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Sunday, April 3, 2005

   From good to worse….
My day started off with bad news. My aunt Diane (one of the grandmas) went home to do laundry since faith had such a good day Friday. She got a call saying to get back to the hospital now. Faith fell into a deeper coma. In fact it’s the deepest there is. They were gonna take her down for a CAT scan at 3:30. Well they started her on a new medication, but she was not responding to it at all, so they took her down for a CAT scan at 12:15 instead. We waited literally all day for the results. The doctors came and got Paul Heather, Diane, Becky and Shelia around 8 30 pm(dad, mom, grandma[heathers mom], aunt [Paul’s sister] and Paul’s aunt). They were in a conference for at least 45 minutes. Then they came and got Sharon (Paul’s mom).

Shelia was crying…my cousin Dawn and I knew it was bad as soon as we seen her cry. Shelia is the greatest person I will ever meet. She is an amazingly strong willed woman. She makes sure everyone is fed, takes care of the other families there (Bobby and Melissa from yesterdays post). She is so active and has been so good spirited she just makes everyone feel so much better and makes you doubts go away.

Anywho, shelia was crying. Me, Dawn, Angie (my sis) and Jocelyn (another cousin) all wanted to know b4 everyone else was told so we could prepare. Us 4 were standing in the smaller waiting room (across the hall from the others) and we could see through the windows on the door that Heather and the others were getting ready to come back and tell us the results. I heard Heather scream and Dawn and I were standing in the doorway of the waiting room, in the split second it took us to get in the hall, we seen and heard Heather hit the floor. She was balling and so upset. Shelia came out and told us faith will be dead by morning.

Everyone gathered in the big waiting room so Heather and Paul could tell us what happened. The doctors told them their choices and out of 3 I believe they chose the right 1. The first two would be very difficult and offered us very little hope..actually a 1% chance of living the doctor said.

***What is happing is this***
They are going to take faith of the meds and the pressure from her brain will suffocate the brain stem and her heart and lungs will stop. The left part of her brain is already dead and the right is dying as I type. They will let Heather, Paul and Diane (Sharon went home) stay with her all night. Even let them hold her till she passes. She wont suffer and it will be painless. As hard as this is I know it’s the absolute best decision.

I got to see her before I left. I was so happy to see her. I would not have been able to sleep and I was getting sick to my stomach to think I had to go home with out saying goodbye and seeing her alive one last time. I went back with my sister, Aunt Diane, and cousin Mark. when we went in there was Christian type music playing for her (eventho I don’t believe in god this is not the time to act on that. This is the time to pray despite what I may personally believe in..or not believe in). my sister looked at her for a few seconds and had to leave she was so upset. My aunt kissed her and stayed for a min. then it was me and mark. He talked to her for a min and kissed her and knew I wanted to be alone with her so he let me. The whole time I was next to her I just held her hand. It was the best 1 or 2 minutes of my life. I felt so at peace knowing I got to have my 1 or 2 minutes to say goodbye. I didn’t say good bye. There were so many things I wanted to tell her, but when I got the chance my mind blanked and I could do was say how much I love her and how happy I was to know she would be with her sister Hannah. I told her how I loved her and told her how much fun I had with her on Sunday (she told me if we plant rocks they will grow into flowers so we planted some). I told her over and over how much I loved her. I kissed her face like a million times (ok like 5). Then I went back to the other side and kissed her hand and covered her back up and walked away.

As I sit here and type this (1am) I know that may be the last time I see her alive, but I am satisfied with that. I got to make my peace and I kno she will be in a better place not in pain.

Manda posted the 3rd article from the paper in her site if you wanna read. I guess i will go to bed now since I’m going back to the hospital at 7:30 am unless someone calls saying otherwise.

*~Badkitty~*
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