journal so this is where I'm putting it, I don't care anymore, I'm sry you guys, this post was way outta line, but I couldn't help myself, please forgive me for not coming to visit everyone's site yesterday, and I hope you all have a nicer week than I'm gonna have, I'm gonna leave b4 I snap and cry this time, ttyl, okies? Take care. Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

I love this song...


this one, too ^-^
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006

   Just a little break?

	SEMI-IMPORTANT NOTICE: I might be gone for a couple days or something, so I won't be able to post or comment in that time, (cause our crappy relatives in Milwaukee don't have a computer)my grandma wants to take us on vacation, but I'm really going cause I want her to enjoy herself. I hate Milwaukee. One time, one of my cousins tried to steal from me and then she framed my uncle.yeah, it was stupid.well, I gotta go pack unfortunately. Also, I think I'm ruining my eyesite even more from being on the computer (and they hurt so much, I feel like they're about to pop out my head) I've been having frequent headaches and everything, so I just might decide to take a break even when I get back, well, ttyl, okies? And all of you, Take care ^-^ I was just wondering if anyone read this yesterday when I put it in my profile cause my grandma told me after I'd already posted, and I forgot to say something about my vision. My mom won't take me to get glasses, or even braces for that matter, so I have bad vision, and sharp pains in my mout from my bottom teeth coming together (sounds nasty, but it's not that bad, I just have a tooth behind some of my teeth and they're filling in the gap I guess, but it hurts) the bad vision is like. hm, you know when you first wake up and you're visions all blury, it's a mild version of that...On a different note, my brother took his high school pictures a few days ago and we got them back (he's in his last year) and I never noticed how grown up he looks now...In those pictures he looked like an adult, seriously, he's only 16, I didn't know he'd look like that, and I live with him, I should've noticed...oh well, soon he's gonna be going off to college, (he'll be in collage when I get to high school, I'm going to 8th grade in the fall and he's takin his last year in the fall) Our graduations are both gonna come and stuff, it's gonna suck...he doesn't even know what he wants to be. He can't do anything without me, I'm the middle child(excluding Shawn, who doesn't live with ut, and my other relatives, this is on my mom's side, and stuff)! I hold us three together, me and him have always been together. When he's gone, who's gonna be the video game freak? When he's gone, who's gonna wake me up? Well, I got one yearleftwith him, so I'll worry about that later. Also, I went to Borders with my grandma (I told you guys she'd take me ^-^) and we were there for a few hours (cause I couldn't decide what to pick, or remember what some suggestions where T-T I was stupid for not writing them down. I went there to get STARGIRL, but they were sold out (YES!!) but they said they'll order one for me and to come back next week (NO!!!) anyways, I wound up getting Chrono Crusade, and I haven't finished it yet (usually I finish in like, an hour at once) but my eyes were hurting so I couldn't bring myself to read it. I was starving yesterday, my stomach hurt like crazy, I felt so sick, but I'm pretty sure I wasn't, unlike usual. Everytime I get sick it reminds me of when I was little. I used to be sick every other week. I had the chicken pox and the measles at the same time, I had Pnemonia twice (right after I got rid of it) and I had some asthmaattacks, frequent colds, and I had soemthing else, I forgot....but yeah, and these were back in elementrary school, ever since kindergarden and up to 5th grade (then I moved to the suburbs) and I guess moving was good for my health cause I don't get sick like I used to ^-^, my brother says he's shocked I'm still here after having double pneumonia. That was probably the worst time of my life. Oh well, let's get of my health, I'm getting hungry, I've been sleep for more than half a day I think. I went to sleep at around 4 a.m. , awakened at 10, then I went back to sleep at around 4p.m. and had to eat dinner at 6, after dinner I went right back to sleep (it was still six something) and I woke up at 1 a.m. (that was 40 something min. ago) so If I'm not mistaken that's about 15 hours ^-^. Yay me, although, the record is a full day and a half ^-^ Sasuke: That's not something you should celebrate about -_- Me: but it's an accomplishment, right? Sasuke: You're and idiot Me: I am not, anyways, I'm gonna go, I have to try and upload my last chapet of my FMA story onto fanfiction.net, it was being crappy b4, but I hope it works today, well, see you guys later, Take care ^-^ Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

This is hilarious to me, I love this, although, I don't agree about Sasuke...yep...
Sasuke: did you just say I was sexy?
Me: Leave me alone!
Sasuke: whatever....


This is so SAD, *cries* I hardly see these with so much about their childhood, I gotta watch those eps soon, well, l8ter, take care ^-^
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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Please don't hate me for this...

	1. WHO ARE YOU?(user name) 2. ARE WE FRIENDS ALREADY? 3. DO YOU LIKE MY SITE? 4. DO YOU LIKE BEING MY FRIEND? 5. WHAT ANIME ON MY LIST DO YOU AGREE WITH? (which one do you like that i like) 6. GIVE ME A NICKNAME AND EXPLAIN WHY YOU PICKED IT 7. DESCRIBE ME IN ONE WORD 8. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF ME? 9. DO YOU STILL THINK THAT WAY OF ME NOW? 10. AM I A GOOD FRIEND? 11. IF YOU COULD GIVE ME ANYTHING, WHAT WOULD IT BE? 12. HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME? 13. WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? 14. EVER WANTED TO TELL ME SOMETHING BUT FELT AFRAID TO? (PM ME) 15. DO YOU THINK IM NICE? 16. DO YOU THINK IM JUDGEMENTAL? 17. ARE YOU GOING TO PUT THIS ON YOUR SITE AND SEE WHAT I SAY ABOUT YOU? 18. if you could meet 2 people on the otaku who would they be? Yes, I think this post is everywhere, I've seen it I think either 2 or 3 times, and I know it's time comsuming, also I think I forgot to come back and do one yesterday, I don't remember when that was, I don't even remember who(I'm sorry, please forgive me, I have a bad memory), I think it was yesterday or the day b4 cause that's when we went clothes shopping... Anyways, remember yesterday when I said I was hungry? Well, after I got off the computer my aunt (the one I mentioned) came in with cheese fries from portillos, it wasn't the origional house of pancakes, but it was food nonetheless, and besides, Ilove cheese fries....and vanilla shakes...but I still wanna go there. Also we did not go to Borders. My mom won't let me! We did go out to buy stuff (school supplies) and she'd already told me she'd take me to Borders but we did not go! I'm SO mad at her! I don't know how I'm gonna get my required reading book now...I'll just ask my grandma one day when we're groceries shopping and maybe we can go to amazing fantasies book store, they sell manga there...Hm, well, I haven't heard from many of my friends lately, I hope they're okies. Sometimes I wonder if they ever think about me at all. I always wonder about how they're doing and then when I call they're usually not there, so after a while I just hope they're okies and leave them alone, I'm probably just annoying to them...oh well, ttyl (Have a Nice day ^-^) Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

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Monday, July 24, 2006

Instant crave

	I'm so sorry I didn't make it to everyone's site yesterday T-T I was supposed to go to the book store but my mom changed her mind and we went clothes shopping instead. I'll try to make it around today, okies? Today has barely started, but I'm starving! I'm so hungry. My stomach hurts like heck! (when I get hungry my stomach hurts and I have to eat something every thirty minutes or it just hurts (a snack)) and I want to go to the origional house of pancakes so bad!! I love going there. I get the same things all the time. I always have the most, though. I get french toast (I think 6 everytime) 6 pancakes, I always have freshly squeezed orange juice. I have 2 servings of scrambeled eggs, and I usually have another helping of french toast...Everytime we go there my grandma says that I'm gonna have a hard time finding a boyfriend cause he's not gonna wanna take me out to eat cause I eat so much (I have good manners, though) but at least I eat! Some girls don't eat healthily and in turn become Crowd: anorexic! That's right! They get an eating disease! They also say that one day I'm gonna be fat and over weight, but I'm perfectly fine! When I went to the doctor he said I weighed 136 (I weigh 130 now) and told me that I should keep doing what I'm doing and that it was just perfect for a 13 year year old. I don't know how I lost weight though, I always eat fattening foods,(I don't pay attention to caleries and what not) I've never been on a diet in my life! (I don't know how to diet) and there's no way I'm eating salads, I hate salads! So let's get off the topic of dieting and weight, I'm just hungry and wanna go to the origional house of pancakes...I wish my aunt was here, she'd take me. On a different note, I might be going to the book store today (I wish I did yesterday, evil woman) and I have to but my required reading book, but I always get a chance to buy manga when I go, ,so I was thinking about starting to read a new series, I already read Fruits basket, rurouni kenshin (only the 1st volume) Naruto, Ranma 1/2, Juvenile Orion, and DNAngel, and I've read love hina as well, yotsuba, angel sanctuary(only cause FMAKraze711 recomended it and it was something to do), and full moon wo sagashite. Do you guys have any suggestions for new manga series? One that has good art work, and a cool story line, (just no shonen ai, or yaoi ones, angel sanctuary I can cover, but I can't read those, my mom doesn't want me to) please don't be offended by this, I'm sorry, if you are, I'm so very sorry T-T please don't hate me for that T-T well, anyways, I'm watching the boondocks right now and I just realized how much Riley reminded me of my cousin Kshma (yes that's his name, his full name is Kshma Love, kinda strange huh?) I remember once he made us call him Kashmoney, it didn't last long, but he makes his neice and nephew calle him uncle Kash, but other than that, he's like an a more (slightly) mature Riley. I love the Boondocks, it's funny!! My brother hates it though, he says it's to steriotypical. He says it makes us look bad, but that doesn't stop it from being so funny! Well, thank you all for yesterday, you guys rock ^-^ Last but definetely not least: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BORED TEENAGER!!! OMG!! HAPPY B-DAY!! YES!! HAVE A GOOD ONE, OKIES? Well, ttyl, okies? like I said I'll try to make it to you guys sites today, okies? byeness ^-^ Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

This one's miracle


this one's bad boy



I put this one for boredteenager, I know ur names not lisa, but it's an awesome AMV(the simpsons rock!), I thought it was funny though, I was gonna put it on 4 sasuke's b-day yesterday,but it can be his belated b-day gift, lol, well, ttyl, okies? byeness ^-^
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Sunday, July 23, 2006

After 9 years

	Man, I typed this already then my computer screwed up, (actually aol did) so I'm gonna type this and make it brief cause the feeling's dead now. Okies, the other day my dad came and visited after 9 years. I was shocked cause i hadn't seen him in 9 years. My mom was mad and started shouting at him for being here but my grandma stopped the fight and I also met someone named shawn, guess what? Shawn's my 14 year old brother who looks just like me. Get this: he's adopted by my father from my uncle's (his twin's) wife's sister! We're not even blood related! He says that I look like his sister and cousin exactly. (my dad has a twin who has a daughter that looks like his daughter that looks like me) So it's the three of us. I haven't even met them though so I can't tell if he's just overreacting or not. Also, after I got to know shawn a bit we became best friends (I don't usually make friends like that, I'm usually a nervous wreck when I first meet someone) and we talked and I realized that in most ways Shawn and I we're just a like. We both prefer the same things (like foods) and we both hate the same things (fodds) We even seemed to have a familiar personality! It was creepy. We even finished each other sentences (7 times) and said the same thing at the same time! (5 times) The only thing that I found out he wasn't into that I dore'd, is anime, but I quickly changed that. I showed him Naruto and he loved it! He thought it was funny and cool! My dad was very sweet to me. He gave me a necklace that says angel and he cried and I cried and my brother's didn't though. I think they lost feelings for my dad, although, my lil brother only knew him when he was very young so, I can't blame him, but my older brother was being kinda distant, I gues he felt betrayed, but I think my mom betrayed us cause she wouldn't let us see my dad and married a guy we hate, so basically, I have a reason to hate both of my parents immensly, but I can't bring myself to tell my mom I hate her, and I never hated my dad. I don't know why. Everyone is telling me I should hate him, and that he deserted us, but I just couldn't, I still can't. My mom's husband was mad cause I never showed any love (not even close) toward him. That's the same reason my mom was mad. Cause I always tell her I hate her husband, but love my dad, a man she never married. I didn't care that they were mad, I was mad at her wedding but she didn't care, so why should I care? Also, before they left (I was crying) Shawn hugged me and told me they'd be there for our (me and my brother's) birthday's. I hope they are cause I don't think I'll ever see them other wise. My mom told me that I wasn't gonna see them again, but screw her, if she can be 'happy' with a man who smokes and drinks and comes from an island that disrespect women, than that's her own life, and I don't care what she does with it anymore. I can be happy knowing my dad and my other family members, right? It's not fair that she tried to replace my dad with someone I hate, I don't care if I barely knew him, I was a naive stupid child when I was 4, it wasn't my fault I grew attached to him and missed him when he left (disapeared or whatever) At least give me happiness for a day...she still hates him, though. I can't do anything about that, but I don't want to grow up and be like her. When I grow up, I wanna be independent, and not be told what to do. I wanna do what I want, when I want. I wanna work hard and be respected. I don't want to be laughed at by my own relatives cause I'm a slave to an insensable jerk. Well, I'm done being self centered. So, I'm gonna visit people's site later on today, okies you guys? I'm still waiting for that spasm thing to come (when i go to sleep and can't wake up after a while my body is supposed to do something like that, I think that's what sana said...so I hope I don't die and I hope you all have a nice day ^-^ Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

I know this is a sasusaku theme, but I couldn't help it! I love neji and this is one of my all time favorite songs ^-^ also this is in the list thing, but hey, it's still cool
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