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Monday, June 5, 2006
Sorry for leaving a dramastic filled post last night and not even visiting anyone.
I finished re-doing the layouts for my clubs. And I did it all by myself! Yay! Well, I followed some tutorials though! ^^ so, here they are, Anti Hentai Club and Momiji Club.
I was visiting a site on my friends list and they said that they were failing and going to kill themselves. Now, I want to bring up this topic for just a little bit. Don't worry, it won't be too long.
I don't want to sound all full of myself but, this is what I commented:
It's not worth it. I'll tell you point blank, don't do it. People care about you more than you believe. Your only what, 14? And you'll be 15 in 13 days. You have, your whole life ahead of you. Failing is a part of life. A part of life that is nesecary to go on. We learn from our mistakes. But, if you kill yourself, there will be no learning to be done. Only hurt for the people that loved you that you left behind. I know this is going to sound mean but, your being selfish. The only person you are thinking about is yourself. Even though you say that you don't want to dissapoint your mother, it's still all about you. Open up your eyes and look around. You can achieve if you life and have fun in life. Maybe that trip to Disney World will loosen you up. Or take a walk with your mother around the neighboorhood or at a nearby park and talk to her. Tell her whats going on. She can help. Trust me. If she's anything like my mother, she can help.
Killing yourself would be a waste of a life that is just about to bloom into a wounderful person. Just don't do it, okay? And trust yourself overall. You can do whatever you set your mind to if you work hard. If you do fail, there is always next time to try and achive. Failing would be a pety thing to kill yourself over. So, live your life to the fullest.
I want everyone that thinks of killing themselves to keep that in mind okay? Even though you've probably heard most of that stuff from school teachers, friends, parents, ect. It's the truest thing in life you will ever hear. And on another subject close to that, hurting yourself as in cutting or anyother form of mutilation.
I had a friend at the haunted house I volentered at this past october that did that. You guys that were my friends around that time still might remember that. We were constantly taking her razors away. And when she started burning her cloths we took the lighters away too. She'd always yell at us and whine about how she needed them. Yes I understand that you may be in a lot of perdicaments at home and you think that hurting yourself is the only way out, well, it's not. The only thing that you will get is guilt when you look at yourself. Especially when you get older and get out of the hm, I don't want to call it this but, "phase" and notice how stupid you were for doing that. She always had her journal with her with poems about hate and dying and her own blood smeared on it. How could I tell is was real and not fake and that it was hers? Easy. The blood faded to a brown-ish color (which blood does when it's left out to sit on something for a long time) and I saw her doing it. Her story didn't really affect me as much as I heard that my neighboor's own son was cutting himself. I really hope it's not true but, I'm afraid it maybe is. Because at school one time, his wallet got tooken away from one of the teachers and they found a razor blade in there.
I've grown up with his since 1999 when we moved into this house. So, thats 7 years. He was always really a care free little kid. We'd all play baseball or fottball or anything else and all of us, all 7-8 of us would joke around. But, with the beging of 7th grade this year he's, changed. A lot. I didn't really notice it at first that it bothered me but, it does. He's not my friend now I don't think but, I still want him to achieve in life and not see him go down before he gets a chance by either some other punk that thinks it's cute or by his own hand. I'd be, totaly crushed if someone I've know for that long, and know him personaly, would die. Even more if he did it himself. I always tell my other two friends that, 'Hell no, I don't care about him' but, truth is, he's like a little brother to me. I kind of still want to stay in middle school while he's finishing up his last year there this next year. Just to watch him you know? Make sure he doesn't do something totally stupid. But, it just really pains me to see someone that young, do stuff like that.
Well, I guess that was kinda of long. Sorry...I just kinda felt like talking about everything right now. Sorry. |
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