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Monday, October 25, 2004


   Zzzzzzz......
I'm running on four and a half hours of sleep, don't bug me. Well actually, I'm not running anywhere. Just sort of puttering from place to place, waiting for the nearest weekend or something to scoop me up.

I just recently realized that I've been sleeping very well since school started. I'm still staying up later than I should, but it's because I have homework to do. Last year, and especially over the summer, I stayed up without a cause. I couldn't sleep, even though I felt like I was insanely tired and needed to sleep.

Having studied sleep recently in psychology, I think I had a case of sleep onset insomnia. It basically means what it says. A person can't sleep when they try to get to sleep. I forget the reasons for it or the way to treat it, but it's sort of irrelevant now.

With all of the stresses that have been placed upon me this year: increased homework load, papers to write every week or so, drama, up-and-coming fencing, up-and-coming Youth Ministry at my church, and then finally, my new job; I fall asleep just as soon as my head hits the pillow. Sleep is such a relief for me. It's such a great and brief escape. Until I get some decent sleep on the weekends, my days all seem to be one. They're only briefly disconnected by these periods of sleep.

I want to sleep right now. I still have work to do that's due Wednesday, and I'm not sure I'll have time to do it tomorrow night. My Off period tomorrow has already been assigned to writing out flash cards for Sociology. I have Psychology homework supposedly due tomorrow, but I don't even have the class tomorrow. The screwy thing about that class is, I don't know whether or not the homework is still do, regardless of our missing class. >_<

Lots of things to do and understand, and there's just so little time to do them.

I look forward to the fencing season, and at the same time I fear its imminent arrival. I would wholly love to have an outlet for my stress, and being embroiled in a match is something that does just that. On the other hand, practices are two to three times a week, and meets take up much of Saturday mornings and into the afternoons.

But still, I really want to fence somebody. I have this unnerving desire to hold my foil in my hand and to attack and defend, advance and retreat, parry and riposte. By God, I want to fence already!










I must be really tired right now....

Comments 'n Stuff

Shin: You can pull crazy stuff out of thin air, but I can make mundane matters entertaining! Just take a look at what I've written concerning my daily life. :p

Aleia: The whole 'slip-up' and 'unexpected injury' thing was entirely coincidental. =p

Anatema: Indeed. :0

Mimmi: At this point, posting regularly has become a habit almost, or an obligation. Heh, it has taken the precedence of homework many a time since we started. ;p

Solo: Don't tell me I encouraged you to stay. O-o;; Nooooooooo!

;p


Alrighty then, I'm off to see if I can't orchestrate myself some sleep.

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