Friday, May 21, 2004

   Today
Wow, I feel special. lol, not really. Just wanted to say that!

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Well, I'm an itsy bitsy mad because we didn't go to my church's youth tonight! Didn't go on tuesday either....its like a month I've missed. *tear* New email-a certain "friend" (sarcasm, sarcasm!) has been giving out my email and secrets and personnal info out on the web. sigh, someone else i feel i cant trust! Still, it dont matter cause i've got my beloved and loving God!! :):)!!!
ran the 1500m today. Came second place to one of my TRUE bff (Friend #1). GOING TO AREA!!!!
Still, I purposely lost. I was afraid of my own strength. Scary, but true. I fear myself sometimes. Thats horribly ironic, cause I'm tired of always being mature and strong, for once I want to rely on someone instead of them relying on me. I'm so glad God is always with me, so much stronger thanm I!!!! :)!!
Lately, with all thats been going on, all I can do is say "Bring it on, my faith is on God, and you cant touch me!" and thats good enough. My lifes like that song that goes something like "its the end of the world, and I'm happy/ok with that".
I'm oddly content with all this.

1. Guys
I'm mad at Guy #1. He acts different around me than how he does with his friends (ie swearing, actions, motives) not interested ne more. I'm so thankful I don't rely on earthly love! ...but I will admit theres this other Guy (#2) who I am interested in, but am not going to act on for the simple reason that he aint a christain. Simple. And hes a better friend. Of which, all what my friends can talk about is guys guys guys!!! sHEESH, MATURITY. Theres more to life than guys.
2. My family.
I'm tired of all the fights, always having to be strong and morale. I'm not supposed to be the parent, right? right. I'm just a KID. Familys in counseling....sigh.
3. Church
New at church. Don't know anyone, to busy babysitting OLDER sister to make friends. I'm so greatful i can rely on God!

thats it!
I'm ok anyway! :)!
GOD IS LUV!
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