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My body hates me T-T yesterday I was eating and I threw up, I thought it was just an upset stomach, but after I finished and waited a few hours later, I tried eating again, and I threw up. I didn't eat at all yesterday, and I don't think I'm sick, cause I don't have a fever of anything, my stomach hurts so bad (I usually have to eat something every 30min. or it hurts really bad) but I'm afraid if I eat I might throw up again. I didn't do anything wrong to my body, I even at some bananas and some yogurt for a snack, but I couldn't eat my dinner, T-T I have so many problems...
Ack, stupid last minute descions. Man, I just reread my FMA story and I realized something. It's a sucky story (I was spell checking it, too)T-T but haha, I always (somewhat) have a back up plan ^-^ I got an idea from a Naruto story I just wrote, lol, 'cept it's completely different ^-^ It'll only be one chapter cause I had a dream about it and I know what's gonna happen (weird, I know) but the thing is, after taking all those weeks writing the other one, and just a day to write this one really makes me feel like I wasted my time writing the first one that took me a while T-T but I hope that this one is a better one...I really hope so...
Anyways, haha, this part is about what happened yesterday when I got off the computer, my mom came in and told me my room had better be cleaned by today and I, again, asked her why. She said this time that I was the only little girl and that I should be more girly like. I hate being girly like. I grew up with my brothers and mostly my guy cousins, so how can you possibly expect me to be all girly-girl? I wrestle with my cousins when they come over, although they're older and always flip me, and we always play video games, and well..you get the picture. Anyways, my mom did the usual : "I used to be the same way too" I hate it when she says that. I asked my grandma about it once and she said that my mom was one of those girls who played jump rope all day long and had lots of dolls and whatnot. The only thing my mom and I had in common at my age was probably the apologizing thing, where I always feel the need to apologize if I did something (no matter how small) wrong, and I usually almost always have a feeling to apologize. Other than this, my grandma says that I'm not really like my mom, more so like my dad who didn't like hugs (I could really do without them) and he wasn't really that social with people, I'm only social if I have to be, like at school with friends, although sometimes, I could do without talking to people all the time, I like being left to think on my own when I have problems, but my mom insists that one day out of the blue, I'm gonna up and decide to be a giirly girl, 'just like she did' and she and her friend are going as far as to ask me a bunch of questions that I think are so stupid, like what color nail polish do I like. I stopped wearing nail polish when I was eight cause my grandma stopped putting it on my nails for church, even then I wore pink because people tell me that I look good in pink, also because my cousin Derek used to call me Pinky cause I was a pink baby, lol. Anywyas, being girly-girl, isn't my thing. I may own some things that are girly, and I may even act girly at some times, but there's no way I'll grow up one day and decide to go outside and play jump rope, over staying inside and playing video games. That ain't gonna happen, trust me, and there's no way I'd willingly put on make up and flirt with guys, lmao, I'd never, wear make-up, probably lip gloss, but nothing like eye-liner or blush or whatever else there is, and besides, at my old school, I always made guy friends easier than I did when I was trying to be friends with girls. They were mean and judgemental, and they didn't like me to much in the beginning, but then they tried to be my friend cause I was friends with the guy they liked, they were just bad people, some of them, and at this school, well, at my current school, I guess I kind of changed, cause it's kind of different the way things run, and besides, that was elementary school, this is middle school. Welp, I gotta get to typing or else I'll be disqualified, I'd like it if I could finish in about three hours, but my naruto fanfiction is fairing better than most of my others, lol, so maybe it was a good idea, but my writing abilities suck, lmao, If I had to write down the many things I suck at doing then It'd be a pretty long list, lol, also, I hope I made it to eveyone's site yesterday, I was on late trying to visit you guys, my eyes hurt and I was sleepy, I went to sleep feeling crazy, (that's probably why I had that kind of dream) Although, I was talking to a friend of mine, she IMed me and I'm like "what is she doing on so late at night?" It was freaking 11:30 something, who IM's ppl at 11:30? Oh well, I might make it to you guys site today, I might not, I promised Soul Alchemist that I'd turn in a story, and that's what I'm gonna do, I can't go back on my word, I have pride you know. Also, do you guys think I over do it with the AMV's? Tell me cause I can stick to only putting on one AMV or none at all, okies? Well, ttyl, byeness ^-^
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