Monday, July 3, 2006

I cannot get the code for a table background to stay in the Post Styles area. any suggestions anyone? this table is from putting the code in the post. summer school is almost over. just 2 more days, and then finals. 4 day weekend for 4th of July, which is awesome, but we have a group project, so i have to get up early to go pick someone up so we can all meet at the SUB, then we need to go all over and do some filming. our topic is dating abuse. of dating, Bryan came back from Kansas Saturday evening. and he was kind of worried, because Cherri hadn't been there to meet him. so i had him call her and i drove him home and when he got there, she was all arguing with him about how she had called and all the direct flights from Kansas had been delayed, so how could he have come in? he got a connecting flight in Mormonville City...er...Salt Lake City. and she was like, "well, now i know where i stand!" she was referring to the fact that i knew he was coming in and she didn't. even though i had know way of knowing if his flight would get cancelled or early, i just showed up. but i had felt a little uneasy about that. because i figured that Cherri wouldn't be happy that i was there at the airport. so once they got done arguing, she let us go out. we went to Dairy Queen to see Josh, Ian, and Denise. and we hit the mall, but eventually just went back to his house to watch videos and no one was there when we got back. i showed him what i had transposed of the KH2 version of Dearly Beloved. i figured out the piano part, the clarinet part, and the oboe part. After a while, his sister came home, and she came downstairs and she was like, "you have a girl over, Bryan?" and i'm so sick of everyone thinking that i'm going out and having sex with him, so i just gave her a look and i was like, "yeah." a half-hour later, his mom comes home and i think his sister had gone upstairs between then and i think she told Cherri that i was down there, cause she comes storming down the stairs, takes one look at us and goes, "Bryan, you know the rules! you can't have a female in the house when there's no adult supervision! now Aubrey has to leave!" and i'm just like, "what the fuck?! now you're calling me a whore!?" i think it was mostly just being "disappointed" that she didn't get to see Bryan come in and "being stressed about a wedding" that was talking, because i've been alone with him before and no one's said anything. sex isn't confined to the house. how many times have i driven him now? you CAN have sex in a car? but do you see us doing that? NO! do you see us having sex period? HELL NO! my mom even insinuated that. I'M NOT HAVING SEX, DAMMIT! and i finally have a ring. it's not exactly what i wanted, but it's what it stands for that counts.

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Sunday, July 2, 2006

and again
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just trying to get a background table to work

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Friday, June 9, 2006

hey people. miss me? i've been working on changing my theme and it's finally gone smoothly (stupid photobucket) but i deleted my post box and now i can't get it back. every time i find a code for one, it includes a background image and i just want color. any help please?
yesterday was the last day of school. i went to an end-of-year party at a friend of a friend's place. it was okay. they fed me. which was good, cause i hadn't eaten lunch. they played the serial killer game, and me and another girl didn't participate. it's where they have one "serial killer" that goes around and "kills" everyone else. later in the afternoon, though, i was fighting around with this guy with all the sticks the guys had knocked down from the tree. it was awesome. i have a spot on my hand that's all swollen, a bruise on my arm, along with a cut, and i have another bruise from another guy accidentally hitting me on my leg. but it was so fun fighting with him. i "killed" him a lot. he only got me twice while i got him maybe six or seven times. today, i'm hopefully gonna go start my fitness training with juji and some fight training with Sesshy throughout the month of June. so when Bryan gets back i'll be all fit and a major fighter. we'll get everyone together: Myke, Mason, Sesshy, Chris, Bryan, and me. on the 4th of July. what better day to fight? and hopefully my fiance will be back by then.
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Sunday, May 7, 2006

Gays like Slaves
*important part of the post is at the next asterix

haven't updated in a long while. i finally got something to post about.
so yesterday was the junior/senior prom for Borah. Bryan had asked me two weeks prior by taking me out to Rockies and asking me via a new little blackboard that Rockies had gotten and he had his dad, the dj, write, "AG, will you go to prom with me?" on it. i'm going to try making an online photo album soon with pictures. we went out all day. first, with lunch at Primo's pizza/pasta/salad buffet, then we tried to go bowling at the SUB, but a party there had booked all the lanes, so we just stuck with DDR. darn, such a shame. we had to DDR. after that, we hit the mall, where he bought himself a fish net shirt and a wallet chain. i got him to buy me some perfume, but i didn't let him smell it. i had been trying for this perfume at Deb called Night in Brazil, but by the time i decided to buy it, they were out and every time i checked back, they STILL didn't have any. so i felt lucky to have found one. and at Hot Topic, no less. it's the Nightmare Before Christmas one with Sally on it. it's called Rag Doll. i opened the box and smelled and was just like, "oh my gawd, i LOVE this smell!" and it's HARD for me to find a perfume, cause i always smell the alcohol more than the scent it's supposed to be, so for me to like it is quite amazing. i just hoped Bryan would like it. it's not a very good perfume, though, cause i put on four spritzes and i was barely able to smell it. anyhoo, after the mall, we separated to get ready. i went over to Vanessa and Tiffany's and they did makeup for me, since i don't know the first thing about makeup. they said they made me look beautiful, but i'm not a very good judge of it. i just wanted Bryan to think it. he randomly turned to me in the mall, when we were sitting at the fountain and was like, "you're beautiful, you know that?" then he proposed to me. so now i'm sorta unofficially engaged. he told me, "even though i don't have a ring, will you still marry me?" and i said yes. of course, we won't get married for many years. so he came to pick me up for dinner in his white tux and he was just so handsome. and he had brought me a corsage, even though i didn't get him a boutonniere. it was a black beaded one with white roses. oh, and my dress was black, down a little below my knees, with pink flowers decorated on it. we went out to dinner at the Brick Oven Bistro aka the Beanery and random people kept coming up to us, asking if we were there for prom and telling me how beautiful i looked. Bryan's mom was actually RECORDING us most of the time, but left after she got a little footage of us together at the Beanery. and after one guy had left, after telling me i was beautiful, Bryan turned to me and said, "see? i told you you were beautiful, now stop putting yourself down about how you're not." later, he saw me watching the fountain and he was like, "what are you plotting?" and i was like, "i was contemplating whether or not to go play in the fountain." he just looks back and forth from me to the fountain, then says, "no." i look at the fountain for a few more minutes then go, "just because you said not to, i'm going to." so i took off my 3 inch dress sandals and go wading. he just kept shaking his head at me looking like, "i am not here with this crazy girl," but there was amusement in his eyes, i could tell. then we went to the Rose Room above Old Chicago and got our pictures taken then started dancing. he would only do slow dances at first, and Jake Kepner kept telling him to go out and do the fast songs. i finally got him on the dance floor for both. Jake was proud of me. as the night wore on, though, i kept seeing couples kissing. and while i love Bryan for the fact that he doesn't pressure me into that, i would have liked my one magical moment. and it made me more depressed as the night wore on and it got obvious i wouldn't get one. as he walked me to the door and we did our usual hug good bye he asked if i wanted a kiss good night. and i was like, "well, i was kinda looking forward to one." so yes. perfect way to seal the night. this was the best weekend of my life. i got to spend an early release afternoon with Chris and Bryan watching Advent Children english version and showing them what books i had that told of crap dragons compared to my good Dragonology books, which were actually more believeable. and today, i got Bryan to come to my church, because we were playing Operator, which is a jazz/dixie land style song, for those who havn't heard it, and i told Bryan it would be the one time in his life he would get to hear me do jazz. and his step mom let him come. so i got to see him for three days this weekend. i wouldn't have traded this weekend for the world.
*anyways, to the important part of my post. it'll explain my title. there was an article in the paper today about how homophobic parents in Massachusetts don't like their kids being taught about gay families in school. here's a message for you, America: FUCK YOU! you people have always been afraid of anything different from you. Indians, African Americans, atheists, gays, etc. You must always be the dominating power of this earth. I'm sure you're familiar with the phrase, "history is doomed to repeat itself"? well, that's what's happening now. Next thing you'll know, 25 states will legalize gay marriage, 25 will ban gay marriage, and homophobes will live in the banned states while gay couples wil live in the other 25. you'll probably make Alaska the loving one and Hawaii the hating one, just cause Hawaii is the better spot for the more homophobic Americans. it will be just like the slaves vs. no slaves and soon we'll have another civil war over it and it'll never be settled. have you ever actually looked at a gay person? how different would they be from you? they would have the same body as you. they would have a favorite color, like you. they would believe in a god, like you. they would have a favorite celebrity, like you. they would listen to music, like you. they have different beliefs like you? so what really makes them so different from you?
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Saturday, April 8, 2006

i have the house all to myself this weekend. mom and dad went to some returning soldier marriage counseling so i'm alone from now (Friday night) till about Sunday afternoon. no church, no parents to scream at me like the world's gonna end if i'm on the Net for 2 hours...of course, i've barely been back for a week and what does Bryan do for the weekend i'm alone? he goes and makes plans with Sesshy. for nearly all of Saturday. and Sunday he's basically not allowed to leave the house. Friday we had early release, but it was also the Gene Harris Jazz Festival. luckily, this one's in town. but by the time Bryan DID make plans with me, it was 7:00 and we had no ride. brilliant planning on his part, i know. so we're going to try to do something after he gets back from Sesshy's.
i got KH2 yesterday. and the opening thing is so BORING! Sora trained faster than this stupid Roxas kid. at least Sora had a training sword. this guy fights with a styrofoam sword, man! and i was working on getting my 800 munny lst night at, like, 10 and my parents got so fed up with me being up at 10 on a school night that my dad came in, yanked the controller out of my hand and turned off the TV and started screaming insults at me. i cannot WAIT until Bryan moves out so i can live with him. i am SO getting out of this religious house. and not giving my parent's a choice in the matter. that's what they get for years of abuse. mom called earlier and when she was done talking she was like, "i love you." and i was just like, "bye." man, i refuse to hardly talk to them again, after last night. mom told me to get over it Friday morning. man, screw them both.
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Tuesday, April 4, 2006

hey everyone. i got back in yesterday afternoon. after unpacking, showering in an ACTUAL shower, and practicing my oboe, i went to the choir concert. it was bad. i swear, that choir loves church music. ALL the songs were religous. i wanted to gag...or fall asleep. a red-eye will do that to you. and Bryan's mom was REALLY getting on his case about him losing his choir robe. like, we would be talking and when we stopped, she would tell him she didn't know where it was, how he needed to find it, where he should look, where she might have put it, blah blah blah. and i was just like, "lady! there's obviously nothing he can do about it right now!"
and a word of advice to everyone: Hawaii is not all that it's cracked up to be. if you want the Hawaii you see in movies and hear about and see pictures about...go in the summer! NEVER go before May and after November. and definetly don't go on a ship. SMALL rooms...VERY small.
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Sunday, March 26, 2006

hey everyone. I will be gone all of Spring Break. when i come back next Monday, there will be a choir concert that i have to go see. so later everyone!
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Thursday, March 23, 2006

*monotone voice* yaaaaaaaaaaaaay. it's my birthday. 16 years old.....can you tell i'm excited? yeah, i was alone all day. the men's choir had some thing today, so they were gone until 4th period, then they had a sectional at lunch and there's a trombone sectional after school.

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
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Friday, March 17, 2006

hello all! today, on St. Patty's Day, AOV starts! FUCKING AWESOME! but we have a stupid Battle of the Sexes assembly today. even though it gives us a shortened day, it gives us a whole agonizing hour of an assembly! but Ching and juji are apparently DDRing but i don't see juji! i don't know where he is today! and he's my partner on my bio work TT.TT he's supposed to do all the drawings for our book. i hope he's here today. cause that'd be bad if he wasn't.
so yeah, i won't update this weekend, cause i'll be getting home at 11 and going back at 8. so see everyone Sunday night!
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