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• Wrote a 157 page book and am working on a sequel that is 50+ pages long at the moment.
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• Eh...fifth grade, I think.
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• Digimon Forever! Followed further back by Yu-Gi-Oh.
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• Get my darn book published... REWRITTEN
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Tuesday, June 29, 2004
Why?
Why can't I just sleep?
It's 2:50 AM. I've stayed up later than this in the past week or so, but in the past few days I'd done better.
I'd lain (laid?) in bed for the past two or three hours. Sleep did not come for me. I don't know what it is. I just don't get it. WHY CAN'T I JUST GO TO SLEEP?!
I feel like I could cry. But I don't; I won't. I don't even know if I can, at this present time. I'd like to, if only for some sort of release.
I feel tired, but at the same time, I feel like I could not be tired.. It's an odd feeling. I am physically tired, but I feel as if I could stay up until the sun rises. And I could do so, if only to do that one thing; to watch the sun rise.
Oh, everything just seems so awful now. Alone, in the dark. My thoughts are odd. Sometimes they are linear, going from thought to thought, and other times there's nothing. I'm just empty of ideas for a moment. Shouldn't sleep take me then?
I wish I could understand this, and make it right.
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