Saturday, September 9, 2006

Today I wore my lolita dress to school. It's okay quality. Well kind of bad. But for me it's okay. Being in school with lolita makes me want to dress like that daily... too bad I'm poor and can't sew well ;o; I really want that Angelic Pretty lucky bag that ended its auction yesterda but it was $200 and I only have $9.

Oh by the way this is what my dress was:



One day I'll definitely wear lolita daily!!! Hopefully by the end of winter break That's my new goal, but I don't think I'll be able to do it - too much time and money to finish my goal by then, you know? .___.; But maybe I'll be able to if my mom helps me sew a lot XDDD I just need a few blouses (I have a plain black and a plain white that work, but I'd like some frilly ones too from French Toast and maybe sew one. xD), plenty of skirts (skirts are easiest yay!) and probably I'll want a few JSKs as well. Oh and petticoats and the like. ^^;

But my new pattern book actually looks pretty simple, so hopefully it will be easier to sew some things. I really really really want that jumperskirt. Katie says the model looks like me but I don't think so. She's thinner. And her face looks kind of different (@x@);;

Art class got somewhat better because I don't have to sit next to the super-pro girl anymore x.x; I mean she seemed nice and everthing but everytime I looked at her drawing board I felt like dying. And I met someone! He went to Anime Expo too so that's why he looked familiar lol xD;

There's a place online called "mydeathspace.com" and it's a place where it lists people who died and it gives the reason of their death and then their birthday and deathday or something and the link to their myspace. At first I thought it was going to be some weird emo thing like deadjounral but then I was really shocked when I found out what it actually was. Out of curiosity I clicked a couple of profiles.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT. In a WEIRD CREEPY MORBID SCARY way.... it's kind of fascinating. Some people leave those RIP messages like "You'll always be remembered" - and then for some people.. a lot of the younger ones who died really, their friends still talk to them like they're alive. They'll just come by every once in a while and it's like they never even died.

Creepy, isn't it?

I know, I have no life.

But now I'm kind of curious what people would say if I died. It's one of those things you'll never be able to find out, because to find out you have to die, and if you die you can't see what they say. Maybe it's just life teasing us, and we're meant to never ever ever find out. But who knows. I wonder if I died if people would still talk to me or send me email messages or give me comments or something like that. I can't figure out if that's really nice or really creepy to me. Maybe a little bit of both.
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