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Well, I'm leaving for Millwaukee later on today, I finished packing a few hours ago, I'm mad at my grandma now. She ironed my brothers (older and younger) and my little cousins clothes and then she tells me to iron my own? I felt so wronged. I know she uaually irons and washes our clothes, and I do on occaision, but she didn't have to bring in all their clothes and then say "you can go and iron your clothes now, Maisha" I was like, 'What did she say?' at fist I thought she meant that I could come get my clothes, but then she said that we'd better hurry or she'll wake up and leave us here. That made me kind of sad, I didn't want to go, and she was threatening to leave me here. I just said nothing and ironed my own clothes. Then she did something that made me feel worse. She packed their clothes and told me to pack mine. I was in shock. I got out my blue bag and packed my own clothes. Then she says to pack for 5 days, 4 nights. Once again, utter shock. I thought it was a two day trip like it usually was, but I'm gonna be in milwaukee for a school week after today. I hate milwaukee so much, and I though I was doing something nice by deciding to go to make her happy, and she makes me do everything on my own while doing my brothers things for them? That was just plain unfair. I know I'm capable of doing things on my own, but so are they. My little brother is so spoiled, and my older brother is so, well, he never does anything wrong. I'm the middle child and I'm the only girl, although I'm kind of a tomboy, lol, but still, she could've at least told me that I'd have to pack on my own, or made my brothers pack their own. Oh well, I can't change what happened, and now I'm gonna be in Milwaukee for 5 days, did I mention I that I HATE Milwaukee? It's gonna be seriously boring, at least we get to bring the game cube, and at least I can enjoy the car drive, I like riding in the cars, It makes me fall asleep, although, I'd rather be going to Oklahoma (I was looking forward to that drive) anyways, I have all the needs packed, but I need entertainment, I'm gonna get bored. Those slut (excuse my language) cousins of mine are gonna be very annoying. They're gonna do what they always do, steal, lie, and make noises and ruin the rap songs I like by dancing to them. I remember last year I went and we went to the corner store and I was paying for my pop and the guy next to me gave me a bunch of change and he said somethig so very disturbing to me, but in his own way I guess he was being kind, when he handed me the change he said "You're gonna be so hot when you get older.." and left. I was dumbfounded. The guy was at least in his mid 30's and I was 12 or 11 at the time. It freaked me out, I was horrified beyond words. I quickly payed for my stuff and ran out of the store with my cousins constantly begging me to buy her something cause (sry for up coming profanity, but I can't help this, it's the only way I know how to explain it) her poor ass, just spent all her God damn money on some God damn gym shoes and had attempted to fucking steal from me in my own damn house, and then blamed my uncle for it, that God damned mother fucking-
Sasuke: I think you've said enough, I never thought you'd get this upset.
Me:Ask me for money, I'll lend it to you and expect you to pay me the amount back later, (If I'm in a good mood, without interest) Steal my money from me, I'll let you go grudgingly, steal my money, lie about it, AND blame my uncle and pretend that I'm a stupid child with no common sence? You'd best pray for a miracle to happen cause I'm gonna beat you for sure and I'll even through in a bonus: make you suffer in ways you never believed to be possible. After she took my money, I litterally snapped cause she kept lying! I knew she was lying, I can read ppl like a book when they lie, usually I don't say anything cause I'm usually easy to get a long with unless you prove to me a reason that I should hate you, and I hate her cause she was lying to me and talking to me like I was a naive little child. I knew that I was much smarter than her considering her speach and the way she responded when I said things to my brother. (we're sorta like geeks cause we laugh at somethings we learn and turn it into brain twisters and make it funny, but I don't think we're geeks) Anyways, she was in 8th grade I was in 6th and I was visibly 10 times smarter than her! I hate her and I always will, I don't give a care what she says, I'll never ever giver her money or buy anything for her again! This is exacltly WHY I hate going! (also, no computer or form of entertainment whatsoever, also, the constant ppl running in and out the house! All my cousins down there walk around like whores! They expect me to wear revealing clothes as well, but there's no way I'm wearing something like that after last time (but I was only wearing some shorts and a short sleaved shirt, not revealing at all, but he still said it so it's best to be safe) I didn't even pack a pair of shorts this time! I packed mostly jeans and one pair of capri's, so ha! Also, a jean dress cause I knew it was gonna get hot there, but I hate that dress, so I packed something else just in case it wasn't gonna be that hot there. I packed for my complete safety, I'd hate to experience that again, it was so disturbing. I hate going to Milwaukee...It always makes me angry and tense, not happy or excited, but ready to choke someone, and trust me, I'm usually not one for violence or causing trouble but every time I go there I'm always pissed off, but I'm still going and I'm gonna pretend to have fun for my grandma, she just had her 70th b-day and I want to make sure that every time she does something for us I'll try my best to appreciate it, I'm trying not to spoil this trip by getting into something with my cousin cause I know she's gonna be there. I'm tryin to calm myself down, but I just wish my aunt was going, she'd probably find a way to lessen the tension between me and my cousin, my grandma did say I acted just like my aunt though, so I might be able to sove it myself, I'll just ignore her, but since I hate being ignored, that's kind of hard to do to other people, maybe I won't ignore her, maybe I'll just tell her to leave me the hell alone, but not so harshly. Oh forget it, no matter what I say she's gonna act like a bitch and try and act all supperior. I hate ppl who think they're supperior, I'm one of those people with an inferiority complex, I guess that's why I'm acting like this. Someone who I (and I hate to say this) believe to be stupid, thinks that they can just tell me what to do just cause she thinks she's older and more mature, but let me tell you something, when you're mature it doesn't just mean physically, it means mentally as well. I don't thinks it's fair to judge me as immature just because I'm not as 'developed' as her, it doesn't work like that. If she could just shut up and TRY to act like she had common sense then maybe I could try and reason with her but she's to stuck up on herself to listen to me, and besides, I don't need to look/act like a whore to know that I'm way prettier than her anyways, man, my family is so judgemental, I hate it! They think just cause I like video games and reading books and watching TV that I'm hopeless and I'll never be able to get a boyfriend (I'm 13 and most girls in my family had a boyfriend by my age) but I don't want one now cause I know it wouldn't last, I'm not a whore like everyone wants me to be, I'm not into celebraties at all, like they want me to be, and I'm not gonna act like that cause I have to much pride to lower myself to that level, I don't wanna be like the rest of my family I hate it! It's not fair that I have to be the only one who's left out of conversations cause all they want to talk about is boys and other things, I don't want that, cause I'm not like that at all! I hadn't expeted this post to turn into one of my emotional rantings, but I didn't write in my journal so this is where I'm putting it, I don't care anymore, I'm sry you guys, this post was way outta line, but I couldn't help myself, please forgive me for not coming to visit everyone's site yesterday, and I hope you all have a nicer week than I'm gonna have, I'm gonna leave b4 I snap and cry this time, ttyl, okies? Take care.
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Why I hate Milwaukee