Sunday, April 2, 2006

  Hey everybody.

Well, it's good to see that after a lengthy Spring Break of nobody being on The Otaku, it's good to see people are finally coming back.
Of course, I go back to school tomorrow, and according to my teachers, it's going to be Hell.

I submitted a new piece of artwork on Thursday.
I honestly think it may be some of the best work I've ever done. Thus, I would really, really appreciate your comments on it.
I'd really enjoy some in-depth, specific commentary on this piece, since I worked so hard on it and it came out so well. So, please be specific and artistically-minded when you review this piece.
In exchange, please feel free in taking your time on actually getting to comment on this piece. I'd rather wait a week for a good, in-depth comment then get a bunch of hollow praise today. So, feel free to put it off for a bit if you don't have time for a heavy artistic review at the moment.

In other news, things are totally going to crap for me.

I stayed up 'till 4 last night, talking to Josh (since I haven't seen the guy in over a month).
That in itself wasn't a bad thing (it was pretty fun, actually), but in the process, I found out something about Josh that I really, really didn't like.
Josh was one of the few people, probably the only person, that I thought was completely and totally respectable. So, finding this out has more the shaken my foundation a little.
I honestly thought he was above stuff like that, but just like most everybody I've met on The Otaku, I judged him wrong.

My parents....well, my mom, has taken this crappy Safe-Eyes blocking-program a step further.
My mom bought the full-version, so now rather then cutting-off the internet at a certain time of night, it now times how long I've been on and cuts-off after 2 to 4 hours of usage.

Let's get something straight: I don't use the computer for IM, messaging, chatting, porno, piracy, gaming, or anything remotely mindless in nature.
I use it for artwork, and I use it for my Prayer Group.

Tell me then: What other use for the computer would warrant me not having to be timed as I surfed?
Am I not using the computer in the most positive way possible?
What could be a better use that would warrant me not having to worry about weather I accidentally left an internet page up or not?

Even worse, my mom's kinda' acting like a disgruntled Prison Warden about it.
Get this:
Safe-Eyes, being a retarded Blocking-Program, will randomly block pages that are OK.
My mom said that "if it's blocking something you need, send an e-mail about it to me and I'll fix it at work" (Safe-Eyes has remote-access control, so my mom can change its settings at work).
I sent her a good, long list of websites it was blocking (all of which were obviously completely OK) more then 2 weeks ago.
She does nothing for 2 weeks, and I finally get the balls to ask her about it this passing Tuesday.

And guess what....
She refuses to un-block the sites. Keep in mind though, that she didn't even read the sites I needed un-blocked.
Why?
She says that I "have enough freedom".

Can you believe that?
Please keep in mind that she didn't even look at the sites I wanted un-blocked; she just decided I didn't need any more freedom.

That is the most arbitrary, restrictive abuse of power she's ever committed.
It's just ridiculous. It shows just how little she cares about me.

So, every time that little bubble pops-up and says I have such-and-such time left on the internet, it's a wonderful reminder of how little my parents respect me.
That's something you do for an 11-year-old, not a soon to be 17-year-old.

Shows how much my perfect grades, moral behavior and sacrifice for the family amounts to.
I hate to toot my own horn, but compared to the delinquents I go to school with that regularly torture their over-forgiving parents; I'm the perfect son. I honestly do what helps the family, rather then myself.
But I guess my parents don't care about that; nor about good grades or general good behavior.
What's the point of going to the effort to be a good person if nobody cares?

I'd have an advantage if I was as ruthless as my brother; having no qualms about lying to my parents' faces. I'd be more trusted (as hard as that it to believe), and I'd have my parents dancing in my palms.
But being somebody who actually does what Jesus says, I'm at a disadvantage in my household. Seems a tad counterproductive considering my parents are trying to bring me up as a Christian, eh?
If my faith weren’t already so strong, I would have ditched Christ years ago.
It's funny how all the absolute meanest, pissiest people I've ever know all claim to be Christians, isn't it?

God is my only real friend in this world.
My family as well as most everybody I've ever known (especially those here on The Otaku) have taught me that hard lesson over and over again.
As great a friend as God is, you can't put your arms around Him when you're feeling down, nor can you get a direct answer from him when you need advice; 2 things we humans sort of need from friendship.

Isn't life just grand?
You can work your ass off and have it amount to nothing.
The people in power, weather they be your parents, your school-board or your local self-serving politicians, make decisions on a whim that will forever alter your life and what you'll achieve.
You can be an honest student, but the ones that cheat and get an A+ are the ones that go into the good colleges, not the ones who got the honest B's and C's.

I'm just so happy to live in a world where money is all that matters.
I just love getting shafted in life so that my local politicians can have $12,000 curtains in their office.
Let's all bow down & worship our king, icon and most coveted asset: The Almighty Dollar.

What you've read here is hardly half of the shocking and painful realizations I've come to about how the world works.
And don't give me shit about being hormone-drivingly cynical. True, I'm a depressed little bastard, but that doesn't mean the world isn’t F'ed-up in how it works. Everything I said is true, and denying it for the sake of having no worries doesn't make it any less real.

I hope you all have a nice evening.
I'll see you all in Hell.
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