TIME: 8:22am, Saturday
Applying for scholarships is draining, and kinda gets me down every time I investigate or even think about it.
To much work for something I’m likely not to get.
Its like buying a $500 dollar lotto ticket because the people tell you your odds are 1 in 5. They are lying just to get your time and money.
So, I’m dead.
Totally tired, and I’ve felt this way for a week. Maybe its why I’m feeling negative about things, no matter what they are.
That being said, I gained some ground in the brownie points chart.
Basically, within my group of friends, and outside of it.
Seniors at my school, I dunno, we have this bond. We all know each other, and we’re all friends. Even people I never knew, they know me, and so we’re all happy and friend-like. Ya dig? Its cool, I must say.
The inside scope, well, my existence is acknowledged more-so. I dunno, I’ve been feeling a little left out of conversations, jokes, activities, mostly because what they are into, I’m not (ie. Drinking, pot... drinking) mind you, this is a BIG group of friends, though we all hang out, everyday at school, I have felt outside of that, I’m not a big deal. As of yesterday, I felt differently. Who knows why. The air just smelt nice from my side of the table.
This entire post has made.... no sense.
Honestly, I have no idea what I just wrote. I’m sleepy.
Oh, I aced my math test, my Chemistry mark is okay, Math mark is fantastic, and.... Political Science test was a disaster.
Gotta work now.
Bye bye.
CoDy |
