Thursday, January 27, 2005

Funny occurences
I always seem to find something to laugh at or something simply funny to me. I had come back from the counselor’s office and was a little late to BCIS 3rd period. When I walked in the room, my assigned computer spot was taken by someone who gave their seat to a new student and just thought I was absent. I told him it was alright and found another place so he could be by two good friends of his. He thanked me with a sequence of repeating hand maneuvers (may have been 'thank you' in sign, but I wouldn't know!), a charming smile, and several nods of gratefulness.

I’ve been doing something different lately when talking to others, whom I don’t really know. At first I was calling it an improvement from what I used to do, but now I’m not so sure. I used to hardly look others (strangers especially) in the eye when talking to them. It used to be a bit nerve racking to me. Then I made it my goal to make sure I had good eye contact when talking to other people, that is actually look at the person. Now I do it without even thinking about it, so it’s become quite natural. But I kind of think I may be over doing it a little. I say this because during the first week back from winter break I had a new class added to my schedule. And with that I was trying to be as friendly as possible because usually I don’t say much or just don’t have anything to say (around people I’m not at all familiar with) and I guess most people take quietness as unfriendliness. I did not want to come off that way. So I made sure that I said something, even if it was just a reply to what another said and looked at whoever was talking to me however , that’s where the trouble came. With all my good eye contact, I think I was scaring the poor thing. Intimidating him even! I felt so bad at the thought of that because I don’t wish to scare others away. But I’m glad I’m doing a little better now.

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