Friday, February 11, 2005

   OMG! IM SO BORED!

Video code provided by KEKAI BOY


okie..so first things first...IM SO FRIGGIN BORED! omg, i seriously need domething to do! (okie, maybe not THAT seriously but you know what i mean.) oh, an im so very very sorry for not updating for such a long time. i feel so bad for not updating for so long, so today,(well right now anywayz) im going to try and make it up to you people. ummm wat should i talk about?
ohhh right, do any of you guys watch or read naruto? i swear, my freind and i are fully hooked onto that series for some reason! its weird actually, lol my friend even started to start her own fanfiction thingy with some of my *coughcough*forced*coughcough*help. To me, i think that the series that "We" started to write isnt very ummm what should i say? interesting. but if you want to chack it out, here's the link, but i'd doubt you'd actually go to it, but HEY its worth a shot no? anywayz, here's the link i was supposed to give to you:
http://www.fanfiction.net/u/677001/
okay...so next topic to talk about...ummmm, oh right, what are you're favourite animes? i've been thinking of watching a new anime series but i have no idea what, so, do you have any recommendations? (i know, my spelling sucks) ya, ummm that's pretty much it with what i can think of at the moment. the next part is probably going to be a paragragh of complete randomness, so you dont hav to read it if you dont want to..

STARTING OF RANDOMNESS: have you people watch the movie harold and kumar? omg it was so funny! haha battleshit, that was so funny! the two gurls just kept on farting into the toilet without even realizing the the stalls in between them held two disgusted weed smokers! haha that was hilarious! and the part where that guy starting pissing beside kumar! hehe i love that part when that white guy trying to act cool mimicked that indian shopkeeper "Please come again" haha that was SO friggin funny! lol okie maybe not THAT funny, but the battle shit part was hilarious! oooo have you watched the mvie andaconda's? i swear that guy who betrayed everyone pisses me off so bad! i was practically praying for him to get eating by those andaconda's! he was acting like such a bastard! omg he pisses me off so bad! 9even though he didnt do anything to me) but he was still such an annoying bastard! LOL okie next random topic! haha my friend and i are so evil! haha we gossip so much during school! its not even funny! haha i know, we are bullies but you know what? WE DONT CARE! MUAHAHAHAHAHA *chokes* *coughs* HAHAHA hehe i am so high right now! i just finished eating a waffle covered with syrup! and when i say covered i mean COMPLETLY covered! it was so sweet! there was waaaaay to many sugar on it! hehe i want moreezzz! hehe omg, haha that was so funny! i just remembered this time when there was this thing on the floor and this little kid around five years old walked up to it and started to scream. i remember seeing the kids mom walk up to her kid and ask wat was wrong, and the kid started to scream "CONDOM!CONDOM!" as he ran away from his mother screaming like a mad man! haha it was so funny! it probably dosent sound funny to you, but it was really funny! okie, im done rambling on and on, about pointless topics, so ill shut up now, bye bye! *fake crys* BUT ILL BE BACK TO KEEP WASTING YOUR TIME! HAHAHA!!! *little brother groans and covers his eyes with his hand* what? i didnt say anything! *smiles sweetly*
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Saturday, January 8, 2005

*takes a deep breathe*
wow i havent posted on here for a while have i? lol man i am sho bored ight nowz -.-' when havent i been bored? *sigh* is it just me, or dose my site seem very empty? oh well... ooo any one wanna noe a site where you can see zoids, yu yu hakusho, wolf's rain, trigun, samurai 7, please teacher, chobits, prince of tennis, ranma 1/2, outlaw star, naruto, fruits basket, flcl, full metal panic, bleach, case closed, dragon ball z, .hack//sign, cowboy bebop, and MANY MANY MORE full anime episodes? (ders sho much dat i cant list them all, ok i can, but im too laxy too -.-) if you dont believe me, then screw you, cuz im telling the truth. * sticks tounge out, if ya wanna noe da site message meh (*mummble's underbreathe* if there even is anybody whoeven visit's my site n e more) *sigh* oh welpz... well you dont have to read the following if you dont want to, its just going to be some rants about things i've been pissed off at lately...

urggggg! what the fukk is datn friggin guys problem! al he can do is complement on himself about how fukking perfect he is an shit! ya, perfect my a$$! if he can to go as low as to steal a pen's cap, how da hell is dat impressive!?!? ya "im a person who dosent hold grudges against people" HA like i care! thanx alote for the personal lesson you just taught me on how pathetic of a person you really are! mr. im-so-cool-as-ice, HAH! does it look like i fukking care!?!? urggg jeez! you people have no idea how friggin annoying this cocky-as-bastard is. VERY SINGLE FUKKING DAE I GO TO SKOOL AND I HEAR HIM TALIKING SHIT BOUT ME AND MY FRIENDS!

*sigh* dat felt good, now rant number two about a really fukking tall teacher i hate...

mr.berry (a name me an mah friends gave hym, he's named after this fukking teacher we hated in grade five) is a guy that was brought to our skool to replace my original teacher seeing as how she's pregnet ight now (lyke its almost due) and he's only been here for a week, and he's already getting on my fukking nerves! he tries to fukking hard to impress us an shit. he tries to act so cool, that it gets annoying!, when ever he's trying to teach a lesson (which he does poorly i must add) he's always smiling like some kind drunk guy who just saw a pretty girl walk past him. " mr.berry" cant teach, he cant write, cant read, AND HE CANT EVEN WRITE DOWN A SENTENCE PROPERLY WITHOUT WRITTING SOMETHING WRONG! WHAT THE FUKK DID HE DO? CHEAT THROUGH TEACHERS COLLAGE!?!? jeez, why cant he get run down by a truck and beaten to pulp by an old laydee wit a stick, jeez dat would help alot. and im gonna e stuck wit him for ONE WHOLE FUKKING YEAR! how on earth am i gonna survive that?!?

*sigh* *smiles* wow i feel REAL good ight now! dat sure helped alot, you people have no idea i've been holding that in for. okies, ill stop wasting your time nowz ^^ ja ne!
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Saturday, December 11, 2004

   project!
hey this is really mah english demosrtation, but i really liked it, sho ive decided to post it on theO sho heas da lil story dat ive created (all u haters out der, no stealin!)


Its been seven years since I’ve been left behind from my family.
Seven long years.
It was the day before my birthday when everything went wrong. My grandpa had died a couple of months ago, leaving my grandma in depression.
Shortly afterwards, she committed suicide.
The only relatives I had left, was my two twin cousins who lived half way around the world, trapped in a coma, given to them from a car accident.
Leaving only my family with me.
Then that day came, the day before my birthday. I had so many things planned.
I would go to the mall with my family, we would go to a lovely restaurant, I would hear them sing “happy birthday” to me, but no, I cant even make one little wish on my 5th birthday.
We were on our way back from the restaurant we were just at, when this drunk driver lost control of his car, slamming his into ours.
I can still see my brother’s body sheltering my body from any impact that went my way.
I can still hear my mother’s last words to me before she fell into eternal sleep.
“ We love you, crystal” I never knew that these four words would mean so much to me.
Tears streamed down my face as I watched that man in the white suit carry my parent’s and brother’s lifeless bodies into the ambulance.
Why?
Why does this have to happen to me?
There are billions of people on this planet, out of everyone, why me?


The orphanage was scary.
They’ve passed me on from family to family as if I was some kind of toy.
Each family would say the same thing.
Something about me not talking to anyone, but I do, I talk in my head. I talk through my eyes.
If they ever really cared about me, they would have known.
They would have known or realized by now.
I was left alone in this world without anyone who actually cares about me.
The social workers that came to help me don’t even bother trying to help me, heck, they don’t even do their jobs properly.
The first thing they do when they see me, is look at me as if I were some kind of filthy animal.
When they go into the room I’m in, all they do is sit on a chair, scribbling some notes about me as if they knew who I was.
Why does everybody think that they know me!?
They just take one look at me and they don’t even bother spending their time with me! Am I really that worthless?
What did I ever do to you, that made you treat me this way?
They think they know me, but they really don’t.
They don’t know how much pain I’ve been through watching my parents die right in front of my eyes. They don’t know how hard it is to live, knowing that you’re alone forever.
They don’t know what I’ve gone through.
They have no idea what it’s like to have your mother’s last words ringing through you head constantly.
Why can’t they just leave me alone?
What am I supposed to say?
Stop looking at me?



I feel so empty without them here by my side.
I wish I can get away, get away from all this loneliness.
The year I turned ten, my wish came true.
I finally found someone who actually talked to me.
Someone who actually cared for me.
Ruby.
Her name was Ruby.
It was lunch break in the school that I attended when I met her.
I saw her sitting under a tree, crying.
I realized that I wasn’t the only one who’s left alone.
She was broken inside too, like me.
She told me how her family just abandoned her when she was just 2 weeks old.
The first time for 5 years, I actually felt like I belonged. We would do everything together, we were like sisters.
Having her as my friend was the only time after my parents death, that I enjoyed life.
This didn’t last very long though.
Everything was too good to be true.
Two months passed since I met Ruby.
We promised we would be friends together…we promised.
Everything was going so well, nothing was supposed to go wrong.
My whole entire life went wrong, I just wanted this one thing to be real, I wanted someone I could depend on.
First my whole family was killed, then my cousins were put into a deadly coma.
Now, my best friend went missing…
Will she come back?
Why is this happening to me?
What have I done?
Was I not a good enough friend?


I cant help but think of all the things that have happened to me.
All of my childhood memories.
My brother’s pained face.
My mother’s last words.
The day I first met Ruby, and now,
The day my best friend went missing.
Does everything have to be this way?
Can I do anything to change this?
I’m lost…I can’t find a way out…no matter how hard I try, I can never forget the past…but now I think I know a way that will make me forget everything.
I wont have to live through this anymore.
Will it work though?
I really hope it does.
All I remember is seeing the worried look of the police men staring down on me as I laid down on the cold hard road.
I can hear the faraway sound of the sirens from an ambulance.
The last thing I saw was Ruby’s face as I whispered my last words. “where were you?” tears fell from her face as she whispered mere word “no…”

So remember no matter how bad things turn out to be there’s always someone there for you.


The End


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Tuesday, November 30, 2004

   weird poem
a really weird poem dat has no name dat i made during french class, well hope u like it!


Is it the end or
Is it just the beginning?
Was it real or
Just an illousion?
Have you been this way long?
Is it really that hard?
Did i make you feel locked up?
Did i do something wrong?
Or was it just something you said?
That i did not comprehend?
Is it really as easy as it seems?
To forget everything in a scream?
You make everthing seem so easy...
To be forgotten so easoly
It's been hard for me to pull through
Without you as my crew.
Forever is not long enough
It seems as though it was all a bluff
All the time that's gone by,
All i can do is cry
It all feels so real...
But no longer can i hold the seal
The teras stream out, oh so clear
And i end it all here...
Without anymore pain to bear...
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Sunday, November 7, 2004

OMG, DOSENT THIS SONG SOUND SO CUTE?
hehe i had to get rid of da song fer now ^___^ sowwy



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Wednesday, November 3, 2004

   awwwwwwwwww aint mah bunny cute?
its soooo cute!

adopt your own virtual pet!

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Monday, October 25, 2004

   hii!
hiiiii ppl! okay if ur reading this and you havent read mah story yet, go read it NOW! ^^ thank you! ^^ anyways, do you ppl want me to write a sequel to that story? cuz i hab history 2moro, an i neva pay attentin in dat class n e ways so just tell me if you want a sequel okies? get it, got it good. well i'll b probably posting dat story 2moro if you tell me!
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Saturday, October 23, 2004

   well i was bored so i added another survey! isnt it awesome? lol ok maybe not

You Know It's All About You (Over 100 Questions)
Created by niney123 and taken 4436 times on bzoink!
.:General Info:.
Name:	sarah
Age:	12
Gender:	female
Height:	i unno, tall?
Birthday:	march
Hair Color:	blachish brown
Describe yourself in one word:	different?
Describe your personality in one word:	moody?
.:School Life:.
What grade are you in:	7
What school do you go to:	y should i tell u?
And where is that:	in toronto
Do you get good grades:	ya
Favorite Subject:	art/home.ec/phys.ed
.:Love Life:.
Sexual Preference:	wha?
Do you have a bf/gf:	no...
If so,what is their name:	...
How long have you been dating:	...
Do you consider yourself in love with them:	...
If so,why:	...
Have you had your first kiss:	nope
If so,when:	...
Do you have a crush:	ya^^
If so,what is their name:	not telling!
Why do you like them:	cause he's just awesome!
Do they know you:	duh!
Do they know that you like them:	i dun think so...
How long have you known them:	three years?
.:Friends:.
Best Friend(s):	meng,annette,lisa,shazena,jennifer,sayadda,amy..do i have to list everyone?
How long have you been friends:	ummm my longest one was 12 years!
Do you consider yourself a good friend:	i guess so
How many friends do you think you have:	hmmm alot?
Most popular:	no idea
Most conceited:	not sure
Friendliest:	sayadda?
Meanest:	umm i unno?
Prettiest:	havent got a clue
Craziest:	hmm...
Oldest:	im not so sure
Youngest:	not me thats for sure
Most recent:	hmmmmmm
Smartest:	jennifer i guess, she is really smart ya noe?
.:Favorites:.
Food:	woah, i have alot
Person:	my friends!
Number:	17
Show:	i have waaaaay to much to list right here
Letter:	ummmm s?
Song:	my boo,welcome to my life, goodies,i like that,lean back,naughty girl,my happy ending, im so confused,perfect,the reason,dip it low,and a whole lot more! an breaking the habit
Band/Singer:	woah, ummm linkin park,ciara, houston,simple plan,usher,alicia keys,beyonce, omg ders sooo much!
Place in the world:	home sweet home
Season:	spring
.:Your-:.
Dream Vacation:	in a nice warm beach, or island
Dream House:	a sweet three story house would be nice
Dream Room:	a room wit a flat screen tv and computer, alot of cd's wit a sweet cd player, a whole lot of game system an you noe the usual, an dun forget the clothes!
Location:	like i said, the warm relaing beach, or an island
.:Last Time You:.	hm?
Watched T.V.:	today?
Went to the bathroom:	today?
Ate:	a few hours ago?
Slept:	ummm at night?
Listened to music:	right now!
Used the phone:	a few minutes ago
IMed someone/Got an IM:	right now!
Went to school:	yesturday
Played a game:	yesturday
Took a shower:	a couple of hours ago
Hugged someone:	yesturday
Went on a date:	i havent went on one
Wrote a letter:	umm last week?
Cried:	last month i think...
.:Last Person You:.
Hugged:	shazena
Kissed:	i havent
Laughed at:	alan
Cried over:	frustration
IMed/Got an IM from:	annette
Hurt:	ummm the guy i rejected yesturday at the dance?
Talked to:	my mom
Spoke to on the phone:	gesa
Ate with:	my family
Spent time with:	family and friends
Saw:	amy
Missed:	jennifer, i miss her! i havent seen her in a while
Heard:	mt brother?
Played with:	hmmmmmmmm the computer?
.:Have You Ever:.
Been out of the country:	yup
Been out of state/province:	yup
Done drugs:	nope, does medicine count as a drug?
Done anything illegal:	ummm i dont think so?
Slapped someone:	ya
Cut yourself:	ummm a paper cut, ya
Played an instrument:	ya, clarinet, guiter,baitone,flute,trumpet an ya
Hurt someone for no reason:	ummm no...
Hurt someone:	ya
Killed an insect/bug:	lol duh
Gotten stung by a bee:	nope
Lied to your parents:	uh huh, sure did
Stole Something:	hmmm does it count if i stole something from my brother?
Kissed Someone:	hmmm ya, if that counts for family
.:This Or That:.
Rock or Rap:	rap
Singing or Songwriting:	song writting
Tennis Shoes or Sandals:	sandals
Phone or Computer:	computer
Biking or Skating:	skating
Analog or Digital:	didital
Coke or Pepsi:	coke, i cant drink pepsi, it hurts mah throat
Sprite or Sierra Mist:	sierra mist
MTV or VH1:	mtv
R&B or Country:	r&b
Cingular or T-Mobile:	ummm i unno
Cats or Dogs:	dogs
AIM or Yahoo:	aim
Bzoink or Quizilla:	quizilla
.:Word Association:.
Birthday:	what?
Peanut:	ew
Good Charlotte:	yay!
Ravioli:	huh?
President Bush:	no offense but i h8 dat guy
T.V.:	oh ya!
Rock:	depends
Rap:	ooooo let me hear
Chef:	ur a chef?
Boys:	ummmm...
Girls:	yay more ppl to talk bout!
Calendar:	WHA?
Fan:	ANIME!
Evil:	I AM SOMETIME EVIL YA NOE DAT?
.:Right Now:
Eating:	yum! nope im not eating ight now
Drinking:	chocolate milk!
Watching:	music videos!
What is on your mousepad:	rain water!
What are you doing:	listenin to music
What song are you listening to:	welcome to my life
What's in your CD player:	summer rush 2
Wearing:	treack pants and t-shirt
Time:	umm 2:26 pm
Month:	october
Day of the Month:	23
Year:	2003
Day of the week:	saturday
What website are you on:	ummm the otaku,quizilla, an bzoink
.:Random Things:.
What color is your mousepad:	blue
What color is your keyboard:	black and grey
What is the phrase you use the most online:	wtf? thats what i say alot, or lol
Did you like this survey:	ya, but its too long! besides my foot fell asleep!
Are you sad that it's over:	nope, im glad, wait, its over? YAY!
What are you gonna do after this survey is over:	ummmm talk to mah friends i guess
Do you like pop-up ads:	i h8 it
How long have you been online:	a loooooong time!
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Thursday, October 14, 2004

   hi ppl!
hey, i was just bored and sort of depressed as i wrote this story, and no, this story has nothing to do with me, but you might recognize it, cuz i also posted it up in quizilla, well at least a part of it, and no i did not copy this from anywhere, i srote it by myself well here it is....


Why did you leave?

Why did you have to leave me? I remember seeing you’re face up against mine, the sweet kiss you would bring me, why, why did you have to leave? I will not cry but I want to, I try to cry but I can’t, this pain hurts too much. I can’t bear to see you back in my face, I want you here with me, I don’t want to let you go, why did you leave? Was it because of me? Do you no longer love me? why? Is there someone else? What is it about her? Is she better looking? Is she smarter? Or is it just me? Am I too short? Too tall? Do I make you feel like your locked up? Why? Why did you have to leave? You have taken everything I had to offer, was I not good enough? I don’t understand. You have taken my heart, now you’ve pretty much taken my sanity, why? Why? Why? I’d walk along the park where you gave me my first kiss and I’d see your face appear before me. Why must you haunt me? Why cant I just let you go? For that, I do not know. You told me that you loved me…is that true? Or were you just toying with me like a fling? I don’t want to know. You were playing but I wasn’t, I thought that you loved me so I opened my heart to you and loved you back. don’t you understand? I loved you! but you pushed it away. My mind and my heart probably doesn’t exist anymore. I’ve sat on my window sill, watching the rain hit the window and the ground, I’ve tried to think of the bright side, my family, my friends…but I always end up thinking about…you. I was thinking, the other night, why do I love you anyways? I thought about that all night but I came to no conclusion.
Is it because of your looks? The way you talk? Your kiss? Your personality? The way you look at me? I don’t know…you tell me, why did you make me fall for you?
I walked to the beach as I sat down on the sand. I remembered it was here that you first told me that you loved me, you said that you’d never leave me alone, all by myself. But what happened now? Why did you break your promise so fast? Was it because you forgot? No. I know you remembered…you said you wouldn’t leave me and you’d protect me…I believed you…but why did I have to be so foolish? Why did I have to listen…I should of known, but yet I didn’t, I was too caught in your grasps. Stupid ain’t it? I know you don’t love me anymore and yet I denied it. It hurts too much to just let it go, it feels like a dagger being slowly pushed into my heart. don’t you know? It’s not you that’s feeling the pain, it’s me.
I’ve avoided eye contact with you, when we first met, but you always made me look into your hazel eyes. You’d say that you’d always be there for me, but all you do is continue my misery, why can’t you just leave me be? I’ve tried to convince myself that your not coming back, but it didn’t work, I’m still in love with you. I’ve tried to forget everything about you, your hazel brown eyes, your cinnamon colored skin, your heavenly deep voice, the touch of your skin against mine, everything, but why isn’t everything working?
My memory isn’t fading, it’s becoming fresher and stronger. I can remember everything that happened between you and me like it just happened yesterday. It’s a never ending nightmare that brings me more pain. This love that I remember is too strong to be forgotten and thrown away. How did you do it? How did you just forget everything we’ve been through and just leave? I love you so ,much that you cant understand. It hurts me to see that you don’t care about me…not even as a friend.
All that time I’ve treated you like my boy, you know what, I DID treat you as my boy, and all we’ve been through is that you don’t love me!? You don’t wanna be with me!? How can you play me like that? I’d look at the pictures we took together and think back to when we’d kiss as the rain poured down. Why cant it be like old times? Why did you have to leave? If your looking for the perfect girl, then you should end your search now, no one’s perfect. I know I should just forget about it but I can’t, you don’t understand, its not as easy as it looks.
When people told me that love hurts, I thought I understood what they were talking about, but man was I wrong, not only does love hurts, it fucking hurts, it hurts so much you’d think going through hell is a walk in a park. why did you even say that you loved me? Why did you make me believe that it’s real when it’s not? Out of all the girls why me? Why did you have to put me through despair? I hate feeling so vulnerable, and now I know why I hated feeling that why…I was afraid of becoming heartbroken.
It’s been three weeks since you left now. I haven’t seen you at all, not even a single bit. I’ve called you a couple of times but you never picked up. Are you afraid to see the pain you’ve put me through? Or are you just never there? I just realized something, why didn’t you look me in the eye when you told me that dreadful statement? Was it because you were hiding something from me? Please tell me, tell me why you left, tell me where you went, tell me what else you want, tell me all your problems, tell me that you weren’t lying when we were together, tell me that you loved me. I need to know what you think. Every night I’d wonder whether or not you’d come back, but it’s hopeless…your not. I just found out, two days ago, that on the day you walked out on me…there was an accident…a teen had ran across the road as a speeding car rode by and crashed into him…I didn’t want to believe it, you really did leave me…forever. I should of held you back, why did you have to go? I hope you can hear me right now… I still love you…no matter what happens. Wait for me…I want to be with you…I’ll be coming soon…please just wait…At least now I understand why you left…

-by me!

well hope you liked it!
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Monday, October 11, 2004

ahahaha! i love doing these!
lol here read this!!!! :D

ABC..easy as 123
A is for age...so what is yours?	12
B is for brat...do you know any?	alan
C is for cool...who's the coolest person you know?	me!
D is for dork...who takes that prize in your life?	alan
E is for elephant...know anyone who reminds of one?	dhool(is that how you spell her name?)
F is for funny...who laughs it up in your group?	kevin
G is for geek...who wears the glasses in your life?	nerds*shrugs*
H is for hot...what gets your blood to boil?	my parents!
I is for insult...gimme your best one.	do you eally wanna noe?
J is for juice...what's your fave?	i dun like juice
K is for kill...who's number one on your hit list?	fardosa
L is for love...who gets most of yours?	some guy...
M is for month...what's the best for you?	march!
N is for negative...who's glass i half empty?	i unno
O is for organized...are you?	nope
P is for pushy...ever get that way?	sometimes
Q is for quick...be creative here	ANIME!
R is for rain...love or hate it?	love it!
S is for stuipd...what counts as stupid on your list?	kuwabara
T is for trick...or do you prefer a treat?	treat!
U is for umbrella...you own one?	duh
V is for veggies...do you eat yours?	yea
W is for wish..what do you secretly want?	why would i tell you if its a secret?
X is for xylophone...is that spelled right?	what do i look like? a dictionary?
Y is for yo-yo...do you play with one?	hell no
Z is for zoo...last time you visited one?	four years ago
1 person who can live without?	alex*glares daggers at her*
2 people you're closest to?	meng and annette!
3 wishes you want to come true?	for you to stop talking,more fun, and world domination! muahahaha! just j/k^^
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

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