I gave up on what happened yesterday so I'm not going to worry about it- no worries.
Well I've finally finished that play list. Give or take a few songs, give me some requests and I'll consider putting them up. I'm still messing with the surroundings of the player. I don't care how blank it makes the page look.
Questions:
1) If you were to request a song what would It be?
2) If you could go back to any time (in your life or in history) where would you go and why?
3) Do you feel like you belong with the group you currently hang out with?
4) Say the movie I am Legend or 28 Days Later (epidemic movies) came true. You were left alone maybe with one or two other people. Where would you hide and what would be your plan to stay alive?
Today was not a good day. Things seems like they're completely reversing. When comparing myself before I moved and now, it's opposite.
Before: I hated to go outside, I hate to talk, I loved being online and having fun with people online. The few friends I had in real life were fun to be with But here online I could keep attention of people and I felt like I was somewhat of a focus.. I know that is a little rude but I'm telling the truth.
Now: I love going outside, I love to talk, I don't care to be online even though I do, I don't seem to talk to that many people online anymore though, The friends I had back at home now seem to hate me and hang up on me when I call. Online I feel like I've been diserted and there's nothing keeping my attention or to keep my here. I love the few people I know now and I feel like "Where did everyone go?"
I keep typing a paragraph then deleting it and typing it again. You guys really don't care or want to read it I know that. I try to keep that stuff off here because it annoys people. I know because if I were someone coming buy I wouldn't want to. I'm just so frustrated I can't let it go.
I want to change this theme, (1.1 not 2.0) just because I'm getting bored with it. It's colorful but just seems to be very flat to me at the moment. I'll try to get more 3-D with it if I decide to.
Je T'aime, Pari donc je veux un thème français mais je ne sais pas (comment?) à. Ou vraiment... Je n'ai aucune idée.
..C'est pour mon amie- Bou. appreces- bou! juste un peu.
Other "news" I doubt I'll finish that picture (cheetah) i'm doing right now for awhile. It's 20 by 18 (i think). The second largest I've ever done if not The- I can't remember honestly. I started doing other things like colored pencil flowers but am having some artist block.. and Google block it looks like, no one seems to have good pictures anymore.
I was drawing something at applebees earlier and a person that was sitting on the upper deck was looking at it. I gave it to him at the end of the night. I wasn't sure what to do with it honestly and plus I normally give them away. I only have about two or so.
Hey guys- well you'll get a laugh out of this.
I have a tendency to lock things behind me so they're not stolen or broken into. Aka my car, the house, lock boxes etc-
well finally my 'good' habbit has even kept me out!
I got home today and as normal got dressed and went out on the dock. I had eaten a cerial bar while i was on the dock and went back in the house to throw the wrapper away. Only one problem- the door was locked.
PRAYING someone was home and mistakenly locked it I looked under the carport but there was no one there. By the Church bells I knew it was still sometime around 3:30-3:50 no one gets home till 5:00.
I had to come up with a wide list of assorted things to do. They included..
1) Finish reading a book I had taken outside with me. (338 pages. longest i've ever read)
2) Going in the water up to my knees and playing with the pinecones under water xD
3) Riding a bike... haven't done that in awhile, sort of forgot how to stop at first xD
I've been moaning and groaning all day. My back is aboslutely killing me. I don't know how I strained it. It could be from my bookbag which is incredibly heavy or from bending over at work so much.. or both even. -_-
Hey guys-
Well yesterday I had to be to work at 5:00 and it sucked... I was there till 11:30. We're still paid $4.00 an hour which is outragous and you know the guy kept coming up to me "Oh well you need to do this this way- and this that way" ... ha yeah you pay me $7 an hour and I'll consider doing that.
I mean if you're standing at the hostess podeum and not 5 feet away from it by the baloons then they get mad. It's rediculous. I want to quit so bad but I mean god I can't find a job anywhere that I actually would prefer more. I'd like to just work in a different resturant or something but I don't know where to go.
>_< everyone's fucking doing things down stairs at the crack of dawn and now someone's using a nail gun in the downstairs room RIGHT BELOW MINE. giving me a headache -_- it's too cold to go outside and no one wants to talk to me today-
Today I kinda realized that I got a wish of mine I'd made when I was in elementary school. lol I wanted to be popular, speak up, have a say but really more so be happy. All day today I was having fun with people that I'd always looked at as the "it's not my crowd because they're too pretty and popular and loud and fun but I envy them and wanted to be apart of it" and today I was actually apart of all the groups in school I'd wanted to be in. The people I sit with at lunch, my french class group, english class one.. It was really a lot of fun that i've gotten to branch out more now that i'm in a different school and have a decent amount of confidence instead of thinking everyone hates me in real life.
Here's two video's I found the other day. They're short (30sec) but soo funny. I suggest them if you have time.
I think this is honestly the most happy and at peace I've been with myself in my entire life. Lately I've been content, very little (if ever) angry(mostly towards school), relaxed and just at peace finally. Once I moved I missed chalreston so much. Even now I still do but here it's quiet and you sit out in the sun all day and all night. I get so much done and am just finally at peace.
My dad calls me everyonce and awhile still though.
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He asked "This isn't my daughter? Who is this?" I told him "It's your ex-wife's daughter." I laughed and so did he even though I knew it bothered him. I see now it gave him pleasure to see me unhappy and I am just so happy to be rid of him.. I cry just thinking about it.
I AM EXCITED (-duh). I told my french teacher awhile back I RELALY want to go to France. REALLY- She said they don't have trips to France so i'm out of luck. GUESS WHAT there's a trip going now- it's 10 days 8 nights in France for $3,750. ohhh damn I want to go and god that's expensive but I really want to go!!!!! I'll go even if i'm spending every last dime i have!! (which is not smart) [DISCLAIMER: Jae is not responsible for anyone wasting their money on trips xD]
I've been cooking lately. I'm kinda getting into it. I didn't realize i was good at cooking- i mean my dad never let me cook because laura thought she was too good for hamburgers.
Yesterday I cooked:
• Lemon-basil stripped bass
• stir-fry-Soy-Sauced carrots and sting beans
• Portabella Mushrooms
Today I cooked:
• Whole grain spaghetti added in with-
• Lemon grilled chicken
• Tossed carrots and Broccoli
yummm but i don't think anyone liked the pasta though *sighs* i did though-
Mkay well no one heard my rant on my job. After two days- I'm thinking about quitting.. Honestly I am.
The manager, Mike.. Is just so rude to everyone. I love carol, he's fine but Mike is downright disrespectful to everyone else in there.
They don't pay well (4$ an hour)
They are rude and disrespect their employees
The place is a mess constantly and no one cleans.
For some reason they expect the hostesses to clean things like the bathrooms as if we were maids. I'm sorry but for 4$ an hour I'm not going to do that and even if they did pay more I wouldn't.
Today I was just talking to Sarah and He comes over and throws a stack of menu's on top of my hand then walks away. The place where the menu's go is probably... maybe 4inches from where my hand was.
He disrespected sarah and I by telling us something, then why we go to explain, he just walks away. god i'm so mad!!!
