Wednesday, April 26, 2006

   Bullshit!
Hey everybody. How are you doing?

Well, I can't say I'm in a good mood today. Ya' wanna' know why?

I had an all-around crappy day today, starting with the fact that I once again was under the wrath of my digestion system all day today.
In first period I was literally doubled-over in pain (thankfully Mr. Dickerson was cool enough to let me leave the classroom for about 10 minutes to use the bathroom).
I'm not gonna' tell you what happened in 2nd period, but let's just say I'm about 5 lbs. lighter now.
And all throughout 3rd period (Algebra II), I had that feeling of needing to relieve my bladder, but when in the bathroom I simply couldn't. And we had a test that class. Fun, neh?
Though not as big a deal, my bus was really late today, and it will be again tomorrow.

Today was pretty bad enough, but on top of that I got to come tome to this:
Though only a few of you will be familiar with the incident, it weather you know what led up to it or not won't detract from the effect it should have. And those of you who do know what's going on, you know who you are, so here we go.....

As some may know, I was involved in somewhat of a "controversy" recently (it's not much of a "controversy" per say, more just a bunch of net-pervs bitching at me for not putting up with their smut-obsession anymore). Well, I said a few harsh things; harsh, but deserved; and naturally they didn't like it.

And guess what?
I go into my art-gallery today, and my artist rating has plummeted.
It appears that some group of people (who could it possibly be?) methodically went through and voted down on a bunch of my recent pictures in retaliation, just because they didn't like the fact I have the balls to stand up for keeping sexually-warped garbage off of The Otaku.

The funny thing is, when I made my "controversial" comment, I even predicted that they would do just that; and they did it.
Boy, way to prove me wrong, eh?

Take a look at this:

"Aces High-Logan" - 67% with 9 votes

"'Soldier-Ghost' Line-Art" - 62% with 8 votes

"Gregory Smithe" - 67% with 6 votes

"Zombie 15" (the zombie with his legs blown-off) - also 67% with 6 votes

"Zombie 10" (the one I call 'my best zombie ever') - 75% with 8 votes

"Zombie 11" (the one in the hoody w/ the gunshot wounds) - 50% with 6 votes

"Zombie 9" (the bald one w/ half of the face missing) - 57% with 7 votes

"Epic" (the one I WORKED MY ASS OFF on) - 64% with 11 votes

And my most recent pic, "Zombie 16" - 38% with 8 votes

Many of those were even at a 100% rating before now.

It seems the artist has sent her royal entourage of loyal anime-porn obsessers after me.
My, wasn't that a mature and intelligent gesture on their part?

Honestly, I'm getting really tired of this horse shit.
I've met a LOT of ignorant, perverted and down-right mean assholes on this site, but I have never gone through someone’s gallery and voting "no" on every piece just to bring down their Artist Rating. That's a cheap, immature, misguided attempt at petty "revenge" for a subject that shouldn't even be an issue here in the first place.
I hope you ignorant morons that perpetrated this feel good about yourselves. Congratulations on being immature, predictable ass-wipes and proving me right. *standing ovation*

If this is the behavior of the general populous of the art community, then I want no part of it (especially since the majority seems to favor this kind of behavior).
I'm too stressed with everything else in my life to be dealing with this Bullshit in the one place I thought I could relax. I'll be damned if I'm going to have to spend my time here dealing with a bunch of net-pervs.

I'm sick of the perversion,
I'm sick of the lack of respect and decency,
I'm sick of the ignorant slander,
I'm sick of the hypocrisy,
I'm sick of the Bullshit,
and I'm sick of the people who perpetrate it all.

And probably most of all, I'm sick of it keeping me awake at night.
The Otaku used to be a place to forget my troubles, not a place to generate more. Now every time I even think of The Otaku it just reminds me of how confused, angry and depressed I am.

I'm still in a very difficult position, guys; having to sort through my feelings toward different people and this site in general.
The #1 thing I could use right now is support.
I sincerely thank you guys for your job so far on being my friend through all this crap, and hopefully when it's all through things won't be any different.
Again, I appreciate it, and I thank you.

Please continue to pray for those on the Prayer List, i.e. TS and EAMR, and a little bit of prayer for me would be appreciated too.

I'll see if I can't liven-up this post with some artwork.
"Chinese New Year 2006", by gem2niki:


I know it's a bit late for New Year's pics (about 5 months late XD ), but I still think you Fruits Basketcases out there will appreciate this piece. (That's what I'm gonna' call you people from now on: "Fruits Basketcases". Kind of like "Narutards". XD )
2006 is the year of the Dog, after all.
I'm not even a fan of Fruits basket (not yet anyway =3 ), and I still really like this piece! So smooth and clear.....

By the way, I have a question for those of you who are Fruits Basketcases.
Here's the thing: I keep seeing Tohru being called "Torhru-kun". Why is that? I thought "-kun" was masculine. Shouldn't she be "Tohru-chan" or "Honda-san"?
Any help would be greatly appreciated.

Whew! It feels nice to get all that stuff off my chest! I'm feeling a little bit better now, actually! =3

I'll see you all tomorrow!

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