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Birthday
• 1993-04-07
Gender
• Female
Location
• I wish it was where mcr is
Member Since
• 2007-01-02
Occupation
• mcr roadie
Real Name
• brittany (britt for short) or Tradgedy Revenge as I am called most of the time by my friends.

Personal

Achievements
• meeting gerard way
Anime Fan Since
• forever
Favorite Anime
• naruto
Goals
• to be a guitar player in a band
Hobbies
• playing guitar, watching anime, reading manga, and eating ramen
Talents
• playing guitar

myOtaku.com: blackparadegrl

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Reflecting
Hey everyone. Please read my previouse post if you have not before reading this. Lately I've been reflecting on things. Life and death, mostly. I never thought I'd have to go through what I have gone through in the past. I don't think you all know what I'm talking about, but I know a few of you do. I'll fill you in, but this is extremely difficult for me because I'm still not fully over it. I had a best friend who we called Sakura. Me and her were inceperable. We did everything togeather. Then I ended up moving and we were still closer than ever. One day this girl that we used to hang out with did some very horrible and graphic things to her. I do not want to explain this because it still upsets me and I can never choke out the words for it. Sakura was in the hospital for a while and she just kept getting very sick from what that girl did to her. I stayed by her side the entire time untill I ended up getting kicked out of the hospital. They wouldn't let me see her and a few days later I found out from a friend crying hr eyes out over the phone that Sakura was dead. I miss Sakura a lot, especially lately. I know I have Lance now and everything, but nothing can ever fill the empty space in me that was her. I still find myself crying myself to sleep over it, I just can't get over it. If you are asking the reason why I am bringing this up now, it's because of two reasons. One is that her birthday is comming up, April 30 and that day I may not be on, it will be a very sad day for me. The second is that I'm seeing it all over again in Lance. I love him more than anything and I can't loose someone close to me again. I never want to go though that again. My life was a living hell before me and Lance started going out. He makes me happy and changed my life for the better. I'm really worried about him and lately I can't keep myself from crying. I've been through a lot on my short life, but if something ever happens to lance I don't know what I would do. I really hope he pulls through. He's still the same as in my last post. I just really hope he gets better. Not just for me, but for him, our friends and our families. I'm sprry for going on about all of this sad stuff, but I've been so sad lately and mentally torturing myself over this, I just needed to get it out. I'm sorry if I made anyone upset, but it's the truth. I hope you all have a wonderful day. And thank you for listening.

So Long And Goodnight

~Tradgedy Revenge~
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