Friday, April 21, 2006

   Rawrrrrrrrrr~~ Angry Rant post! Fair Warning to everyone
time: 5:25 pm

mood: pissed/upset/bleh/tired/glad to be home

song: "Ordinary World"-Aurora


Came in from a rainy Thursday on the avenue
Thought I heard you talking softly
I turned on the lights, the TV and the radio
Still I can't escape the ghost of you
What is happening to it all?
Crazy some say
Where is the life that I recognize?
Gone away

* But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way to
the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence
once prompted you to say
Pride will tear us both apart
Well now pride's gone out the window
Cross the rooftops, runaway
Left me in the vacuum of my heart

What is happening to me?
Crazy some say
Where is my friend when I need you most?
Gone away

* repeat

Papers in the roadside tell of suffering and greed
Feared today forgot tomorrow
Here beside the news of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk
Blown away

Just blowing away

And don't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way to
the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Every world is my world

Any world is my world

---End---



Well today started out fun, Jenifer and I had opened a new deck of cards from the teacher and we played go-fish.
Though at the end we found out there were five 7's and three 8's so we made the extra 7 an 8 of spades ..using a black permie..it was sooo weird but the teacher got the biggest kick out of it.

Anywho..Onto my rant (this is where you can leave now if ya want)

Selen: hoo boy..*grimance*


Ok boys and girls, if a friend tells you that the "attempted suiside" for the...4th time I believe? How do you feel? Pissed and upset? You *care* for your friend after all.
Well, lets just say I had to deal with it.
My friend was talking about how last night she attempted suiside again and that she cant take life anymore since no one seems to care and how alot of our friends are "heartless" and "assholes". So when the other girls were showering her with "Its ok" and such so adterwards I went up to her and told said how she shouldnt be doing this in the first place, since we are after all in highschool; we're going to meet assholes and such! She glared at me and had her arms crossed the whole time, talking back about different things; which I can relate to since I went through the EXACT same crap pretty much and Im still here and happy.
She tries walking away from me and I hold her arm and tell her I cant because I care about her I want her to know this and not ignore me or roll her eyes like she did.
This happened a few more times, finally she yelled for me to let go and I didnt do it so she yells again and I let go, reaaalllllyyyy pissed off.
I wanted to smack her soooo badly and let her see reality but, I didnt. I just grabbed my things and went to a seculded spot to cool off away from everyone.
I've cooled off alot more so Im not as pissy but still Im upset as well since I worry and if she does do something I'll be scareming at her grave as to why she did this and how all her friends will be here and she'll realze that we DO care!
mnaasfkgsdfkugwefkgbdhgadkugakughfiugdf;kuadfgukedfkjuzxbsdkjljhxdgy!!!!
>_<
*eats grapes*

Selen: *pats head* Yeah, its okies

Atleast we get to go to O-con at O'Conner..>_>
Sooo if any of you want to go~~ IM me! ;D

(O'conner is in TX)
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

You know you hate it when...
Time: 6:35 PM

Mood: sick/irratated/emu/calm/bleh

song:"Gravity Of Love"- Enigma
"O Fortuna velut Luna" "O Fortune like the Moon"
Turn around and smell what you don't see
Close your eyes ... it is so clear
Here's the mirror, behind there is a screen
On both ways you can get in
Don't think twice before you listen to your heart
Follow the trace for a new start
What you need and everything you'll feel
Is just a question of the deal
In the eye of storm you'll see a lonely dove
The experience of survival is the key
To the gravity of love
"O Fortuna velut Luna" "O Fortune like the Moon"
[Whispers]
[Woman :]
The path of excess leads to
The tower of Wisdom
[Man :]
The path of excess leads to
The tower of Wisdom
[Whispers]
Try to think about it ...
That's the chance to live your life and discover
What it is, what's the gravity of love
"O Fortuna
velut Luna" "O Fortune
like the Moon"
Look around just people, can you hear their voice
Find the one who'll guide you to the limits of your choice
But if you're in the eye of storm
Just think of the lonely dove
The experience of survival is the key
To the gravity of love.
"O Fortuna
velut Luna" "O Fortune
like the Moon"
--end--

I dont know why Im in such a pissy mood but I seem to snap alot lately.
Selen: Maybe its just this whole.."TAKS" thing..or just certain people..

Yeah most likely Selen, heh..
Shes been my sanity these past few days I guess..*shrugs* eh oh well.
I think I need to stop thinking so much cause it doesnt help much. X.X
Like whose a true friend or not ya know? I always wonder that, since *naive* me seems to get stabbed in the back alot it seems.
Oh well, Im starting to not care anymore. Im just starting to close-up again like last time so before I know it I wont be able to tell anyone how I feel.
Yeah, I dont particualr like telling it or if I try and say something, all I get is a B.S answer.
Like if Im angry, I am so called "cute".....That pisses me off more.
Selen: *shudder*

Ugh! *hits head on desk* I*smack*Hate*smack*People*smack* who call me CUTE when Im mad! >____<
*deep breath*
Ok Ok calm is me..

Selen:...*goes to room*

*Sigh* Shes been doing that lately, she'll disappear for a period and just lock herself up in there, it worries me.
Since..shes *never* this *shrugs* Shes just been so...out-of-it sometimes..
eh onto other things..something more..um..POSITIVE.

Ok, well Im going to Steele Prom with my bisexual friend Paul :)
Such a sweetie, and I know he seems to try and bug the crap out of me until I say something to him. heh.

well.Im off.
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Shanghai Honey
Time: 6:35 PM

Mood: sick

song: "Shanghai Honey"- Orange Range


Well its been yet another interesting day, we had this extended assingment..
Do my teachers hate me?
I got a 10 paged ass from my English teacher, my history teacher gave us 6 documents to have a PPA for each in complete sentences; then answer 18 questions; and then write a essay. Totally uncool but I got it done so Im happy :D

I havent been more passionate about want to design something now! XD Ive been meaning to..>_> Sooo Im going to plan out yet another original cosplay..just something that suits me I guess. *shrugs*
Shuichi is a biiiggggg maybe right now due to hotel and reg money and such X.X
My mum's b-day is today but shes working so we're gonna celebrate on the weekend
Anywho,
Still sick..
Talked to Rick and Micheal till..1AM? Ugh that was so fun but I am sleepy..Atleast I got to snooze a bit in TAKS ;D
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

wheeeee
Time:7:54

mood: sick

song:"Stairway to Heaven"-DJ MYSTIK

TAKS test was of course very homosexual.
Though Punsak (Pooney's bro) and I played tic-tac-toe on the desk with our erasers since we couldnt draw or talk.
So it was funny, though..
Im sick..X.X
I lost my voice early this morning and kept squeaking when I tried to talk..UGGHH
So Im drinking tea right now. ^^ go me.
Good Luck to all of those who have to suffer with TAKS
And ..uhh..
Selen: Eat Cheese and sing under the stars..

XD!!yeah...we'll go with that then.

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Sunday, April 16, 2006

Yay
Quick Post:

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SETH!

:D

Yup, Saturday was our 1 year anni. since we first met. XD
Go us!!




Seth, remember the Kakashi and Sakura jokes? :3 Ohnose, Akon elevators..XD
And this pic^^^ just seems to suit us. X3
*big huggies*
Happy Anniversary!


Selen: you sound like you two are married...

XD nah, its just us being Sisters! whee
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ualueualeualeuale
Time: 12:12 *makes wish*

mood: tired

song: nothing

Spent time with Keri, got new furniture for our house, etc etc
Went to Trader's and played some DDR and Karaeoke Rev. :D
It was Rockin'
anywho.
Hope your Peep day is filled with chocolates and good laughs..
kekekeke..like Batman! XD
*read topic title*
If you want to get the joke, go to google and type:
"Batman Ualuealuealue" :3 You'll see..XD




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Saturday, April 15, 2006

Oh you touch my *beep* jk! :3
Time: 12:35 PM

Mood: carefree!

song: "Distance"-Utada Hikaru

Hmm lets see, well Keri's spending quality time over here. ^_^
Oh thats right! I had to explain about last Sunday!
"The Misadventures in WallyWorld"
Ok.
Soooo Krys, Chris, and I were driving to WallyWorld to get curtains and whatnot for their apartment, I was just along for the entertainment.
I brought my CD along so we were listening..more like blasting various songs like "La Passion" (They seem to like that song" , Cascada, DJ Ross, Effel 65, etc with a good bass! :D I <3 My daddy's truck..:3 It has a good sound system!
Annnnyyywhoo
So we're in wallyworld, me looking VERY emo-rific
:D (I had my glasses and black egyptian shirt with baggy pants on)So we're trying to find stuff and chris keeps making jokes and we kept picking on poor Krys :3 I couldnt help it.
And then we were in this one section and this little kid kept STARING at me..It was sorta creepy..like she knew something..
Selen: like me?

O_O Maybe..*shrugs*
Anyways, we were in a Easter section and I saw those dancing toy thingys...but as Duckies and Bunnies so my brother presses them all and we watch them dance, we agreed they looked like zombies
Chris kept pressing them over and we also noticed they were kinda pervish!XD
These people kept staring at us, it was great.
Then Krys almost lost her credit card, but we found it...in the bag.
*sigh*
Anywho
Keri and I are going down to Trader's to check out the Guitar Heros tourney :3
Yay go us

lots of hearts and such


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Friday, April 14, 2006

Time: 12:07 AM

Mood: exhausted from everything

song: Passion-KH2

Im so tired of everything..
bleh! Akon needs to get closer X.X
Short post but Im too lazy to post anything right now, I had a long day with so much I guess its times for some much needed downtime..*sigh*

So guys, take care k?

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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

ahhhhhhhhh
Time: 10:10 PM

Mood: eee

song: nothing currently.


Watched Brookback Mountain...it was great! :3
especially since-

Selen: JAKE GYLLNHAAL!!! <3 EEEEE

Yes, Jake..:3 Im a die-hard fangirl of Jake Gyllnhaal.
So to see him cry over a guy such as Keith was like some kind of sappy fantasy! XD
OMG...I just loved it! IT WAS LOVE!
UGH *holds heart* < D
Selen: *swoons with hearts in eyes* Such pretty eyes!

Though Jake and Brian look alike. XD So Brian, you're my Jake now! EEEE :3

Anywho

I have a random quote then I'll post tomorrow what happened Sunday.

"You're not taller than Jesus"

XD I'll tell the reason why tomorrow


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Sunday, April 9, 2006

San Angelo P 2
Time: 4:44 PM

Mood: not tired

song: "Emotion"-DJ Ross (remix)

Well Im not falling asleep at the computer now~ XD It was terrible last night! I was trying to type this up but I kept making typos and I would drift off. One time I hit my head on the keyboard, thats where I drew the line and decided to continue today.
Selen: You should have seen your face when you hit the keyboard.

Shut up..>/ It hurt ;_;

Anywho~

Saturday:
Woke up at 5:30 AM...much to our dismay..We wanted to sleep till atleast 6 but Chief was pounding at our door at 5:30 so we gave up and got ready.
We watched some TV, like the news and weather...and billy and mandy XD then went downstairs with the others to eat breakfast. :3 Yum.
Loaded up the bus with all our junk and cuddled in my blankie as we road to San Angelo State and then got our all the Drill Team stoof and then went to our rooms where Blue Brigade went off to practice. Jackie and I wrote "We <3 Blue Brigade" on the board as Chris wrote Pre-Cal stuff..T_T *shakes fist at chris*
Blue B. came back in a bad mood and we got them all spiffy and shiney-like.
Then we marched off to the drill pad(s)and they did a heck of a job! They were literally sparkly..seriously! They were that shiney! ^_^
They missed a few questions but it was all good. We kept our spirits up.
Eva or Evvie whatever
Selen: Evvie McBitch!:D
Shush, anyways she was whinning about not being able to do PT since she "hurt" her ankle and Chief was "saying she will bring the team down" blah blah blah, Dev and I thought it was funny.
So as we were walking she was still complaining and I finally say something.
Me: Evvie, stop your whinning. Its pathetic. If Cheif said this then prove him wrong! If you think you can do it then do it. No If ands or buts.
I *would* have said more but I knew if I did I would just bring her to cry off to Bob *rolls eyes* She walked off and then Bob came to look for her. We didnt know and as we were walking we saw Bob running towards the rooms screaming cuss words.
Ok...Bob is a senior...hes been to drill meets..SHOULDNT HE KNOW ITS NOT GOOD TO CURSE AT DRILL MEETS!!! Where officers and PEOPLE WHO ARE GRADING THE TEAM ARE LISTENING.
Yup, right then and there I walked up to bob and told him to shup up with the curse words. It would not help. Evvie was screaming at the people who were trying to help and starting crap. So it pissed me off more. :/ I dont like PT Team, well except for Gilmore , Steve, and Leah..they seem to WANT to work out.
Anyways, they all run off to the PT field...well..try to run..*covers mouth* And then Vanessa and Leah did PT (Vanessa took over for Evvie) I think Evvie was talking shit about all of us or whatever but I dont care. She can shove it. :3 Cause she is one to talk. *giggle*
Oh Im such a bitch :D But thats alright, since I have a reason to be. ^^v
Watched other perforamnces then Alex and I walked back to get food. X.X Since we didnt eat. Tim hung out with us as they rolled up their shorts to make them look reallllyy short and I just thought it was silly looking. They tried convincing me to roll up my pants....but I didnt want to..>_>. Loaded the bus with the drill team stuff then marched down to the awards ceremony. We won 1st in Exibition and 2nd in Tandom twice. We thought we deserved better in the others but oh well..
Everyone was dead on the bus in the beginning as we , the few people who were up, watched "Stealth" which is an OK movie. poor Benett was a zombie, I shared my blanket with him and Jackie. He held some of the blanket and slept with his head on my lap. ^^;; Its was kinda cute, since his face was in the blanket and his arms were around his waist at first around his waist then fell to the floor. It was sorta funny actually. Since I thought for a second he died! XD Then he would wake up once in awhile and look around all sleepy-like and then fall back asleep in my lap. Then later as everyone slowly was waking up. we were complaining about being hungry and wanted to stop somewhere...Chef didnt feel like it and we kept whinning and Eric yelled "I want Beef!" Benett yells "Tacos..or chicken..." and then Jan yells, "I want human flesh" and it goes quiet for a second until alot of start laughing at him.
It was so funny, since Jan would call."Give me a Banana!" ( See Billy and Mandy to get it :3)
Then Benett would sing "The wheels on the bus go round and round..cause Cheif wont stop the bus!!"
Then other things that were said.
"We all want food! This is a democracy not a dictatorship!"
"The children on the bus go wah wah wah..cause chief wont stop the bus!"
"I feel like one of those slaves going to america to be sold to slavery."
"I crave REAL food"
"My bologna has a first name..is O-S-C-A-R...my bologna has a second name its M-A-Y-E-R.." (you know the rest! XD)
"Maybe Cheif will stop if we say we want fried chicken..."
and many more.. It was just so random and funny.
Especially since alot of them were so tired and when they tried singing the Bologna song..they sounded drunk/high.
Goodness..
Arrived back around 7-8ish and Benett, Jackie, and I went to HEB to grab some pizza and powerade then went back to Benett's to watch a movie. He dropped us off around 11 and then I wrote all I did then crashed near 12.
That was our last drill meet.....It saddens me since I had alot of good memories with these people but we plan on hanging out alot more. This is also my last year in ROTC. im actually just going to miss the drill meets..XD I still am going to talk to my friends in ROTC and such along with Col. so not regrets! ^_^
See previous post to read about friday and such! ^ ^ Ja ne
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