Sunday, December 18, 2005

I Can Change My Life
~* I Can Change My Life~*
Sitting there with tear stained cheeks,
"Please dont leave me" my lips speak.
"We'll meet again soon"
Were the words you last echo
I stare out into the midnight sky with dull silver eyes
Dont think its all your fault
Or Listen to my song that makes me think of you and I
Remember all the time we shared
Show me that smile of yours once again.
Dont worry about me, I will be fine,
There will come a point
I can change my life...

Well theres that random thing I made up durning lunch one day!

Selen: Is it a poem?

No, its just something there that I wrote down my thoughts!

Selen: Its almost time for them to come over..I cant wait! wheee

Yeah yeah, <3
Oh we played a fun game tonight! XD

"Vroom Vroom in the sky!"

"The other white meat"
"Gerbil!"

"Big eyes h00t h00t!"

XD hahahaha it was too funny..

Anyways
um..yeah!

Selen: You touch my tralala..my ding ding dong!

Erm...yeah..sure..ok...Wait...God we've been hanging around Poony too much.. XD


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Saturday, December 17, 2005

bab dub ba
Time: 6:54

Mood: whee

Song: "Lonely"- Techno mix DJ Ross

I rreeaallyyy like this song, I dont know why but theres something about it..I guess its cause I listen to the lyrics and think about them<3
Hmm lets see, my parents are throwing a party which is currently going on.
Selen: WE HAD RUM AND EGGNOG!
yup! It was reaalllllyyy good <3 We also are suppose to play a game sometime later...I cant wait till tomorrow, I get to see Sethy , Brian, Sethos, and Ashley!
Selen: They're coming over finally? BONDAGE MAX! X3
Indeed my dear sweet Selen ^_^
Anyways, umm lets see...hmm.Oh! Well Im glad its finally time for winter break! Stress free...I get to make presents and sew! whheeee

Emotion~
Lonely, lonely, lonely

Hey, you'll never run alone on your way
open your eyes I'm here again
movin' on, movin' on, movin'on

lay down on me and don't be afraid
I'll be your game and take my hand
so we can play and
movin' on, movin' on, movin'on

Sometimes I feel you're gonna break down and cry
I wanna see the moonlight deep in your eyes
I wanna stand with you my baby and you'll never
be lonely,
lonely

Sometimes I feel you're gonna break down and cry
I wanna see your body that moves in the night
I wanna see you shine deep and you'll never be
lonely, lonely

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Friday, December 16, 2005

I feel all warm
time: 4:01 PM

Mood: warm and fuzzy :3

Song: Poony's Techno CD <3

Today was a awesome day!!!
I finshed exams so Im off the hook and my connections are back now! YYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~!
Anyways, I got a VERY nice gift from my friend Paul..
Its a sapphire with silver rimming and chain!! Its fromJames Avery....so I was like."O.O" the whole time when he gave it to me...I was SO shocked!
Went to dilver Toys today too with my friends...it was sooo niiceee the first lady was crying and we were all trying nt to cry. She hugged all of us and thanked us soo many times. After that we were in the car and it was silvent and I ask, "Does everyone have that warm, fuzzy feeling?" and we were talking about how it was very nice to feel this and we were all teary eyed.
It was so much fun! We had a seatbelt race..XD
Got home and here I am.
Cant wait to talk to you all again~!
As I was saying in the previous post.
Being single sucks..I mean yeah its great to be flirrting but..I get all sad when I see the couples.. BAH..Oh well..
<3
On antother note, since everyone seems to have a companion I like to introduce you to Selen!
Shes very weird...
Selen: Shush! I <3 Fruit!!
Yes we know that hun...^_^ Selen is an Oddball but she be comming to more posts soon.
Selen: YEAH! You get to hear me comment about her life..hehe..heh..
O.O alrighty then....*thumbs up* Selen ish funny...
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Thursday, December 15, 2005

Ou You Touch My-*insert word*
Time: 5:14 PM

Mood: I dunno

song: nothing except Josh's rambles

Well I have 2 more exams left! WHOOPIEEEEEE
Today was fun, I got to sleep till 7 AM! X3 Oh it felt soooo niiiceee...Anyways
Got to school and we watched Phantom of the Opera on my DVD player. Hehe..twas much fun.
I miss everyone. and I HOPE to talk to you all soon.
But also, I found out I may not get to have a hangout Saturday....yeah...Im sorry guys..Its still up there and I cant talk to anyone so it sucks! I wanna screams.....T_T
ANYWAYS~
You know...it sucks being single...g2g
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Heres a little song people might know dedicated to *someone*
~* Wishing You were Somehow here Again~*

You were once
my one companion . . .
you were all
that mattered . . .
You were once
a friend and father -
then my world
was shattered . . .
Wishing you were
somehow here again . . .
wishing you were
somehow near . . .
Sometimes it seemed
if I just dreamed,
somehow you would
be here . . .
Wishing I could
hear your voice again . . .
knowing that I
never would . . .
Dreaming of you
won't help me to do
all that you dreamed
I could . . .
Passing bells
and sculpted angels,
cold and monumental,
seem, for you,
the wrong companions -
you were warm and gentle . . .
Too many years
fighting back tears . . .
Why can't the past
just die . . .?
Wishing you were
somehow here again . . .
knowing we must
say goodbye . . .
Try to forgive . . .
teach me to live . . .
give me the strength
to try . . .
No more memories,
no more silent tears . . .
No more gazing across
the wasted years . . .
Help me say
goodbye


BTW: read post below! <3
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ROUND 1- Done with BCIS Midterm!
Time: I dunno...around 9?

Mood: happy

song:"At the Beginning"- ummm I forgot the artist...Its at the tip of my tongue..>_>;;;

Well Im dont finally with mid-term 1! 6 more to go! X3 whhee...I have 2 more today then I'll update...Sunday?
I wont be on at ALL this week. :/ I have to study and my mum is closing off ALLLLLL my connections: phone, email, IM, etc untill the end of exams..so I'll be chatting alot Friday. :)
Important:
Seth, Sethos, Ashley: Will you be able to spend the night Saturday? Since Brian is coming over that day we were going to be hanging out at my house. :3 and a big sleepover..so I wont get bored cause my parents are throwing this "party".
I'll be posting some poetry sometimes <3 I got this pretty good one but I left it at home! DX GAAAOOOO~!
Hmm I wanna place this song here cause its cool!
~Geisha Dreams~
Empty heart and empty soul,
a lover on remote control
all colors fade to grey the more they play this love charade
Why dont you see? Why dont you feel that love is free?
Ichigi, Ichigo,
all alone in tokyo
Dont you see? Dont you know?
They have no where else to go?
Ichigi, Ichigo
Far away from Tokyo
They believe in Geisha Dreams

Perfect body and perfect smile
And illusion far and wide.
Dont know how to love but put the mind at ease.
Why dont you see? Why dont you feel that love is free?
Ichigi, Ichigo,
all alone in tokyo
Dont you see? Dont you know?
They have no where else to go?
Ichigi, Ichigo
Far away from Tokyo
They believe in Geisha Dreams


It goes something like that
But when I first heard that song I imediately thought of "Memoirs of a Geisha"
I SOOOOOOOO wanna see that movie..so hopefully my mum will take me <3
well I must be off, Ja'ne and ttyl sometime soon..I hope! X3
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Tuesday, December 6, 2005

whooo
Time: Im not sure

Song:"Night of Fire"-Boy mix! <3

Mood: happy


Woo! Currently in BCIS, been busy studing for mid terms so the only way you will or CAN contact me if you DESPRATELY need me is pretty much by phone or if I somehow get online for a little while.
Midterms are next week..DX So much WORK! ahhhhhh x-mas shopping, baking LOTS of things, cleaning, money saving, making outfits, oh my! O.O IM SOOO GOSH DARN BUSY DESU! @_@ pakyu pakyu~!
Anyways, I got Sanin for the raver ninja clan which SHOCKED me beyond all reason! I was checking the site ...sunday? And I was scrolling through and went to go see the winner of the second sanin and I saw..I won..I was like: O.O; daaaaa?!!!??! Im sanin!?
I will do my best and try my hardest to be a great sanin along with the other two, wuffers and wild! <3
*many hearts*
Anyways~
I hope to hangout with alot of friends the 17th...HOPEFULLY, I cant the 10th due to the drill meet but oh wells.
I'll update more laters <3 ja'ne~~
Pakyu~ Pakyu~! <3

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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Sleepover
Time: Im in BCIS

Mood: Pretty good

Song: Some trance station

Woo! Let me talk about *my* version of the sleepover.
Okies, well Saturday came around and my dad was going to take me to Sethos' well, we were about to leave when he says "Oh nvm, she lives halfway around the world tori!!" I just stood there, trying to remain calm and told him nevermind then left, him going back to his business. *rolls eyes* My mum called since she was at work and asked why I didnt leave yet, I told her what happened and she sighed, knowing how I must have felt. So anyways, Chris wondered what was up and I told him so he then, being a VERY big help, drove me to Sethos house! I was SO happy when he said he would do that, hes a great listener and I always love talking to him about different things..I might talk to him later about some stuff.
Anyways, we got there and Much hugging ensued, met Ashley and that was great! <3 We all talked about horror movies then Chris left and we continued watching The Grudge, making very hilarious comments about it. Pizza came and we ate while watching this one comedian, Richard Jennings, whom is VERY hilarious...hee hee! XDDDD
Ohnose! Its the Penis of the Opera! XD Ok Ok anywho...
I'll finish later! bye byeeee



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Saturday, November 26, 2005

I wonder


WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

I committed suicide:

I said I liked you:

I kissed you:

I liked someone you did't:

I started smoking:

I stole something:

I was hospitalized:

I ran away from home:


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

Personality:

Eyes:

Face:

Hair:

Clothes:

Who are you?

Are we friends?

When and how did we meet?

What do you think of me?

What's the fondest memory you
have of me?

How long do you think we will be
friends or enemies?

Do you love me?

Have I ever hurt you?

Would you hug me?

Would you kiss me?

Are we close?

On a scale of 1-10, how
attractive am I?

Give me a nickname and explain
why you picked it.

How long have you known me?

Describe me in one word.

What was your first impression?

Do you still think that way about me now?

What do you think my weakness is?

Do you think I'll get married (if yes to who)?

What reminds you of me?

What's something you would change about me?

How well do you know me?

Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

If so tell me now?

Do you think I would kill someone?

Are you going to put this on your otaku sitez and see what I say about you??


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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

The Penguins slowly take my sanity one by one...
Time: 2010 (8:10 PM)

Mood: slowly getting by

song: Im too lazy to get my CD player...which is on the 3RD STORY!! DX


Day II at this place I call... "grandmother's house"
Slowly getting by with my sanity still in tak. :)
Woke up around 8 from my dad asking me if I wanted to go with him to see my granny. I said sure, its better than going shopping with my mother and "mimi" (aka: grandma..She'd kill me/ b**** at my if I called her that..it makes her sound old)
Anywho! I took a shower and ran down...4 flights of stairs to make it to the kitchen and delcare my presence known. My dad and I left and we talked ALOT about life and other things in general.
Its scary how alike we are.... >_> too alike...DUN DUN DUN!
Visted for awhile and my bonding insued with teh kitty and CUTE wittle 3 month puppy. <3 heee I also tried a Kalu'a or however you spell it...its not all good.. :/ taste kindy icky for me. bleh.
Left then went back here where I searched for my art pad...to realize I left it at the Dugas (try and pronouce it! It you say it correctly to my face I promise a cookie. :3)
Anyways, I get all annoyed that I left it and began to brood then my "mimi" called me downstairs..which made me run down 4 flights of stairs and to see why she called me. She dragged me to her friends house b/c she was worried for her or something, since her friend has no arms or legs. >> << Yeah, well we got there and NO ONE was awnsering the door or the phone so we're trying to figure out the code then we get it and rush inside, to find her friend VERY drunk. Boy was she cussing up a storm..O_O;; Anyways, we, well I helped her to the bed and got her all compfy, and she seemed very out of it. Her boyfriend comes over later after we called him and takes care of her. HER HOUSE IS BEAUTIFUL!! oh my gosh!! I <3'd her house! I would LOVE having a house that awesome. <3 pweeee..
Got back and Uncle Wil and Aunt Toby came over! They're totally awesomes.
It was funny how Mimi and Aunt Toby kept arguing and arguing and..ARGUING XD Uncle Wil, Papa, my dad, and I were placing bets on whom will win and counting up "diss points" Indeed a intriguing time. My lil bro has been at the Dugas' house this whole time so its been kinda lonely without him....*sigh*...Ok happy time again X3
Getting back Friday night...cant wait... Im so bored. and I miss everyone.
Hope everyone has a good Giving Thanks. :)
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3


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