Saturday, December 10, 2005

my parnets saw my progress report today. it wasn't a pretty sight. i now have a D in band, because i got a D on the test. and Mr. Sullivan explained to us that your grade on the test became your grade for the last 9 weeks. and my C in math has remained a C, and mom was mad at that. she said that since my grade's stayed there (hey, better than the F i had near the VERY beginning) i have to start bringing home more math work to practice on for tests (tests i do REALLY bad on, even though i DO get the material. my parents just say i'm stupid) and mom was asking me if my band problems were because of the oboe and if i should switch back to the clarinet. hell no! the oboe gives me a better chance at a scholarship than a clarinet ever could! besides, the problem wasn't the oboe, it was the test! it was just kinda because of the oboe that i missed all the info that was on the test. cause i was out of the room learning the oboe while he taught everyone else everything. so yeah. and my English teacher is fucking stupid and senile. i talked to her about our independent novel sheets (we were supposed to fill them all the way out with summaries of what we read) and i told her that MacBeth is a really short play and i'm a really fast reader, so i was only able to fill out 3. and she gave me an 18/40 on that. and on my presentation said stupid things like, "didn't look up" i know this will be a lame excuse, but i never took speech! i don't know the proper speech etiquette stuff things!
Hiei #23: but you know to look up and-mmffph!
AG: *puts duct tape away* so yeah. senile old bitch, i tell ya. and girls...i think i'll finally admit this...i'm not happy. when i talk about bryan, sometimes convos end in "so long as you guys are happy." and i realized...i'm really not happy. last week, he always came in late to lunch from some other engagement, like choir, or a chess tournament or senior items. but now that he's back again all i get is ignored while he plays games like Stepmania and has now gotten back into dueling. and he used to tell me that he'd call on weekends at, at first, was really good with that. now he doesn't. and today at lunch, not really a major thing, but still kinda hurtful: he didn't hug me after lunch before he headed off to jazz band. just walked ou the door with not even so much as a 'bye' or even a look back. and i haven't gone on a date since DIII! that was LAST MONTH! and with that today along with my parents telling me i'm stupid with more words....yeah, not one of my better days. what's the point in having a boyfriend when he's just a boy friend? i guess that's all for this week. pep band tomorrow with Chris, and Tina, and Bryan. i wonder if it's been as hard for Tina to go back to flute after bassoon as it was for me to go back to clarinet...
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