Thursday, October 25, 2007

bottoms up!

I only got two comments...so I guesss everyone else is kinda like bah screw her now. ;_; well thankyooh zillions to becki and nicole! :3 so yes...I was admitted to first hospital on wed. after loosing control so bad I tried to kill myself by slitting my wrists... the police were called, and an ambulance came a took me to the ER where I was patched up, and of course, sent to the psych ward. there they evalulated me and sent me to first hospital adolescent center. I don't think of this as a step backward though. it was sort of a step forward, because I did end up getting the help I needed badly. my moods were too out of control for me to handle. and now I have new pills for bipolar 1 and major depression. they make me really tired and spacey, but my docter said it would go away soon. @_@ anyway, the expeirence at the hospital was interesting. I made two friends whom I'll be in contact for hopefully a long long time. we really helped eachother through, even though I ended up getting out before them. but I'm hanging out with the one named brittany this friday. ^_^ so, it was basic mental hospital stuff. no sharp objects, ect. if you've ever read the book cut, it was just about exactly like that, except no smoking. if you haven't read that book, I suggest you do, it's a fantastic read. group therapy and ot really were good. it's like....such an unexplainable experience, mostly because the illnesses I have are difficult to truly explain. but everything about the hospital was good for me. and I'll never forget it. so basically, life has been really ridiculous latley. but things are getting better. I kept a sort of journal type thing when I was there, and if you want, I can type it up here day by day. I only wrote every other day though. it really is interesting to read...I mean....there's nothing like spending time at a loony bin. ahahaaa, yeah. but if you don't really care then just say so and I won't put it up, lol. well I hafta go now, I have lots of homework to do.... but that's another good thing. I've been in school 3 days in a row(*self fives*) and I'm caring about my school work more, so I'll most likely pass my first semester now. because my teachers are taking notice of my changed behavior. ^____^ so, I hope you're all doing fabulous. X3 and have an awesome day!! **giant super humongo hugs** I'm off to visit sites now! (lol, finally!)

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