Sunday, March 5, 2006

trying to change my theme, but it's not working very well. i've already been working from 8:20-10:00. photobucket keeps saying that my albums are full, so the image won't link up and imageshack isn't letting the image show through. i'm also trying to put an mp3/media file onto this site, so when the music starts, you guys can stop it if you want (i, for one, find it SO annoying when the music's in the bg and you're listening to music to begin with and here comes in this other music >.<), but i'm not getting much help from Yoko Bandit's Help Site (btw, has anyone else noticed that Yoko Bandit's gone again? i noticed a few months ago, just didn't say anything) so could anyone tell me how to put a media file onto this site? would be greatly appreciated. oh, and is the bg showing through? if you can see Sephiroth, the answer is yes edit: okay, the background IS there, but it only kicks in as a background color. and i know i've dealt with this problem before, but i keep changing things but i can't fix it! GAHH! i curse you HTML and the day the person that came up with you had to make it so difficult!

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Saturday, March 4, 2006

yesterday was another half-day. teacher inservice or something. there was no pep band, because the boys fucking lost, too. first round of state, too. our school is full of losers. the football team couldn't win, the basketball teams couldn't win...so i kidnapped Bryan this afternoon (took him forever and a half to just get inside from the back and put his stuff away at his house -.-) then i brought him over to my house. mom was just leaving and dad wasn't that far behind her. thank god. i got Bryan to make us some ramen for lunch. but can you just imagine that? Bryan and me alone in a house? yeah. and his mom doesn't trust me alone with him. or just doesn't trust us alone together...whichever. then savani came and we went to the costume shop. i now have my wig and Bryan's black hair spray. i gave my shirt to faye to add trim too and left my wig with savani so she can cut it. and i can't forget that hunter needs to get me a tie. so, basically, my costume's all set ^^ 12 days to AO! 19 days till my b-day!
however, what i really wanted to do with Bryan was have a serious talk with him today, since i wasn't able to do it wednesday. and i couldn't do it with him today cause it was his first time in my house. you just don't do that. have a serious conversation in different surroundings. i'm hoping i can get him to come with me Wednesday.
and that's all from the peanut gallery for now
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Saturday, February 25, 2006

hello all. i have been so lonely and music deprived all day. Bryan and Chris left for the Lionel Hampton Jazz Festival yesterday morning. Jazz students didn't have to be at school until 8:30. i told Bryan, then, that he should come into Japanese 1 first period and he said he would. also, the boy is just NOW discovering the joys of yaoi. at the age of 18! TT.TT he has my pity. so since he had an 8-hour bus/car ride, i brought him all four of my fic binders. there was no room in my backpack for my regular binder, the other binders were so big! so when he finally came in that morning i gave him this sweet, plotting look and asked, "how much room do you have in your bag?" and he's like, "a lot." and i toss my backpack at his feet and i'm all, "have at it." and then Vanessa started reading the blue yaoi fic binder (which has all the MAJOR yaoi in it) and when i realized it was VANESSA reading it, i was like, "shit! Vanessa, you can't read that!" (she's Mormon O.o) but she only read the first page of Raining Like Magic. I also lent Bryan my mp3 player for the full weekend, WHICH I'M NEVER GOING TO DO AGAIN! next time he goes away, he can get his own mp3 player or get an iPod! so...much...music withdrawal. i was getting it so bad that when lunch came, i went into the Japanese room and listened to the Advent Children version of One Winged Angel from the website Bryan and i got it from. then when i came home, no one was here, so i put in my Prince of Egypt soundtrack and Kiss the Girl, since those, along with One Winged Angel are my current music obsessions. i was forced to walk home to silence, i couldn't listen to my music while doing the dishes, i'll have nothing to sing to the plants for (and i think that singing to plants actually works. every week i come back, they're so much bigger!) 2 more days...*twitches* but as i type, Byran and Chris and senior Jake are probably having it up playing video games on the PS2 Chris brought. Chris has one of the old, bulky PS2s, so he couldn't bring his dance pads. ha, loser. my PS2's the small one that slightly bigger than a DVD case and twice as thick. i also kissed him Thursday for luck, but i didn't tell him that, so i gave him a chocolate kiss for luck yesterday. i still didn't tell him. i had another opportunity to kiss him for luck yesterday, but i wasn't about to do it in front of the whole Japanese class...and especially Vanessa.
last night, i was taken out to dinner to ROMiO's and omg! the food was so good! i had the spaghetti with meat sauce and if you ate a some spaghetti then ate a little bit of meat...it was soooo good! there was this little thing on the table telling us about the desserts and i asked if we could have a Death by Chocolate...that was good too! it was this giant piece of chocolate cake!
and that's really all...so lonely...but Byran's living it up, i betcha. having too much fun to think about me. i just better get my fic binders and my mp3 player back in one piece!
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Sunday, February 19, 2006

the girls fucking LOST! they lost to Cour'de Lane! and saturday night would have been my only time during the weekend with Bryan, since he was gone Friday night. but no! they had to go and suck!
oh, and i'm probably going to close my journal because no one likes to hear my rants
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Friday, February 17, 2006

hello, MyO. yesterday was the first Girl's State Basketball games. so yes, that meant pep band. and we gotta take a bus, since the game is in another town. we all know what a bus ride means ;) first time i've got to be with Bryan on a bus since TVFOB. since the last time we took a bus i was in a dress and on the way back i had to sit with Chris. but today was awesome, cause i gotta spend the whole ride over with him. and i found something ELSE that can drive him crazy, just like the spot on his neck. i also got to listen to him sing. which was really embarrassing, because here's Eric and Bryan, two choir people, singing their Disney concert songs for the WHOLE bus to hear. and while i DO enjoy Byran's singing voice, it was still REALLY embarrassing. and here i am, sitting on Bryan's lap...anyways, so when we got there it was crap, cause it's this HUGE building and there's this dinky ass court they have set up. and instead of having Bryan come to me, i went over to him, but when i had to bail, it was really hard to get back to my seat because of the fucking sophomore clarinets. they left their trash all over the floor and they wouldn't move their feet when i was trying to get in. god, if i became section leader my senior year, i'd show those Westies what for. inconsiderate bitches. so then i rode with Bryan on the way back. i was tired, so i tried falling asleep, but suddenly there was bright street lights flooding in so i was awake. Bryan was kind of tempermental because Beau was being obnoxious, constantly saying "Kona 7" for no reason. when i "woke up," Bryan and i talked a little more. when we got to the school and the bus was about to stop to let us off, i kissed him ^///^ nothing major, just on the cheek. but i could tell it caught him off guard. he started to turn towards me, cause we were sitting side by side with his arms around me, like he wanted to check that i'd done what he'd thought i'd done, then seemed to just accept it and hugged me. and i bet if i had not been hanging around with everyone while they waited for the band locker room to be unlocked, he would have gone to Chris and been like, "Chris, you'll never believe this! She kissed me!" but i would say we're not back together yet. he still has to ask me.
but he's supposed to be going camping during this 4-day weekend (yep, 4 days off, 3 days of pep band). and he's already left me for the orchestra concert TT.TT why does he have to leave me again? but every time i've complained about that, it weakens him a little more. now he's saying he might just try to get out of it so he can come to pep band. haha, the chibi face works every time.
registration started yesterday. i already know what classes i'm going to have: Algebra 2, Chemistry, English (normal!) US History, Band, and Japanese 2. and i'm all talking to Chris in Bio and he tells me he's not gonna have room for band next year. and i was already having problems having to be without Bryan for two years after getting used to him being there. no one to sit with at DIII, no fun on bus rides, no one to come down and talk to me during pep band, no one to see, and play Stepmania with, during lunch. but now i'll REALLY be all alone. NO ONE will be there for me in ANY band function. I'll sit by myself on the bus and at DIII and freeze to death, i'll sit and listen to my music during pep band and i'll be by myself every day after 4th period. and right when i got used to people being there for me. but no. Jaime and Judy had to go and leave me for each other, Chris would rather be technology savvy than music savvy and Bryan's graduating. i can't blame Bryan, but it still hurts.
eh, i'll stop putting my darkness onto all of y'all. later.
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Saturday, February 11, 2006

yesterday was our BSU band clinic. it was fucking awesome! except for wearing those freaking thin dresses in the morning...fucking cold! and the jacket that Bryan gave me for "Xmas" shrunk in the wash TT.TT now it's too small for me! anyways, so when we got there, we had to fist critic Capital's playing of Fantasy on a Theme by Sousa and one other song. i hate having to critic bands. i can never hear anything wrong. can you believe that? 6 years of band i can't STILL can't tell the difference between sharp, flat, or in tune. after that, we played our songs then got critiqued on Sea Songs by some director who came all the way from Arkansas. then we either went to clinics or i think you had to go watch Timberline play. i went to the clarinet clinic. then it was lunch. can we spell D-D-R in the S-U-B? (SUB stands for Student Union Building) and i was kicking Byran's standard playing ass! because he's only a half-standard player and i just mostly stayed on light (but i did play Break Down on standard, since i've practically memorized it) so yeah. then the WHOLE band was supposed to go and watch the BSU band ALSO play Fantasy, but SOME people (aka Bryan and Chris) were stupid and didn't go. and boy, did they miss out on something great. when the low voices came in on their first note...it was just beautiful. our band will NEVER be able to sound like that. and the WHOLE song was in tune! even the clarinet solo was in tune.....so beautiful.....then when we were done with that, there was a trombone sectional that the guys had to go to, so i went with Tina to the woodwind quintet. and Audrey was there! my evil twin! i had forgotten that she was the oboe in honor band all those years ago, so when we judged Capital i was like, "omg...is that Audrey? as the OBOE?" and when she met up with Chris and me later, she took one look at the oboe in my hand and was like, "i thought you were a clarinet?" and yeah. and it was funny, cause Borah had to leave the quintet early, so Audrey said bye to me and i waved back and said, "bye Audrey," and the room burst out laughing cause our names sound really similar.
and i tried to burn Advent Children onto DVD, since we're watching it for Anime Week starting Monday and it turns out the computer can't burn DVDs! unless it can, and i just don't know how. so for those that would know: how do you burn a DVD from Window's Media Player? IS it possible?
i guess that's all for tonight. don't want to bore y'all with my life
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Sunday, February 5, 2006

let me just say: oh my fucking god. my day was so fucking stressful. so after i got up this morning i went and played some actual DDR. not on controller, but on my dance pad and i tried doing standard and i averaged B's, so i could be our standard player at the DDR event until Bryan gets there. so i did that for about an hour, which really tired me out. so then, I Will Survive on heavy in Dance Master Mode has REALLY been giving me problems lately. the goal is to get letter grade A or higher. and i keep missing at least 1 step and it gives me a B and then i fail. wtf? mostly greats and perfects, but 1 good and i'm failed. so i played that song for an hour and i STILL haven't passed it. so while i was playing it for that hour, mom comes in and was all, "i want you to stop playing and do your chores," then leaves. but i REALLY wanted to pass this song so i can move on in Dance Master mode, but i STILL don't pass it. so she comes in later and was all, "i'm serious, i want you off and doing your chores. i'm not waiting another week for you to do them." and she just stands in the doorway and i still don't move so she uses all the usual threats of not paying me and grounding me from the Internet. but i still don't move. so she comes in again later and she FORCIBLY drags me out of the room and drives me out to Lucky Peak. the water was really low, which made me sad, but hopefully with all the rain and snow we got this year, there'll be a lot of run off. anyways, so i wander the lower water areas and i run off just to scare mom and make her worry. serve her right for forcing me against my will. not that i didn't think about making her worst fear come true, which, there, would have been finding a steep enough area, jumping off and landing in the water. but that would only have seriously hurt me and not killed me. there were people nearby anyways, so they would have rescued me. so i eventually wander back and when we get home i do my chores and later ask when i get paid and mom was all, "oh no, you don't get paid until you vacuum." and i'm just thinking, "wtf! AGAIN with the expecting to be able to read your mind and know what all my chores are!" and i was like, "you didn't tell me i had to vacuum!" and she was like, "yes i did, i've been telling you all week." no she fucking hasn't.
then i had another pep band game tonight. and Bryan was actually there tonight. and i went there all upset about the day and as soon as he came over and sat with me i felt SO much better. we seem to have that affect on each other. he said on Thursday that, for some reason, he was in a really bad mood, but right when i came over he was happy again. so yeah. and then Bryan told me about his day. how he had told Tom that he most likely wouldn't go into work today because he was a volunteer at the elementary choir festival so Tom told Dawne, their manager and she was like, "he's so fired." but one of the superiors was there and said, "no, he's a good worker. just suspend him." so he's suspended from work for two weeks now. when i heard that i was all, "then we need to go out and play DDR," and he was like, "yeah!" cause we've been planning to do that for a while. and he went on to tell how his mom was all mad at Tom, cause he ratted Bryan out and she was all, "how can you be defending him when he told on you?" and he said, "because he's my best friend."
and apparently, Chris, you're trying to set up Cory with Audrey. let me just say...: EW! Cory and Audrey! WRONG WRONG WRONG!
and Chris STILL hasn't been to Rockies, either, and we had plans that we would double date on the night of the first band concert. well, that's Tuesday, but i don't know if we'll be able to put it all together by then. but we can sure go for it! i think when Bryan told me Chris was setting up Audrey and Cory that we would have to all triple date. and even Chris has asked if we're dating again ^^;
well, that is all for tonight, for i must be forced against my will every Sunday morning to get up at 8 and go to church to worship a god that is never there for me.
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Saturday, February 4, 2006

hello all. it is late at night, and i'm still on, making fun of Spirited Away with nii-chan. even though we just love it to death. that's what you get when you put two smart asses together.
Thursday night was a district pep band game. and about half of our band was gone cause of that stupid orchestra concert. including Bryan TT.TT sad. but dude, that orchestra teacher scares me. she has only 7 fingers! and her pinky, at the second joint, makes a complete 90 degree angle! *shudders* it's freaky! but our girls won the basketball by a close margin of...62-43! yeah, i know, i was kidding. it was so awesome. cause once the score got to 40-20, we always remained ahead twice as much. we so rock. so now we play today at 7:30 at Capital again. and Bryan will be there today, so hopefully he'll come down and talk to me, unlike SOMEONE who won't *coughChriscough* and Tom keeps bugging Bryan and asking him if he's going out with me again. Bryan keeps saying no, but the next time Tom asks, i'm gonna say, "the subliminal messages say yes, but the people say no."
cause man, i don't know why, but Bryan really got scared off about something. he just had this feeling about him that said even i couldn't touch him. but BECAUSE i couldn't touch him for nearly a month, i have now discovered his "spot." you know how every guy has a special spot that when ONE PERSON touches them there, they melt? (and i'm not talking about the one below the belt, perverts. it's usually a random spot on their body.) and it is just SO fun! because i didn't touch him for so long, he has a really major reaction. the first time i found it, he slowly fell onto his knees, he was losing such feeling in his legs. and another time i did it, he actually fell over. and the best part is, he has no objections to me doing this. just so long as i don't do it while he's standing up. otherwise, he'll fall over again. but whatever he's doing, it can just make him freeze. so when he's doing Stepmania? i can make him just stop and fail the song. it usually just takes all his brain power when i'm doing it to keep talking.
what else? oh yeah. here is a great response to deep Catholics, Mormons, Christians, and any other person who loves "God"
AO is swiftly approaching. and i don't have ANYTHING. i'm bagging the blue shirt, because i found a Kyo cosplayer who did the school uniform and they used black. so fuck blue when i can use black! and i found a red skirt the other day at Saver's, but it had a white stripe in it and if i was to cut that off, the skirt would be even shorter >.< no giving Bryan ideas like THAT!
and i'm gonna go back on subject to Bryan. Bryan WAS going to, short of any better term, "force" me to the Valentine's dance, but he has the BSU Honor Band concert that night (which is what he went to practice for today right after school. no get to talk to him) so he couldn't force me then. and even if he did, he'd be helping out with the DDR event. which it's still pretty up in the air, even though the dance is NEXT WEEK! Student council needs to make up their minds whether or not we can hold our event! anyways, so Bryan's going to be "forcing" me to prom. he refuses to ask me because he's just SO sure i'll say no. wtf? suddenly everyone can predict me? i don't think so. Chris, you keep this on the hush-hush. if he were to ask me, of course i would say yes. and not under threat of being forced. i'm a girl, i can get all fancy when i want to. i would go with him because he asked me so of course i would go, even though i don't like going to dances. jesus...stupid boy. and Chris, like i said, be quiet about this. i think i convinced him to ask me, but he's going to surprise me. probably trying to catch me off guard so i'll immediatly say 'no' and prove him right.
mm, anyways, i should probably end this post now. me just rambling my life away...
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