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Friday, July 28, 2006


   Depressing


.:Bbast:.


It seems like every time I hear more news, it's about someone who has died or committed suicide. Three guys from the graduating class before my oldest bro's have committed suicide in the last year! That's a lot! And my school community has lost like nine or ten people in the last school year, too. It's sad. Plus, and not many poeple knew about my loss, but my birth mother just committed suicide in May (ya, the month for mothers). I have a very confusing family, and it involves three adopted siblings, two older step bro's, a step mom who later adopted me, and my real dad. I love my daddy! Anywho, Alex, Mia, adn Ramiro are adopted from Guatemala. They're pretty cool, and whenever Alex or Mia get on my nerves, I threaten to ship them back to guatemala in a very small box!! Muhahaha, I'm so evil! But, back to mi real madre, after she died my grandparents didn't even bother to tell she died until two days before the memorial service! I didn't even get to go to her FUNERAL!!!! I just feel like I should've been able to do something for her. My mother, Kathi, was bipolar. She was pretty messed up with alcohol and drugs and stuff. I remeber living in at least six different homes as a kid, and most of them with random people and boyfriends and stuff. I guess whenever I would come and visit my dad, I would always have lice and sores and my feet would be cut up and stuff. I guess it wasn't very pleasant. But when they told me she had died, they also bothered to tel me that i had three step sisters that I had never heard of, and the littlest, Ashley, has lots of problems because she was born premature and my mom was drinking and doing crack and stuff when she was pregnant with her. That's when i hate her and wonder how she could love her children and do that to them. Ashley's been in the hospital hooked up to tubes for her whole 1 or 2 years of life! God, it makes me so mad!!!!! I can't talk abou this anymore. Peace out
Britt.



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