TIME: 8:50am, Friday
Summary of what I was going to post today: no more exams.... fuck yeah. Older brother is being an ass lately, opening MY fucking mail for no reason, and being a dick head, throwing my ps2 and Guitar Hero guitar. Most important, I have a 5 day break now, I start art next week (and I am unbelievably stoked, you don’t even know, I have been counting down the days!). To top it off, I finally got my “Life on the Murder Scene” dvd by My Chemical Romance.
So today is my personal post, where I feel like talking about music. Imight talk aboutcoming into anime sometime, or art, or whatever, this is just on my mind. Its long, so, have a good sit down.
Anyway, I wanted to discuss my second coming, which is music. I call it that because NOTHING in my life had meant anything to me until I hit grade 7, when I discovered anime and Linkin Park at the same time. Anime was my godsend. It was honestly everything to me, and Linkin Park was my introduction to music, rather, a music that I had chosen to like, not something someone else showed me, or said “hey, this is good, listen”, it was something I discovered and loved, and I thrived in it. So, until actually the beginning of the 10th grade, I was in my anime kingdom, which I’m unfortunately famous for. That sounds negative, but I’m the anime kid to people who know my artwork, but I’m 17, and I don’t want that to be me. It also doesn’t help that I won my ipod by drawing anime, which is displayed at the Saint John airport in New Brunswick, but it’s the best of both worlds. That won’t happen again. (If your ever around here, you’ll see it. Don’t ask why its there, I don’t know. I live no where near there, but I saw it ^_^)
This is kinda what leads me into what I am doing now. In grade 6, my friend I had known for 2 years, Shawn, introduced me to my now best friend Matt. He’s like, a fucking music guru. He is the most unlikely looking person to know anything about the subject, but he knows a lot. He introduced me to all these amazing bands that were like Linkin Park, and sounded alike, and that’s when I developed my genre, rock. Honestly, when I hit grade 10, anime died inside me, and its still dead. I hate to break that to everyone here on this anime website, but I could really care less if I download the new Naruto or Bleach. Yeah, I talk about it to people, but I only watch the shit on tv now. I watch the fucked up brutal shit, rated M stuff, cause lets face it, I’m 17, almost 18, and that’s of my age now. But back to Matt, I influenced him with anime, and I impacted him, like a lot. He was so fucking into Naruto, and I didn’t even say much, and in return, he showed me all these amazing bands after I tried to push Linkin Park on him. So, last summer, before I started grade 11, my current grade, I was exploring all these new songs, downloading like crazy, buying all kinds of shit, and putting it on my nice new ipod. And when summer hit, Matt started talking to me about things he saw on tv, on Much Music, which was a channel I didn’t have. I had been watching MTV Canada, which was fucking gay, had shit for music, which was what I wanted to learn about and explore. I only watched it for Linkin Park, which was my driving obsession, I mean, their words were my bible. Everything about them I loved. I’m the kind of person who when I get into something, I’m like, right fucking into it, hardcore. I want to know everything, learn everything that’s there to learn, and I love the inside look into it. MTV Canada wasn’t delivering. So during the summer, I went to Nova Scotia to hang out with my cousin for a week, and they had Much ^_^ Imagine my joy, because the summer was my introduction to Three Days Grace. That was Matt. He got me into them, made me listen to their music, which I didn’t want to do, but then he played me their cd, and I was hooked. So that was the Three Days Grace summer, and I learned a lot about them, and music like theirs.
So I come home from Nova Scotia, and I immediately ordered Much Music. The parents didn’t know what the hell was up with me, cause ya know, all I was doing at this point was sitting in my room with the ipod, or on the computer, watching music videos, listening to music and shit, and then I started buying my own satelite programming! I wasn’t discussing anime with them anymore, for the hell of it, or showing them anime drawings I’d done. I got Much, and the My Chemical Romance bomb dropped a month later. Go look at a September post the day after “Welcome to the Black Parade” music video premiered on tv. I trashed MCR so fucking hard. I had hated them. I got the bad taste in my mouth of “these guys are fucking weird” when I saw “Helena” like, 2 years ago, during my Linkin Park is god thing. LP had been out of the scene for awhile though, like, I came into them after “Meteora” so, it was dying down. But, sometime in October, everything I had thought I liked, everything I listened to, my opinions, it all went to hell. I accepted “Welcome to the Black Parade” as a good song. I downloaded it in October, scared the jesus out of Matt, who never saw it coming. I then pretty much through him a curve ball when out of no where I bought “The Black Parade” about.... maybe two or three weeks after the release. He honestly doesn’t know what happened to me, and denies he had any effect on my musical coming. He shows me all kinds of new stuff now, surprised I’m so open to everything, and accepting, like Panic! At the Disco and Fall Out Boy. I just, opened up, stepped out of the rock room and explored other genres after MCR hit me like a brick. So, I embraced MCR. It’s a strange thing.
I was told recently by some dude named Boo on Frank-Iero.net that I am not a typical MCR fan, and I shouldn’t talk the way I do when I write news about them, and I should be more of an emo kid. It made me laugh, cause when you think of it, I am so fucking out there in the way of stereotypes. I look nothing like an anime fan, like a music fan, like an artist, like an insanely academic kid, or even a girl, considering this gay ass bus driver keeps calling me sir.... but who cares. I come from the Linkin Park tree. I’m that hip hop looking kid who is into thinks you totally wouldn’t expect.
That is what this whole story is about. It started with Linkin Park, which gave me an identity, it gave me something to say, something to relate to, and something to say I really, really loved and enjoyed, and was my favourite thing in the world next to anime at the time. And now, it has evolved into how I behave, how I speak, how I criticise, and voice my opinion. Most of all, it has changed my way of thinking. What is this? This is my musical influence. That is a spawn of my Linkin Park love and my My Chemical Romance obsession. Yes, its full blown now. I can honestly say I care about nothing that I liked in the 7th grade, the 8th, the 9th, or the 10th. The only thing that is important is music. Fuck, I want to be a drummer because of Bob. I give a shit about what happens to my favourite bands. I don’t just have a phase where all I listen to is someone, then transition onto the next new thing. Its this undeniable interest and love in something that makes me feel good when I hear it, and its this background music that is always in my head now. It never goes away. I don’t think of drawing anime characters, what just happened in the latest chapter of Death Note and Naruto, I think about how I can express myself because of the music playing in my head.
This is a pretty weird thing for me to write, as I don’t think I ever have before. Its like a journal, which is something I don’t do. I just post here to talk to me friends, to give people something to talk about, because that’s what I like to do. But I just wrote a fucking essay and you know why? Because I have been watching “Life on the Murder Scene” and I’m having a blast. I am indulged in everything I just talked about. I am getting the inside look, learning so much about something I love, and that background music..... it won’t fucking go away ^_^
Peace out, thanks for reading homies.
Oh, word up KanuckGrrl for owning 3rd place in the theOtaku Breast Cancer art contest. I forgot about that yesterday. Making Canadian artists everywhere proud ^_~ |
