Monday, October 31, 2005

   Happy Hallowe'en to ya All!!!!
Mood: a bit confuzzled....dtill don knoe if im gonna 'trick or treat'

music:Astro Zombies by MCR/The Misfits & my humps by Black eyed Peas.....kinda a weird combo,but its stuck in my head!!!

So anyhow....what am i gonna do today??? im gonna be Kagome,Tati's gonna be a Harajuku girl,my sis is gonna be a Gothic Prom Queen,Eli's gonna be a purple dragon & Marybel's gonna be a what???!!! a freakin BUNNY??? we already discussed this at school when watshername said she ws gonna be a bunny--8th grade is a lil bit young to be scantily-clad on Halloween night.....especially when most of the girls in 8th grade dont even have anything to fill it out!!! p.s. im not one of em! And i asked her if she was gonna go out with us & she said 'i dunno,i might be in Mexico...' OKAY....thats odd.If she does come she better not be the Mean Girls type of 'Bunny'
I mean me & her LOOK UP TO THAT MOVIE!!!! everything we say is a quote from that movie! That movie is our GOD!!! She was kinda upset at me that i didnt got to Stasha's halloween party,but 1)i hate parties 2)last time i went to a party at stasha's house,we stayed in her room without her,with alex,melissa(who were ALL OVER EACH OTHER) & Alex's no offense but Lezbo sister!!! so that was kinda odd....People are acting weird lately.....everyone's changing.I feel like the world is spinning around around me & im just sitting there with my head in my knees.Thats how i spend lunch ya know? either that or drawing or talking to Kirstin about retarded stuff,things i would never tell anyone else,or funny things about our past.It sucks....I realize Kirstin is like my only REAL friend.She's the only one that can make me smile,she's the only one thats always there...what am i gonna do when she moves?? Last year,right before school got out when the 8th graders would be gone forever,i just broke down.And i wouldnt talk to anyone.Then i asked Kirstin to come with me & she made me feel better.All Marybel did was go tell my sister i was crying & FYI,my sister is the LAST person i want to let know i was bawling at school for 'no reason' which in fact,there was reason---i was afraid of change.

Ya know what im upset about right now?? ya know what i wanted before halloween? to watch Hangman's Curse.Thats what i wanted.Thats what we did last year & it was the best halloween ever.There was just that feel good feeling,ya know? like when ur in love....it lasted until the end of the year,cuz after that,i was letting go of some things & gaining new things.even tho i think i was going thru depression,i would run away from it all by goin to the mall with Tati & fiana,or juss goin to their house.One day we went to go Christmas shopping & we ran into these punk guys.i was like 'eeew' at first but then i cant even describe the feeling after that.It was sooo wonderful....i had seen these guys before.And now im in love with one of them.i have been since that day.I remember,like a couple days after that,me,my sis,tati & fiana were in our loft,reanacting the video for 'im not okay' my theme song at the time, & watching The Crow.....memories i'll never let go
and will cherish forever.....haha that was corny,but still true!

on a couple of side notes....i cant wait for HARRY POTTER!!!! ive been waiting for this since 3rd grade!!! every time the commercial comes on i almost cry!!!!! were gonna see it opening day.YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA HOW EXCITED I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! another thing,do you guys watch Lost?? who do ya think is gonna die??? i think its gonna Be Kate,Michelle Rodriguez or the chick with the baby.I WANT it to be Kate or Michelle Rodriguez cuz i dont like Kate & Michelle hurt SAWYER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO HURT SAWYER!!!!! i dont want it to be chick wit baby cuz 1) she has a baby! & 2) CHARLIE!!!!! WHO'S GONNA TAKE CARE OF HIM???!! I WILL!!! I'LL TAKE CARE OF CHARLIE!!!

p.s. please take a looky at my last post,i still need ur opinions....
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