Saturday, July 22, 2006

   Pshychotic?

	Okies, I was online (I just came back) and this one guy IMed me and it was the creepiest thing that ever happened to me, I'm so glad I wasn't being stupid, well if i got into detail, I would probably be reported so I'm not gonna say cause I don't want that to happen, anyways, tomorrow I have a really neat post, so read it ok? please read the post okies? Cause I'll be really sad if you don't, it's a very important post to me, it's about my REAL dad (not my mom's husband ^-^ my daddy who I haven't seen in 9 years. (and a brother that I had no idea I had) Also I might post it later though, so keep an eye out for it, okies? Well, here's the poem and I guess that's the post at the bottom, but it's about the poem, so this one I'd really appreciate it if you read it, mkay? It's gonna be the only one I ask you guys to actually take the time out and read, so yeah...well, if you don't want to just leave a comment and pretend that you did read it, okies? And I'll try and make it to you guys site today (I usually make it to everyone's right? If I don't please IM me and tell me so I can know)Now, here's the poem I wrote about 20 min. ago ^-^ My Wall --------- Hiding myself behind a stained glass wall look at the glass, Please don't see me at all Picture myself behind that stained glass wall smirking at pain and watching you fall I've placed myself Behind a stained glass wall someone called me a whore; said I was freakishly tall It's just myself Behind this stained glass wall Staring at you, your girlfriends and malls... I'm just a child, behind this crap piece of glass Scared you would see, If I tried to be me I'm just afraid Behind this beautiful wall Not trusting you, No one at all. Please break the glass, of this wonderful wall tear it to pieces and watch as I fall Watch as the shards, pierce through my skin but lucky for me, this can't happen again. ---------------------------------- This is what I usually write when I'm actually serious, soetimes I just scare myself with how deeply connected I get with my poetry. I forgot who, but someone said that I needed a pshychiatrist cause I was crazy or something. I remember, now. I was absent from school cause I was sick (I think) and I had wrote a poem for a poetry contest at school and I really liked that poem...but the teacher told me to change it. She said it needed a pattern (you know like AABA or ABAB) but I thought it was fine cause it flowed and had rythym, anyways, she read it out loud to my ADV. Language arts class and every liked it (according to FMA Kraze711) except a girl in my class named Kelley. who said that I needed mental help. I'm VERY self concious when it cmes to ppl reading things I write, but that just made me not want anyone to read my poetry anymore, but still, the whole class liked it, (or at least pretended to, but why would they if I wasn't there?) I like it when people like my peoms cause it means that they read it and don't think I'm psychotic ^-^ Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates.

I saw this and I wanted to cry...(I don't cry very easily) but I couldn't, It's a beautiful AMV, maybe my favorite one so far...
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Friday, July 21, 2006

   Hahaha
I'm back!! Yayness!! Mwuhahahaha!!! Well, now that I'm back I don't really have much to say....wanna know what I did all week? Well, if you said no, I'll tell you anyways, okies? Well, for starters I took care of my evil little cousins for 2 days (I was on the phone and I had to scream "Get off the stairs to get they're attention)and after that my room was destroyed (even more than it was, I didn't think that was possible) I wrote a chapter of Fanfiction, my internet connection went down, I'm glad I wasn't on then -_-;; I spoke to John on the phone and he recommended the Naruto game Ultimate ninja so I'm gonna get it (I've been wanting a Naruto game) I hope it doesn't suck....I mostly played Tales of Symphonia and Kingdom Hearts 2 all week...Oh, I started a proud mode file on KH2 ^-^ yay me ^-^ and I think that's what I've been doing all week...also, I'm opn my computer now (in my room) I restored the internet connection a few minutes ago ^-^) and they thought I was technically inept, lol, I did something my mom couldn't even do ^-^ (actually I just found a button that said restore internet connection, go figure?)

Oh, I just remembered my mom went to Florida and bought (I'm a BIG mickey fan) a Mickey plushie, muckey cup, Mickey pen, Mickey post it's (yeah, lol) and I forgot what else...oh well, I thought it was cool it was from Florida cause I live in chicago...but oh well...


I was looking everywhere for this song, I love it ^-^ well, ttyl

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Sunday, July 16, 2006

   Just a day...
I'm on for today but this means it's extended to friday, anyways, there's a bunch of stuff that happened that I'm trying to remember here goes:

My first trip to Navy Pier
This is indeed sad to admit...I've lived in Chicago my WHOLE life, (13 years) and I had never been to Navy Pier...thia is indeed tragic, but we went the other day and I don't think I ever want to go again!! (I might ^-^) but anyways, we went with my cousin and Jonathan (some kid my auntie know) we met at my auntie's house and she lives next door to my friend from my old school, I visited them until it was time to go and when we got there it was walk walk walk, and then we got a chance to go on the rides...thought it would be fun to travel the park with no parental supervision? WRONG!!! We went on one ride 2 times, then on the ferris wheel....the last thing(ride wise) we went on turned me away from Navy pier forever. We waited in line for almost an hour for something that wasn't even fun. During the line wait I kept imagining one of my friends all of a suddenly appearing at Navy pier and running over to me and invite me to eat something with them or something (I was EXTREMELY hungry at the time) but no...then when it was finally our turn I was to BORED, TIRED and HUNGRY to care that we were so many feet in the air walking along ropes and bars...(I'd usually be too scared to move) but then after the boring thing we went and ate at mc donalds...you think I would eat to my hearts content after being to hungry to be scared on a ride like that right?....DEATHLY WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! While odering the lady behind the counter kept YELLING at us like she had some sort of a #@!~ed attitude problem!! I was to hungry to put up with it so I finally lost it and I did something I wouldn't even imagine doing in my right state of mind...I B*%$#@ at the cashier....yes, I was screaming swears at her and told her to get me my order....I feel so bad...but hey, I was hungry...anyways, I wound up just getting a big mac a medium shake (which would have been a large but the cashier woman was just like "it'll cost more!" I know that already!!!! but if I want a LARGE shake I want a LARGE shake, you- *get's mouth covered to stop from screaming more profanity* okies, I'm fine...really....) anyways, I also had medium fries for the same reason....then after that(I was tired and hungry still) we went on a pleasant boat ride (seriously we did) and then went home, but I got a orange soda at the store there first (did I mention she didn't let me buy a sprite and a shake at the McDonalds?) anyways, that was my day at Navy Pier ^-^

My Unlcles Birthday
Okies, this is today, Earlier on today I called John...yes I finally called him, but it wasn't what I thought...I called him and we did the usually retard thing, nothing that different from when we're in school 'cept I couldn't hit him...well, I didn't shout at him like I said I would, we talked about anime and video games and random stupid crap...I have to admit (although I don't want to) that the only reason that I was mad was because I missed him...there I said it, anyways, I'm talking to him now (2nd time) and FMAKraze711 probably hates me now, lol. Anyways, I asked him about the breaking up with shelby thing, and he said she was crying and that she asked could they be friends yadda yadda, (unimoportant shouts and stuff over the phone) but I was mad about him breaking up with her, but now, hahahahaha!!! He SO got crushed!!! After he broke up with my friend shelby he asked out a girl on his soccer team and she said she just wanted to be his friend!! hahaha, loser, that's what he get's for dumping shelby! Anyways, I feel like he got what he deserved without me being there, we're friends once more and now I'm going to spend the rest of my day on the computer (a well deserved day) wait one more thing: This annoying kid Josh asked me to go to six flags with him and another friend, and I always turn them down cause they always ask at the wrong moments cause I'm usually tired...they need an answer by the 21st, but if I go it'll be my first time at six flags, but the problem is that I don't like him...I think of him as an acuiantance (sp?) only, cause he always says he likes the same stuff I do and them turns around and laughs at me when I get happy and ask him about it and stuff (I hate that, I hate being laughed at!! (unless I'm being funny)) so I really DON'T wanna go, but I feel bad for saying no to them all the time, but seriously, I don't wanna go and get laughed at just because I can't control myself! (I squeel and gasp all the time and I over react I guess, but I can't help it) i don't really know many people who like what I like, (instead of my friends) and it's just mean to get someone's hope's up and then laugh at them and then turn around and get pissed when they make fun of you ( I only make fun of him cause he laughs at me like that, but still, I know I'm wrong, but he is too)anyways, thanks for listening, sorry this is so long and I'm probably gonna be on tomorrow and continue to push back days, lol, well, off to visit sites (as much as possible) byeness ^-^


I have no idea what this sounds like and I've never heard this whole song b4 (no sound on my mom's computer ^-^; well, ttyl
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Thursday, July 13, 2006

same
I posted this three times, as of now, but I posted it late yesterday so I'm sneaking on to re post it, okies?

IMPORTANT NOTICE:
Okies, I just made a deal with my older bro, the first deal that's not beneficial to me *cries* listen up cause I'm only sayin it once, I won't be on the computer for a Week cause I made a deal with my bro for some ice cream (I know I'm an idiot, but he tricked me!! ) anyways I'll see you guys in a week....*cries*

There, you go, I guess greed took over, *cries* anyways, see you guys in a week...watch my brother finds this...well, see you guys, (I know I'm gonna get caught for writing this *cries*) Byeness


I like this song..
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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

The b-day
Well, FMAKraze711 and I had lots of fun, (sort of) We had pizza and ice cream cake yayness!! I met her cousin, he was funny ^-^ , we watched TV and played KH. When we played it, it stopped and she has to start all over again cause she doesn't have a memory card...I gave her 20 dollars for her b-day and I don't know what else she got...also at night we went and sat on the patio thingy when it was raining, now my hairs poofy (not as much as it was when i went to indianna) anyways, we went to sleep at 5 something and that's when her mom and step dad, John, woke up. I slept until she woke me up at around maybe 3 or so, and they had gone to work and back and she woke up at around 12 noon!! I called my mom a few minutes after I woke up and then came home, but the funnest part was when we stayed up and talked about stupid stuff, it was like we were high, lol, but we had fun nonetheless, and now I'm back home. I found out that my lil bro was miserable without me. My mom and older brother said that he was saying stuff like if I was there they'd be having fun, and a bunch of other stuff, oh well, it just shows how much they need me ^-^ Well, I might not go to any sites today, I'm tired cause they only woke me up about an hour ago and then drove me home and car rides make me sleepy (they always do) although I'm not going to sleep cause they might forget I'm in my room O_O anyways, see ya guys later ^-^




I like these vids and they came up when zi was at her house so I leave them here, lol

IMPORTANT NOTICE:
Okies, I just made a deal with my older bro, the first deal that's not beneficial to me *cries* listen up cause I'm only sayin it once, I won't be on the computer for a Week cause I made a deal with my bro for some ice cream (I know I'm an idiot, but he tricked me!! ) anyways I'll see you guys in a week....*cries*
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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

   I love this song!!!!!

This is probably my favorite AMV now, lol,

Note: Scroll down to the post, okies? This was just spur of moment. Well, ttyl
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   How'd he do it?
OMG! A friend of mine from a long while ago, (same one that wants to come over) found my quizilla site O_O I have no idea how it happened, or how he found it. My big bro told me to stop talking to him cuz he thinks he's a stalker, I'm starting to as well, it freaked me out, I know I always say yayness, byeness, and okies, (I don't know if there are others) but that doesn't give me away completely, right? Right? It was the creepiest thing, too, cuz then he said he liked my poems and his friend loves them, then I wondered how long he knew it was my account, That freaked me out big time, also I did not go to buy my books yesterday cause when they got back (my mom and grandma) my grandma was tired and didn't feel like driving, so I'm going later today ^-^ Also today is FMAKraze711's b-day!! yayness!! I went to see PotC2 with her the other day, and today I'm soending the night at her house ^-^ I guess you guys already know she's one of my best friends, lol, anyways, There was something else I wanted to say, but I don't remember...anyways, I was playing ToS (Tales of Symphonia) with my older brother earlier and we finally made it to level 100....guess what? You can go beyond there...It was shocking, but I wonder what the max level is...It'd better not be 999 cause that's to time consuming, who wants to make it to level 999 when there's no point? Oh well, I dubbed yesterday ToS day anyway. Also, I've decided I'll do a fanfiction with the couples Naruto x HInata, and Sasuke x Sakura cause those were the two couples suggested. Thanks you guys ^-^


Aw...poor baby...


hahaha, first time I ever posted a naruhina amv, oh yeah, lol,


hahaha, bet you weren't expectin the same song fo rboth couples, lol, well those r the couples in my future story, well see you guys ^-^
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Monday, July 10, 2006

maybe too much
Okies, today my older brother went to get his pictures taken (he's gonna be in his last year of high school when school resumes)and my mom left me in charge of my lil bro and my nephew...they r bad! When I actually got out of bed (a few minutes ago cause she woke me up b4 she left) My lil bro had the volume of the tv up to the max and you could hear the KH2 song sanctuary all around my house, I really didn't mind it, but i came in and i didn't even have to say anything, all i did was point my finger to the tv and the pointr downward, and he turned it off. I went back into my room and laid down and waited for them to do something.The phone rang and it was my step sister telling me she was gonna pick up my nephew in an hour (he's been at our house everyday since she moved out it's like he still lives with us) well, I won't be able to make it to everyones site today cause i have to buy my summer reading books (and possibly a new manga) see ya!
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Sunday, July 9, 2006

   Poems I wrote early this morning
I'm always on til like, 5 or 4 in the morning, so I had already posted what I wanted to say, but after I got off I wrote some poems, but I didn't put them up yesterday so here they are, and if you don't feel like reading them scroll down to where it says post, okies?Thankies ^-^
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Just thinking of You
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Memories of you
They hold me back
Thinking of you
Takes me way off track
Here in this house
I'm missing you
Just wondering if you're still alive...
Hearing your voice...
It makes me glad
and seeing you laugh
leaves me far from sad
You beeing away
I can't help but sigh
Knowing I'd wait forever,
Even if I cried..
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Take a guess
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Could I love you?
I don't know,
You faded like the melting snow

Could I hate you?
I might think so,
You left me with pain and woe..

Would I love you?
maybe yes
you made me smile; called me the best ^-^

Would I hate you?
take a guess,
you put my feelings to the test.

Could you love me?
Honestly,
you took away my heart to flee

Could you hate me?
That's how it seems
Haunting me in all my dreams

Would you love me?
Likely story,
been some years, I've grown, so sorry

Would you hate me?
maybe now,
You'd probably wanna ask me: how?

How?
Could I love you?
I don't know
Could I hate you?
I might think so
Would I love you?
maybe yes
Would I hate you?
Just take a guess
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Okies, thanks if you read the poems, I appreciate it, Tell me what you think of them okies?
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Post
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Well, today for sure I'm going with FMAKraze to see PotC2 cause she called me yesterday and said she's picking me up at around 11 or 11:30 later today. I know I should get some sleep, but I don't want to, cause I completely screwed up my sleep pattern, now, I can't wake up *cries* I go to sleep at around 5 or 4 ish, cause I'm usually on the computer and then when I fall asleep I can't open my eyes! Yesterday morning I was so scared I couldn't wake up, it scared me so much! I thought I opened my eyes, but I couldn't I didn't even have a dream! My brother woke me up to say bye, and that they were leaving to go to the barbershop, I was so grateful! Phew, now i'm afraid of going to bed at the wrong time, i think I really need to go see a doctor now, but I hate the doctors office, it's always crowded and boring...also, I'm thinking of writing a naruto fanfiction, and I wanna ask you guys which pairing you think I should do, Sasuke x Sakura, or something else but I don't like Sasuke x Naruto pairing, I really don't like that pairng, cause Nauto and Hinata go together just fine, and sasuke and sakura...well...they're them, lol, anyways, please give a suggestion on what you think I should do, and also (if you read them) tell me what you think of my poems ^-^ if you wanna comment on my sleep problem, go ahead, (or anything else I mentioned) well, I don't think I'll be able to comment on everyones site today, though, okies? Well, ttyl,



When I was a kid, i used to love this movie, I still love the old disney movies, I'm a child at heart, lol
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Saturday, July 8, 2006

   Welcome back Desert Wolf
Well, today my bro's are going to the barbershop all the way in the city, and they're gonna leave lil' ol me all alone, in the house, hehehehehehe, Not that I have anything to do *sigh* I'll probably just wind up being on the computer all day, or playing one of my favorite games, it's more than likely gonna be KH2 cause ToS is no fun by yourself...I might wind up going to the movies with FMAKraze711, idk if that's today or what, I don't even know if I'm still invited or not, either way, I still have to ask my mom if I can go. If I do I will see Pirates Of the Carribean 2, She's like, obsessed with that one guy who's name I can't think of right now...the guy who plays Jack. Although, I feel bad seeing it though, Here's the thing, I only saw the 1st one once and it was my friends sleep over party. The bad thing about this is that my mom has owned that DVD since forever and I never watched it...anyways, I wanna say welcome back to Desert Wolf ^-^ I'm so happy, I'm squeeling, again, lol, well, I really just wrote randome junk, so I have nothing more to say except that I really should be sleeping, it's 3:07 a.m. where I live, lol, Oh well, I'm going to go read fanfiction, and maybe work on my own...byeness ^-^



I have so many bad memories of this song it's not even funny, but I heard it all the time growing up, my mom was obsessed with it!! I was always with my grandma cause I didn't want to hear it, but I still remember it perfectly, It's gonna haunt me forever. The only good memory I have of this song was that it's the last song I heard before my mom introduced us to her fiance (her current husband) whom I despise, and my life was ruined (or changed, whatever you want to call it) Sorry 'bout ranting...well, have a nice day^-^

Complete Randomness:(you can skip this if you want, I'm putting this up to build my self sonfidence)
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Scorpio (astrology), the eighth sign of the zodiac, symbolized by a scorpion. According to astrologers, people whose birthdays fall between October 23 and November 21 are born under the sun sign of Scorpio. The planet Pluto rules Scorpio, which is a water sign.

Astrologers consider Scorpios to be energetic, passionate, deep, intuitive, and secretive, with a great deal of self-control. They also believe that Scorpios can be willful, stubborn, and easily made jealous. Scorpios are thought to be keen observers of people, and potentially calculating and manipulative. Seeing more of people's deepest motivations than others do, they have a tendency to be cynical. They are sensitive and never forget a hurt or a slight—for the typical Scorpio, forgiveness can be difficult.

Astrologers consider Scorpio perhaps the most extreme of all signs. The intensity and focus of Scorpios gives them great ability to see a project through despite all obstacles. Their strong leadership qualities, incisive analytic abilities, energy, and desire for financial security can make them motivated career people. Many Scorpios also like to flirt with danger and push themselves and those close to them to their limits. Professions traditionally associated with Scorpio include forensics, law enforcement or detective work, the military, medicine, psychology, big business, and recycling.
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We are SO awesomeness, lol ^-^
On another random note, some of my friends say that I'd be an awesome pshychologist, but I doubt that, I'm more interested In being a detective than anything ^-^ I get to impatient with stuff to be a pshycologist anyway ^-^
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Well, I'll try and visit some sites later on today, but more than likely I'll be bribing my lil bro into posting something, lol, I'd probably wind up tricking him like I do with my older brother (being in the middle is difficult, you have to learn your way around stuff, lol) Oh well, I'm just smart enough to trick the only valedictorian in my family, I'm so proud, lol, anyways, I'll see you guys.

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