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Birthday • 1992-11-15 Gender •
Female Location • I live in my own world! Member Since • 2006-05-13 Occupation • I'm still a student unfortunately.... Real Name • Call me Dee or Shinn, Whichever you prefer
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Achievements • hm, I think of it as a bad thing, but I've learned to trust poeple more Anime Fan Since • 4ever!(actually ever since I was around four or five.) In my opinion though I haven't seen many different anime. My little bro says I'm an anime freak but I have a short memory span Favorite Anime • Inuyasha, .hack//sign, full metal alchemist, and more (can't choose just one!)nor can I remember them all.... Goals • I want a mansion and to become a Psychologist Hobbies • watching anime, reading manga, drawing, writing, reading regular books and a lot of other things Talents • I sing...sometimes......when i'm by myself...
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Tuesday, August 8, 2006
confusing....or is it just me?
I have some semi important news today, I guess, okies? I won't be able to comment today though T-T and I know you guys are getting tired of hearing this and you're mad at me cause I don't come around anymore, but I assure you that I'll be back up and commenting soon, just not now, okies? So please forgive me...
One of the reasons that I won't be commenting today is that yesterday we went clothes shoppping again and we bought a lot of clothes, then my grandma got mad saying that we got all these nice clothes and they're gonna wind up being tossed around like our other clothes instead of in our closets where they're supposed to be. All of our closets out jammed packed with things that are and are not clothes. It's not my fault that my closets dirty either. My grandma has so many clothes that they wind up in our closets and when we moved here we had so much stuff and no space cause my mom's husbands daughter was living in our basement, so we stuffed some bags into our closets and so now there's a bag of old toys that I don't even play with in there, there's a broken printer in there, there's some stuff that don't belong to me in there. there's some empty boxes all jammed up in there, and then there's my clothes that ar barely hung up cause my grandma puts all her crap on my hangers and I wind up with none so I fold them up and pray for the best...it's a drag really, but I'm looking forward to a clean closet. I hope she know that this means that we're gonna have to move a lot of her stuff and get rid of some old stuff. I just don't see why they had to just store old stuff in our closets like that in the first place! They never even considered that we'd need space for our own clothes. Why do adults have to be so stupid? My room itself would be a whole lot cleaner if i got rid of the closet mess that seems to effect my whole room. Basically, later today I'll be cleaning my house and I won't have time to be on the computer, although, you never know, I might just decide to leave it on and listen to some AMV's cause I barely own any CD's of my own to listen to, lol. Anyway, let's look at something positive ^-^ yesterday when we were shopping I bought an awesome new book bag (back pack, w/e) for the hell whole (school) but I lost my supply list and I don't know what I need....oh well, I guess I might have to wing it, heh heh...My grandma FINALLY bought me a boy huddy. I begged her in the store and she said yes! I got one that was the same as my brothers but different color. Everything else I got though was girl stuff. I got some jeans (I don't know what brand..)and some south pole shirts and I got some dress pants and a dress shirt. They're decent. My aunt went with us, so I didn't have to choose everything on my own (my aunt calls me a square cause I don't like to pick my own clothes out) I don't actually care what I'm wearing. So long as it's not insulting or extremely stupid to me, (or makes me look like a slut) I also bought some shoes....that weren't gym shoes (sneaker, w/e) I actually like them though, they're awesomeness ^-^ I can't wait to wear them out. That's the way I am with clothes..I like to see how long they last b4 they get to small, lol, although I think I've stopped growing, I'm 5 feet 8 inches and I'm 13, lol. People say I'm pretty tall, but I never thought so, I usually feel like I'm being looked down upon. Poeple tell me that's more emotional than Physical, but I don't feel like people look down on me like that, if anything, I hold myself up to high in the presence of people I know, it's a bad habit of mine to come out of the blue and say something like "I am awesomeness!" when I'm hanging around my friends, but I'm usually joking, but when I'm with them, I do seem much more confident than what I feel inside. It's strange. Hm, you guys know what? When I come back I'll comment on everyones posts and I'm gonna leave a special one that's more of a me being weird, lol. I apologize to you all for being an idiot, and anything else that I've ever said that was out of line and mean. I apologize if I ever offended you guys in any way. I don't want you guys to think of me as rude or anything, and I apologize for everything, okies? lol, now I'm really being weird, sry. Here're some AMV's at the bottom, and a poem as well. I might be writing more of those now cause I have a really bad feeling that sonething bad's gonna happen...hm, maybe that's where I should draw the line at completely being weird, lol, to put it simply (and I hate saying this) I'm feeling depressed and I don't know why and it's making me even more depressed. I think I'm doing this to myself though, so don't worry about it. Well, ttyl, and take care, okies? Byeness
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This poem I wrote and I think I had a fever...yeah...I usually write poems when I have a fever, it's odd....I don't like the poem much though, I liked yesterday's better (both of them were written on the same day)
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How Can I?
How can I smile, when I know that you’re suffering?
How can I smile, when you were right there for me?
How can I smile when I know that you need me?
How can I smile, when I know how your heart breaks?
It’s simply because, I’m frozen inside.
How can I frown, when I knew that you loved me?
How can I frown, when I heard you got your first date?
How can I frown, when I knew you were happy?
How can I frown, when you were right here for me?
It’s simply because, I’m frozen inside,
Please take me home, I’m trying to cry.
How can I laugh, when I knew you had surgery?
How can I laugh, when I knew that you needed me?
How can I laugh, when I heard that you had cried?
How can I laugh, when you’re glaring at me?
It’s simply because, I’m frozen inside,
Please take me home, I’m trying to cry,
Please don’t ask why, I’ll just tell you lies...
How can I say, that I needed your help?
How can I say, I’m losing my mind?
How can I say, I just want your hand?
How can I say, I want you to see; be right here with me?
How can I say, I knew that you loved her?
How can I say, I’m frozen inside?
How can I say, I was trying to cry?
How can I say, I lied all this time?
How can I say, that I needed you so?
How can I prove, that I want your attention?
How can I prove, I want all eyes on me?
What can I say?
I know I am greedy.
What can I do?
I just wanted you.
How can I smile?
When I know you don’t love me anymore...
I don't know what's come over me, I usually hate songs like this, but they're familiar. my mom used to listen to stuff like this...I guess I'm just thinking of pieces of my childhood lately...i don't know what's wrong with me...
haha, after watching anastasia I found and AMV with that one song that's in the credits, lol, I LOVE this song and the pairing NejiTen!! You know, that might be my next theme...
omg, I love this, it's hilarious, Lee looks drunk, lmao.
I like the origional version of this song better, but hey, this works, too....
I think this is enough, lol, there's too much going on at one time, sry, lol, Well, I gotta get off the computer soon, but I might be on l8er and I might sneak some visits, lol, I don't know, it all depends on how quickly I finish cleaning my room and closet, it might not take as long as I'm guessing..(that would be until at least 12:03 tomorrow morning, lmao) who knows, we could finish at around 6 or so...well, ttyl, and take care, okies? byeness, lol (I know i said this already, but it's become a habit)
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confusing....or is it just me?