Thursday, July 12, 2007

   3rd chapter sry it was a day late
You: I'd played a few old-fashioned games like this before" A lot of text, kind of boring. But because the name was fred I wondered if old fred was involved in making up this game so I played along. What would I do if Fred showed up in my driveway? GET IN, I typed. Fred starteds Driving. Where do you want to go? You: TELL HIM I WANT TO GO BACK TO THE CITY. Fred drives. There was some la-di-da stuff about driving past cows and horses, just like when Fred and I had come out here, which was weird. But I answered all the questions. Once we got to the city, the game asked me where I wanted to go. I thought about it. Did I really want to go back to the holmsteads? Agter they'd gotten sick of fostering teenagers and kicked us all out? And anyway it was just a game. I figured that once I got as specific as a single address it would work anymore. But what the heck. I was getting borfed with the game. I typed in Nates address. Are you sure? the computer asked. I blinked YES, IM SURE. As you approach Nates house you see him coming out, what do you do? HUG HIM I typed. You're still in the car. Oh duh I typed GET OUT OF THE CAR. He doesnt see you because hes talking to someone. WHO IS HE TALKING TO? Jessica and Tanika. I stared at the screen ads my stomach knotted up. This was truly bizarre. I knew Jessica and Tanika. They were twins, and they'd been hott gor Nate as lond as I could remember. I DONT BELIEVE YOU For, like, ten seconds, a visual flashed on the screen sure enough it was the front of Nates house. Jessica and Tanika each had one of his hands and they were pulling him down his front proch steps as he laughed and tried to resist but not very hard. My stomach hurt and my heart pounded. I felt like logging off. What a stupid game. What a creepy game. I knew It wasnt real' I knew Nate wouldnt even talking to those twin tarts, but it still bothered me. Fred had given me a sadistic game. What was up with that? And it made some tiny corner of my heart question. Would Nate really be faithful to me now that I was gone? what do you want to do now? the fame asked. I was disgusted with it. SCRATCH THEIR EYES OUT? You cannot interact at this level. Yeah whatever. All of a sudden i got an idea. Before I could think. I typed it in, I WANT TO SEE MY MOTHER. In no way did I think the game would do something like that. I didnt even know if my mom was still in pittsburg although thats where we'd alway lived. She could be anywhere. But the game made fred start driving me He drove out of Nates street on the south side crossing the river on a bridge I recongnized and then passing neighborhoods I didnt know. My heart was really pounding now Ever since Mom had that bad time when I was eight and gave up I'd wanted to see her again. but all I got from my social workers were excuses. It made me wonder: was there something really wrong with mom? was she sick? DEAD?



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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

   Second Chapter of my story so enjoy
Fred stopped the car but, thankfully, he didnt open the door right away. He turned to look at me. "Are you okay kiddo?" He asked. I had to swallow a couple of times before I could answer. "NO" "Look" he said Reaching into his shirt pocket. "Before we go in, I have something for you, It might make you feel better about everything." He handed me an envolope. "Thanks." I was surprised. He'd only taken over my case amonth ago.And in a whole string of social workers, not one had ever given me a gift. I hoped it was money. "Can I open it now?" A funny smile crinkled his face and a sparkle in his eyes made him look like a mad little elf. "No wait until later, When you;re on the computer." he said. By the time "later" came, my head was spinning. Maybe it was the cake Susan had made--Super sweet yellow with choclate icing, my favorite. Someone must have told her. (Fred) It was nice of her to make it and I managed to choke some down but I was uptight for one thing, the daughter Kelly wasnt exactly my type. She was skinny and tailored and tense. But Susan clearly thought that since we were both fifteen we were going to be the best of friends. "Now, you each have your own bedroom" Susan said upstairs after Fred had left and we'd brought in all my stuff. "You share the study and bathroom" My bedroom looked like the set of CITY GIRLS GO COUNTRY: Hardwood floors, fringy little rugs, and ruffled curtains tied back with yellow ribbons. I could tell Susan had decorated it and wanted me to gush. Well, tough. Sure, I was grateful to have my own room But this place totally wasnt me. I was chrome and black leather, not flowers and country charm. Just more evidence that this wasnt the right place for me. When I saw the computer in the study I brightened up. While I was here until I came up with a new plan at least I could stay in touch with my old friends. "I need to check my email," I said "I need the computer tonight too," Kelly said quickly. "Homework." "I'm sure you two can negotiate that," Susan said "Kelly you've got laundry in the basement to fold and put away and Trinity, you need to get your things organized for school tomorrow." "Whoa," I said "Wait up I cant start school tomorrow." "Why not" Susans eyebrows went up just a little. Because i'm freaking out here "I, um, Im not registered, Dont I have to do some official stuff first?" "I've got it all taken care of," Susan said "I'll go in with you tomorrow and we'll finalize your classs but thats it. You should be able to start with your homeroom period an go through the day." "Moma effiecient" Kelly said. I excused myself went into the bright pink bathroom I was to share with Kelly and threw up. When I came back out and went into my bedroom Susan was waiting.. "Are you okay?" I nodded "I just havent been feeling all that great maybe I have a little flu. Maybe I shouldnt go to school tomorrow" Susan patted the bed beside her and I sat down keeping a good foot of distance between me but I could tell she wanted to put her arm around me, but no matter what her title was shw wasnt my mother, and I wasnt staying so there was no point in getting all lovey-dovey. "Trinity," She said "I know this must be very difficult for you leaving you old home and strating out new." Its okay." I lied. Obviously she didnt believe me. "Even though Its hard, I want you to go to school tomorrow unless youre really sick. We believe in good school attendace in this family" I stared down at my knees. I wasnt really sick but I dreaded the tought of starting out new, in the middle of tenth grade at some school where everyone already had their friends. "Kelly will help you get through the day," She said. "and we'll make sure you know your way around." "Its a small school, so I think you'll find it a lot friendlier than what youre used too." "Sure" I said. I could tell there was no point in arguing with Susan After all she was a lawyer. Anywya, it was only for a few days," Good girl" She scooted over and gave me a little squeeze around my shoulders. I went into my fence post act. No way was I hugging her back. She stood up. "Now, I'll bet you can get on that computer before ke;;y comes back up." The thought of e mailing Nate made me smile. "Thanks" I said and I meant it. Moments later I was online and just as I'd hoped there was an email from Nate.

HEY BABE I MISS YOU WANT LOVE YOU SCOPE THE SCEEN AND TELL ME WHEN I'LL SNAG A CAR AND COME VISIT ITS NOT THE SAME AROUND HERE WITHOUT YOU.

I wrapped my arms around my middle as I read it again and again. Nate wasnt much of a talker but he was sincere and he had respect. We'd been together for a year and before I left we swore we'd stay faithful to each other I answered e-mails from some other friends and surfed a little. Kelly wasnt back yet and I figured she was talking to her mom. I didnt feel tired more like high sturng and worried and I didnt know what to do with myself. The I remembered the card old fred had given me. I got it out and opened it. The card itself looked like fred witha swirled design anc a cosmic poem inside. No money unfortunaltely. Freds message said, "If you ever feel like going home check out this site." and there was a web address. Oh, geez. Probably some psychologival site for unhappy teens. But wha the hey I qualified for that! I typed in the address: www.ALTLIVES.com. What came up was a game. Some gift. I mean, I know social workers didnt make much money but to tell me hes giving me a gift and then point me to a website with some silly computer game... Oh well. Fred wasnt the first social worker to disappoint me. Just for fun I stated playing. The first prompt was a car shows up in your driveway, Freds driving...........


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Monday, July 9, 2007

The first chapter of my story very interesting
I didnt plan on jumping out of a moving car, and I deffinatly didnt plan on landing in a cow pie. Its just that Fred wasnt listening when I said I really, really didnt want a new family. Freds streaky gray hair flowed down the back of his tie-dyed shirt and his voice was classic social worker. "Theres your new school," he said "Its small, Homey, You'll make friends fast." But I saw the squat, light-brick building in a different way. Small schools are cliquish and nosy, and theres not a lot of space of difference. And me I was different. Not to mention that I'm totally urban. so when I saw the firld full of cows right next to the school I lost it and jumpedFortunaltely I was wearing my leather jacket and jeans so I didnt get scraped up by thestrands of barbed wire I flew through and im not totally stupid I grabbed Freds Cell beforehand. My plan was to call Nate, my boyfriend back in the city where i so fully belonged and get him to beg borrow or steal a car and come rescue me. The cow pie gunked up my plans. "Euew" i screamed and knelt there in the tall grass trying to wipe off my jacket. It was the most expensive thing I owned. A gift from nate. Behind me I could hear Fred's old ford screecheing to a halt. "Are you okay?" asked a girls voice above me. I looked up to see a line of girls dressed in workout clothes. They were leaning over the fence that separated the school from the cow pasture, squinting in the late-afternoon sun. Fred came panting up behind me. "Trinity" "WHat do you think you're doing? You could have been killed, and just when-" he squatted down in the tall frass beside me. "Are you alright?" "Im fine" I said "She landed in cow crap!" giggled on of the firls. "Dont talk trash" said another girl. I rolled my eyes. If that was trash talk, This place was even more backward than I'd thought. "Trinity" fred said, taking hold of my clean arm, "get back in the car. You know I'll have towrite an incident report about this." "And get me sent to saint helens?" I asked.
That would be cool. Saint helens home for girls was in the same neighborhood as Nate. "In you dreams" Fred said "Come on , back in the car" Flag team line up competition is one week away!" came a voice behind the line of girls. I sighed and headed back toward the car, letting fred fuss with a little scrape on my knuckle while I used his bandanna to wipe of my smelly jacket. After we were inside fred started driving again but he was at least taking me more seriously. "Trinity, listen to me, this family is perfect for you. Whats more Susan is interested in adopting you if everything works out well" "Yeah right" I knew tat would never happen not at my age. I'd been to enough adoption picnics to know that adoptive parents wanted a cute baby to hold not a forteen year old with brown skin a 36-b and a belly butten ring. "I thought you liked Susan" Fred ct off the main road and turned right in between two fielfds. A pickup truck drove by and the driver gave us a little wave. three fingers, toot toot of his horn. Where I was from that would have been a gang signal. "Susans fine" I said "Its not that" "She thinks youre more than fine" he said. "Shes very impressed with your academic achievements and she thinks she has a lot to offer you. Shes a lawyer you know." "Yeah big deal" My regular social worker had already given me the lowdown on how Susan works a lot in family court, and thatwas why she got interested in foster care. Susan had come into the city to meet me a couple of times. she was a real business woman, all suits and sesible shoes and she talked smart. Nice enough, but I didnt want to be her good deed for the year. We were getting closer to the house I could tell from how fred turned onto another even narrower road. My hear started pounding harder. This was really going to happen and I didnt want it to. I just wanted Nate so he could wrap his big arms around me and tell me everthing would be okay. But there was somehting else I wanted even more and because i was pushed into a corner i blurted it out. "I dont want a new family, I want my real mom" Fred glanced over at me. "Trinity thats not going to happen." "Why not? If she knew the Holmsteads put us all out on the street shed take me." The holmsteads had been my foster parents for five years. It was nothing great but it wasnt bad. Fred shook his head. "She couldnt take care of you. She woud want nothing more than for us to find you a permanent adoptive family." He turned into along dirt driveway. We approached a big white house. The front poarch had rocking chairs and a swing. A couple of big trees stood in the yard, and a old volvo was parked beside the house. Balloons bobbed on the front porch railing and a computer generated banner read "Welcome Trinity." That made me feel funny. Sort of happy in the babyish part of myself because id never had birhtday parties and all that, and when I was a kid, i'd really wanted to. But it also seemed kind of fake. Susan didnt know me and she didnt know how it was all going to work out so why act like everything was beutiful. And the front door was opening, and there was Susan plus a teenager about my age. Oh yeah her REAL daughter. She'd been too busy with all her social activities to meet me when Susan had. They ewre both smiling and waving. I felt like I might get sick. Everything was moving along faster than the race car video games Nate and I loved to play but I was going in the wrong direction away from what I wanted and toward what I didnt want.

Thats the end of the first chapter wait til later for the second chapter!


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