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myOtaku.com: bebopinutrigun188

Friday, February 17, 2006

I'm sorry for not posting. Either I was too tired to stay up until 11 p.m. to post or I knew that I was going to end up posting something so long that no one would want to read it. I might as well post it now. Sorry that this is going to be long, I'll try to make it as quick as I can XD

Well on Monday we had school off because of Abraham Lincoln's birthday. Yay for Honest Abe! Around 4 p.m. I had to be at the Crowne Plaza hotel for this convention thing we had. It's for the honors' society at my school, called BETA club. Being 8th graders, we got to sleep over at the hotel for the convention. It was a lot of fun. I got to room with some of the most awesome gals on the Earth and got to hang with Parris a lot. Oh yeah, we're back together which I'll get to all those details later. He got me this cute little Valentine's gift, complete with the card, stuffed animal, rose, and chocolates. All the girls thought we were so "cute".
We almost got kicked out at like 2 a.m. because the tape on our door (they used it to make sure we didn't sneak out after curfew) wasn't intact. I'm not sure how it happened. First, we got locked out because we all forgot our keys inside and we all looked like idiots sitting in front of our door in pajamas waiting to get let back in. I think after they finally unlocked the door, I cracked it open to reclose it because it wasn't completely shut and the tape kinda slipped. I heard it untape, but I didn't think it came off completely. Luckily she believed we weren't trying to sneak out and let us stay.
I ended up just talking on the phone all night and getting 2 hours of sleep.

Tuesday we finished up the convention and just went home and did our homework. Even though it ended before school did, we got to go straight home.

The whole Parris thing is confusing me. All of yesterday I didn't even feel like seeing him since I spent so much time with him at the convention. I kinda felt like I was having a Parris overload. It helped me realize that my first feelings had been right, me and Parris aren't meant to be together. Friends was just fine with me and it was actually more fun and less awkward than going out. I was talking to my friend Zack today and he asked me why I'm going out with Parris if I don't "like" him (as in have a crush on him).
I really don't think that having a "crush" on someone is a good idea to go out with them. Just because I think someone's cute doesn't mean I want to go out with them. That's what a crush is in my opinion, but I don't even like Parris as in the boyfriend kind of way. I see him as one of my best friends and it sucks because he likes me a lot. All my friends think we're so cute because he adores me so much, but I feel bad because I don't feel the same way. The BETA convention and Zack helped me realize that. It's not like I can break up with him now though. We've only been going out for a week and it'd make it seem like I was going out with him just for the Valentine's gifts or something because of the timing. I feel really bad about leading him on and the only thing that'll make this bad feeling going away is doing something that'll make me feel worse... breaking up with him again.
For some reason, I keep on thinking of a little comment that lordsesshomaru gave me a while back. "People break up for a reason" and I guess I forgot that reason when I said yes.

I don't want to jump to conclusions and break up with him right away so I'm going to wait and see how I feel after a few days. I hope I become less confuzzled >_<

Laters

P.S. I made this Valentine's card on Monday but never got to post it up! Happy Late Love Day!!

Click for Love Day card!

Laters again! I hope you had a good week ^___^

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