Friday, April 21, 2006

   Rawrrrrrrrrr~~ Angry Rant post! Fair Warning to everyone
time: 5:25 pm

mood: pissed/upset/bleh/tired/glad to be home

song: "Ordinary World"-Aurora


Came in from a rainy Thursday on the avenue
Thought I heard you talking softly
I turned on the lights, the TV and the radio
Still I can't escape the ghost of you
What is happening to it all?
Crazy some say
Where is the life that I recognize?
Gone away

* But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way to
the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence
once prompted you to say
Pride will tear us both apart
Well now pride's gone out the window
Cross the rooftops, runaway
Left me in the vacuum of my heart

What is happening to me?
Crazy some say
Where is my friend when I need you most?
Gone away

* repeat

Papers in the roadside tell of suffering and greed
Feared today forgot tomorrow
Here beside the news of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk
Blown away

Just blowing away

And don't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way to
the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Every world is my world

Any world is my world

---End---



Well today started out fun, Jenifer and I had opened a new deck of cards from the teacher and we played go-fish.
Though at the end we found out there were five 7's and three 8's so we made the extra 7 an 8 of spades ..using a black permie..it was sooo weird but the teacher got the biggest kick out of it.

Anywho..Onto my rant (this is where you can leave now if ya want)

Selen: hoo boy..*grimance*


Ok boys and girls, if a friend tells you that the "attempted suiside" for the...4th time I believe? How do you feel? Pissed and upset? You *care* for your friend after all.
Well, lets just say I had to deal with it.
My friend was talking about how last night she attempted suiside again and that she cant take life anymore since no one seems to care and how alot of our friends are "heartless" and "assholes". So when the other girls were showering her with "Its ok" and such so adterwards I went up to her and told said how she shouldnt be doing this in the first place, since we are after all in highschool; we're going to meet assholes and such! She glared at me and had her arms crossed the whole time, talking back about different things; which I can relate to since I went through the EXACT same crap pretty much and Im still here and happy.
She tries walking away from me and I hold her arm and tell her I cant because I care about her I want her to know this and not ignore me or roll her eyes like she did.
This happened a few more times, finally she yelled for me to let go and I didnt do it so she yells again and I let go, reaaalllllyyyy pissed off.
I wanted to smack her soooo badly and let her see reality but, I didnt. I just grabbed my things and went to a seculded spot to cool off away from everyone.
I've cooled off alot more so Im not as pissy but still Im upset as well since I worry and if she does do something I'll be scareming at her grave as to why she did this and how all her friends will be here and she'll realze that we DO care!
mnaasfkgsdfkugwefkgbdhgadkugakughfiugdf;kuadfgukedfkjuzxbsdkjljhxdgy!!!!
>_<
*eats grapes*

Selen: *pats head* Yeah, its okies

Atleast we get to go to O-con at O'Conner..>_>
Sooo if any of you want to go~~ IM me! ;D

(O'conner is in TX)
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