Monday, February 27, 2006

  Hey everybody. How's it going?

I went on a bit of a drawing-spree this weekend, particularly yesterday. I drew from about 2:00 'till 6:00, but had to stop to study a while.

I did 2 pics I really like, one of which I even submitted yesterday right after I drew it.
If you'd like to see it, here's a quick link: Click here.
It's another ghost that's fairly 'Silent Hill' inspired.
True, it's dark, but I've been hearing that criticism from my mom so much I honestly don't care anymore.
Votes & comments are greatly appreciated, but not necessary if you're not in the mood.

I'll post the other pic I did yesterday pretty soon. I really like how it came out.
It's another Ghost-pic, and it may very well be the first ghost I've drawn that I'll put in color rather then the stylish B&W.

In other news, I've got several things that are chapping my ass pretty badly right now.
If you're one of the few people that actually cares to hear me bitch & moan, please read-on:

Firstly, I've gotta' study my brains out for a Civics test tomorrow. @_@
Though, Mr. Dickerson was nice enough to split the test in half, putting the second half on Thursday rather then giving it all tomorrow, so I guess that's a plus.
The test tomorrow will be a standard test on the most recent chapter we've been studying (which is pretty massive, by the way X_x).
The part moved to Thursday is a special test on a long list of Supreme Court cases. We have to remember the names, the circumstances and the amendments/laws involved in each case, and it's a bitch to learn.
On top of that, in English class we have a massive Essay-test coming up in the 7th of March that all sophomores in North Carolina have to take.
And guess how much it weighs-for....
25% of my yearly grade.
Are you fucking kidding!?
Final exams only cost us 20% of our grade!
Jeesh, that's the school system for you: Screwing you over more efficiently then anyone else!

Secondly, remember Kylee?
Yeah, well, she's feeling a lot better now, so thanks to all of you who prayed for her.

So, why am I miffed at that?
Well, it's a bit complicated...
Back when I first saw her gallery, I was deeply impressed. So impressed that I thought to myself, "you know, this girl is so good that I need to send her an in-depth artistic review telling her how amazing she is". Kylee is the only artist I've been so impressed with that I thought of doing that, minus another wildly-creative artist who goes by "Endling".
Anyway, by the time I was ready to type-up that long, in-depth review, Kylee was feeling pretty down.
So, I sent her a message asking if she wanted me to pray for her, as well as give her that in-depth review I was planning (she had been feeling down about her artwork as well, so she said she "could use the pick-me-up".
Well, I sent her that art review.
You know how long it was?
7 pages. That's right, 7 pages. It took me a whapping 2 nights to type (both of which I could have spent drawing). And keep in mind that aside from "sometimes your scans look a little smeared", these were basically 7 pages of positive praise. She deserved it all, it was just a pain in the butt to type.

So anyway, it would have been cool to get a response from her. Ya' know, after a 7-page message of praise and support.
I know that may sound selfish, but it's cool to know that intelligent praise is appreciated.
Kylee did put a very, VERY general "thank-you" on her journal entry today that said she was better, but something a bit more personal would have been nice.
Though, that's kind of a selfish thought.
Kylee has a freakin' massive fan-base that rushed to her aid in her time of need, many of which were people she had known for a good long time.
I may have put a fair amount of effort into assuring her how talented she was, but I was still just one out of what are probably hundreds that did so.

Thirdly and my least favorite of what I'm dealing with right now, things are still going to absolute shit on The Otaku.

Some of you are getting pretty miffed at me for not being more specific with these 'issues' on The Otaku, and that's understandable, but let me ask you this: Did you ever think there might be a reason I'm not being more open about it?

I wouldn't put you in question without a good reason. And trust me, I have a damn good reason.

Things just seriously suck here, and they've been getting exponentially crappier every day.
People disrespect me, diss me, and turn-coat on the person they really are.
People I respected are turning out to be a major part of some of the biggest problems on here; problems that are hurting me.

Another reason I've been less then open is because blowing the lid off the issue may just signify me leaving The Otaku for good.
You remember how Josh used to have a site here as "phantomlord882"? Well, the issue I'm talking about is why he left.
Then you may remember he gave The Otaku a second chance and started a new account as "Drunken Master" in June of this passing year? Well, the same problem came back, and stronger then it was before. Josh was so repulsed he left The Otaku again, and probably will never come back.

Plus, if you guys knew this issue, most of you would probably hate me.
I'm not willing to put my values aside for the sake of friendship, especially not for some people I met over the net.
I'm really questioning if it's even worth it to be a part of the community.

Oh, and those of you who actually care about what I'm going through, don't worry, I'm sure you'll find out soon.
You won't like it, that's for sure, but you'll find out soon.

Well, I'm off to work off some of this crippling frustration.
See you when I get back.

-AD898 (^)>_<(^)
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