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Wednesday, December 13, 2006
About being a fangirl in the deepest sense.
My recent surge of interest in that-English-band-I-haven't-stopped-talking-about-the-past-couple-weeks prompted me to ask myself whether I'll ever be as deeply attached to a band as I was in middle school.
I don't think it would necessarily be a good thing. It's far less damaging for someone to like a band (or an actor or artist or whatever) for their work alone rather than carrying all the emotional baggage that comes with liking the musicians themselves. But it's very difficult, perhaps impossible for some, to really devote yourself to something without embracing all aspects of it. Lord knows plenty of Lennon fans probably feel that way, and I think I believe it too.
I don't know if I ever really want to go back to those days. There's something very painful about attaching yourself to people you'll never really know or be able to give back to. But at the same time, I learned and felt a lot of things that I never would have experienced in the dozens of other hobbies I've caught onto throughout my life. I do miss it sometimes.
I suppose my real point in all this is to warn those who find themselves fangirling or fanboying over a person for the first time (a person, not a character, because it is an entirely different experience) to prepare themselves for a world of frustration along with that deep sense of respect and fascination.
To add some actual music to this post that's kind of about music, and more importantly to show off my latest "most favorite band EVERZ," I'll throw in a music video:
And I apologize if I freaked anyone out with this sudden sentimental babble. I've never been obsessed with anything in my life, but I'm often extremely dedicated. :)
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