Wednesday, August 15, 2007

I'm so tired of getting out of bed.

*hangs head* guys...I'm so sorry I haven't been commenting alot...band camp is eating my soul. I go at 7:30 in the morning, and by the time I get back home at 4, I'm so exhausted. it's ridiculous. things from last week have been pretty much resolved I guess..I'm feeling pretty crappy though. I don't know if I can make it in school this year. I can bareley handle my issues now. my percussion instructer made me cry today. I'm so pathetic. I was feeling extrmeley depressed today, for a bunch of reasons, and he basically told me that it was my fault my section sucked so bad. he goes, your attitude is bringing your peers down, I really expected more from your potential today, I'm dissapointed in you. *stab through the heart* it was just the icing on the cake...it pushed me over and I couldn't help but feel overwhelemed. I tried to pull it together, but I couldn't and cried. I'm not a drama crier though. I didn't want tons of poeople to coo to me. I excused myself and went into the hall. fantastic day. my friends jill and sheryl came and helped me out..and then they invited me to go to dinner with them, so that made me feel better, even though I feel to tired to do anything. they ususally don't do that. I really just want to go to sleep right now. I'll be forced to eat something if I go too. but as I said...they never do things like this for me..so I'll go. =_=' I hafta go get ready now...so I'll be leaving.. sorry for the emo-filled post. take care everyone *hugs*

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