Saturday, April 15, 2006

   Meh....
Hey everybody.

I’ll get to your sites as soon as possible, as well as any art I’ve been missing.
Speaking of which, make sure to check out Miyoko-chan’s version of Sora if you haven’t already. The same goes for ElvesAteMyRamen’s picture of Leetha & Estel.

And while on the subject of art, I submitted a new picture today.
You may remember me mentioning that I tried to color this guy, but it came out pretty poorly. So, I stuck with the black & white version as far as what to submit (Logan-kun was smart enough to scan it before he colored it, and he’s quite happy he did).
Votes & comments are appreciated as always, but like I always say (from now on, at least): Take your time on doing so. =)
I was really pleased with how the hands came out on this one, and so was Josh. ^_^

Though I definitely need to stop making you all sit through my bitching-sessions, I kinda’ need to whine a little today.
Let me just say; I’m not feeling too good at the moment.
Oddly enough, it’s not due to my family this time.
No, it’s more Otaku-related angst.

I know you’re all tired of me yapping about it, I’m still dealing with certain people that I love & respect all the sudden just getting up and showing me they’re not who I thought they were.
Today, it hit me absolutely full-force.

I wanted to cry when it happened.
I felt like I was gonna’ throw-up.
It was almost painful seeing what this person did/said.
And unfortunately enough, even if I bring it to their attention they’re not gonna’ care. But I guess that’s understandable. How many of you would be willing to change something about yourself because of me? I’m just some dude on the web. I may also be a friend, but you’re not gonna’ change because of my opinion, even if it’s right.

Maybe I think wrongly about friendship. Maybe friendship is supposed to be superficial and self-contradictory. Maybe I should “make friends” with people who have twisted ideals that I know are wrong and let them influence me.

I’m just so sick of having the foundations of how much I grew & learned here on The Otaku be shaken apart and destroyed.
It’s painful when someone shows you that everything you thought (and respected) about them was wrong.
Disillusionment is a painful, painful process.
Great way to feel on the day before Easter, huh?

Again, I’m sorry to dump all of this on you. I know having to hear about my difficulties is no fun, especially since you’re currently dealing with your own.
Erin-chan always puts herself down for not being willing to share the things that hurt her with others, as if it was a flaw. Well, I can tell you I’d kill to have that “flaw”. I’m too open with what’s eating me, and I need to stop making you all deal with it as well.

Please forgive me for another vague, unhappy post, but please know there’s a good reason it’s that way.
I know you don’t like me being so unspecific about these events, but trust me, you don’t want to know what I’m talking about in clearer detail.
If I were to clarify, my time here on The Otaku would be over, so by not taking the suicidal risk of blowing the lid off of this matter I can at least have a chance at things working themselves out. And even if they don’t, I’ll eventually snap, and you’ll get the whole scoop in excruciating detail anyway.

Thanks again for listening, and I’ll see you tomorrow.
Please continue to pray for Elvzy-chan’s wrist, and a little prayer for me would be cool to.

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